Hello everyone! I am 31 years old,wife,and mother to three children,and I am FAT. There...I said it. I'm FAT. I think just admitting that took five pounds off my shoulders. I feel a bit better,but I have lots more to go to feel how I want to feel. This past halloween I was asked what I was dressed up as. I didn't have a costume persay..just pink eyelashes and wearing pj's to work. You know, last minute costume throw together. So I thought long and hard about it and told everyone I finally came up with what I was. I told them I was a skinning girl wearing a fat girl costume. Only problem is the zipper was stuck and I had to wear it year round. Well....I'm ready to take that fat girl costume off once and for all.
I have struggled my entire life with my weight. I grew up on fast food,and things that were premade. In HS I was 185, then dropped to 135. Then I stayed around 155 for the rest of HS. Once I got married I just kept packing on the weight. More babies (three in four and a half years) and just not taking care of myself. I do not what this kind of life for my children. If I want them to live a healthy life, then I have to work with myself first. Afterall...I am the one who feeds them. Sometimes I look in the mirror and think to myself "who is that?". My turning point is when I reached over the 300 mark. I went to the doctor last year and weighed in at 310 pounds. My heart sank, and the tears started coming. I could not believe I had gotten to that point. I knew I was overweight, but I didn't see myself as being 300 plus pounds. That was last year,and now I am down to 285 (last week I was 294). So it has taken me a year to lose 20 pounds or so. But you know what....I'm so glad I have lost 20 pounds instead of putting it on. Every day the kids and I are walking a little over a mile (to start out) and eating better at home. There are no more take outs, and if there are I get a salad and the kids get their regular stuff...but just once. We use eat out at least twice a week, now we are limiting it to twice a month (if that). I do not want to leave my kids behind at such a young age. The way I was headed would of been me digging an early grave. Food no longer has control over me. I will be able to one day run with my kids and play with them w/out running out of breath.
Right now I am setting small goals. Looking at the big picture is very intimidating. So I am wanting to be 220 by the summer. If I lose more than that...GREAT, if I just lose just the 220 then I am happy too. After I reach that goal I will set yet another. Please keep me in your prayers and encourage me, as I will all of you.
Thanks!!
I have struggled my entire life with my weight. I grew up on fast food,and things that were premade. In HS I was 185, then dropped to 135. Then I stayed around 155 for the rest of HS. Once I got married I just kept packing on the weight. More babies (three in four and a half years) and just not taking care of myself. I do not what this kind of life for my children. If I want them to live a healthy life, then I have to work with myself first. Afterall...I am the one who feeds them. Sometimes I look in the mirror and think to myself "who is that?". My turning point is when I reached over the 300 mark. I went to the doctor last year and weighed in at 310 pounds. My heart sank, and the tears started coming. I could not believe I had gotten to that point. I knew I was overweight, but I didn't see myself as being 300 plus pounds. That was last year,and now I am down to 285 (last week I was 294). So it has taken me a year to lose 20 pounds or so. But you know what....I'm so glad I have lost 20 pounds instead of putting it on. Every day the kids and I are walking a little over a mile (to start out) and eating better at home. There are no more take outs, and if there are I get a salad and the kids get their regular stuff...but just once. We use eat out at least twice a week, now we are limiting it to twice a month (if that). I do not want to leave my kids behind at such a young age. The way I was headed would of been me digging an early grave. Food no longer has control over me. I will be able to one day run with my kids and play with them w/out running out of breath.
Right now I am setting small goals. Looking at the big picture is very intimidating. So I am wanting to be 220 by the summer. If I lose more than that...GREAT, if I just lose just the 220 then I am happy too. After I reach that goal I will set yet another. Please keep me in your prayers and encourage me, as I will all of you.
Thanks!!
