New holiday, new attempt...this time i will not mess up!!

tinkerbella

tinkerbella

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Well this is diary no 2....diary number one resulted in losing over 40lbs (altho some of that was down to salmonella!) I am now looking at pretty much the same situtation as this time last year. Last spring i weighed 248lbs and really wanted to lose weight for mu holiday in july. This spring i weigh 238lbs (17st) and really want to lose weight for my holiday in july. My target is to lose 2 stones (24lbs) by july 3rd. My target weight will be bang on 15st for st lucia :):)

my plan is to stick to a fairly strict diet of 1400 cals per day and at least one form of exercise per day. Im also going to make sure that i walk 2 miles per day EVERY DAY (even if it rains which it does pretty much all the time here!) I'm also going to cut out wine completely as i feel that this is a major vice that just helps me to add on sooooo many empty cals.

I know the healthy eating way, the exercise plan that is best for me. I know my BMR and my harris benedict formulae....I know it all because i have tried so many times and pretty much failed because im a sucker for high cal crappy food and wine. I know that it's all on me and it still makes very little difference. Im an emotional eater and im ruled by the scale. I know that I'll do well for the first few weeks until the weight loss lessens and that's when i think 'what the hell' and go back to my old ways. I am still soooooo pissed at myself for putting most of the weight back on again! I annoy myself and i want that to change. So here goes...round 2 ding ding!
 
Start weight 238lbs

Start measurements

Chest - 99.4 cm
Waist - 103 cm
Hips - 124 cm
Thigh - 69 cm
Bottom - 124 cm
Upper arm - 36.1 cm
Calves - 43.5 cm


1ST MINI TARGET - 235LBS :) achieved!!

2ND MINI TARGET - 230LBS :) achieved!! 15th may

3RD MINI TARGETS - 225LBS

4TH MINI TARGET - 220LBS

5TH MINI TARGET - 215LBS

6TH MINI TARGET - 210LBS

I will aim to lose another 30lbs after that but at the moment i will consider it a success if i get down to 210lbs, which will make me around a uk size 14/16....perfectly ok for my height! Ultimately i am aiming to be around a uk size 10/12 but i will cross that bridge next :)
 
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Hit my first target despite not being really good about the eating plan:troll:

I have been on holiday for the last week and have another few days off so im just going to try to stick to healthier chioces until im back at work and in my routine. Then i will def kick it up a gear and make sure that i lose as much as possible before my holiday.

An added incentive is that some friends will be visiting in july and i havnt seen them for around 4 years. The last time i saw them i was pretty thin and i hate the thought that they will see me now and not recognise me. I know i cant lose enough to be as thin as i was then but i can def lose enough to feel more confident and not as helpless about the whole situation.

So by this friday i hope to be 233lbs or less :)
 
oh deary me i just saw the worst photo of me ever....it was awful :( I looked huge and i was with my friend who is very slim so i just looked like a massive whale next to her. oh well i suppose that photo will keep me in the right frame of mind to get thin aaarrrggghhhhhh :(:(
 
I managed to almost completely resist alcohol today :) Only had one small cocktail in the garden before dinner and no wine at all! Its a damn miracle ;)

I did a fair amount of exercise today as we were tidying up the garden and i painted all the wood and put down stones. My food was prob not ideal but it was def under 2000 cals so im def on the right track. I totally forgot to weigh myself on fri morning so i wll do it in the morning. Im really hoping to hit 233 or under.

I have a fair few events coming up in the next few months where i know for sure that there will be photos taken AND fod temptations so im going to make sure that my cals are adjusted accordingly. It's a really good incentive too as i dont want to look massive in every pic. Hopefully i'll be able to see myself shrinking!

My car has decided that it needs new bits and my holiday has to be paid soon so thankfully (in a weird way!) i wont be able to go out much at the weekends so that will def help the weight loss!
 
dammit :( im back up to 240...which is 2lbs HEAVIER than when i started:willy_nilly: how the hell has that happened? I can only think that i have drank way more than i thought and had a few too many nights out. I obviously underestimated my cals so i need to double check the content in everything and count carefully......i am just soooo annoyed with myself that i am now flipping heavier than when i started :(:(:(

So now the food diary (which i hate doing!) must start again. At least that way i can keep a totally accurate account of my cals.


so here goes!

Exercise - 4 mile walk (1hr 40 mins) cals burned 700 ish

FOOD

Lunch - turkey ham sandwich with salad cream 400 cals

Dinner - 2 l/f chicken fillet burgers in buns 600 cals, 200g oven chips 210 cals, mayo and tom sauce 100 cals

Snacks - crisps 130 cals, 3 squares choc 90 cals, coffee 60 cals

Total cals - Around 1600


BMR - 2275 cals

Cals eaten - 1600 cals - 700 cals burned = 1100

Defecit - 2275 - 1100 = 1275 calorie defecit for today


Im back to work tomorrow so hopefully it will be easy to fall into a routine :)

The plan is work, 2 mile walk, 30 mins tae bo workout, low cal dinner and then sleep!!

I have a family dinner on sat and i would like to weigh in at 235lbs on friday - ambitious but im going to work my ass off to try and shift these pounds.
 
well i weighed myself this morning and i have lost 1lb already so im on the right track! I have been really good with my food but i def need to get out and exercise today.

EXERCISE

2 mile walk ( i will!!!)
30 mins stretching and yoga


FOOD

Breakfast - coffee 50 cals

Lunch - 2 slices wholemeal bread 200 cal carrot and corriander soup 200 cal

Dinner - quorn chilli enchilada, rice and yoghurt 700 cals

Snacks - 2 x crisps 226 cals, coffee 50 cals

Total cals - Around 1500


BMR - 2275 cals

Cals eaten - 1500 cals - 300 cals burned = 1200

Defecit - 2275 - 1200 = 1075 calorie defecit for today
 
another good food day :) been feeling really down today but i think that may be the sugar withdrawal! im finding the food restrictions relatively easy compared to fitting in exercise. Im going to do some tae bo tonight while my hubby is at football and then take the dog out for a mile walk.

EXERCISE

2 mile walk ( i will!!!)
30 mins stretching and yoga


FOOD

Breakfast - coffee 50 cals

Lunch - 2 slices wholemeal bread 200 cal carrot and corriander soup 200 cal

Dinner - 2 wholemeal tuna toasties 750 cals

Snacks - 2 x crisps 226 cals, coffee 50 cals

Total cals - Around 1500


BMR - 2275 cals

Cals eaten - 1500 cals - 300 cals burned = 1200

Defecit - 2275 - 1200 = 1075 calorie defecit for today


I am quite motivated though as it is only 77 days until i go to st lucia! :):):)
 
It is bloody pouring down! There is no way that i can be bothered walking about in the rain so I'll need to wait and see if it goes off i suppose. :angelsad2:

EXERCISE

Sadly lacking today....hopefully walk later though
Managed a walk! 1.2 miles cals burned 150
FOOD

Breakfast - coffee 30 cals

Lunch - small chicken breast with roasted potatoes 400 cals

Dinner - 2 burgers in buns 650, mayo and tom sauce 100 cals

Snacks - crisps 130 cals, kitkat 107 cals, coffee x 2 60 cals

Total - Around 1500


BMR - 2275 cals

Cals eaten - 1500 cals - 150 cals burned = 1350

Defecit - 2275 - 1350 = 925 calorie defecit for today
 
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I managed to get out while the rain was off and walked two circuits (1.2 miles) with the dog. Thank goodness for that as i was beginning to fell very lazy!

As the weekend approaches i am planning pretty much every second of it so that i dont end up breaking my eating plan! Friday is usually wine day - chilling out with many glasses after a hard week...instead it is dance mat challenge night WITH ABSOLUTELY NO ALCOHOL!!!! On saturday we are going for a meal at my in laws so i will keep my cals to a minimum during the day and have smaller portions than normal. I have even offered to drive so that i dont feel the need to have any alcohol :) Sunday will be a 4 mile walk with the dog and a movie (no snacks!) Hopefully it will be full, fun weekend with no excess cals:biggrinjester:

I am pretty excited about seeing the scales tomorrow - even if i dont hit 235 at least i will have lost something. Im trying not to put myself under too much pressure as that is how i fail completely - i dont hit a set (usually unrealistic!) target so i give up there and then. Also, i have only been doing this since sunday so it has only been 4 days!!
 
Whoo hoo i hit 236.6 lbs :) That means that i have lost 3.4lbs since sunday so im very pleased. It is also my TOM so im expecting that will affect my weight too.

Today has been a day of calorie controlled junk food! A nutritional nightmare but i havnt exceeded my cals so i suppose its ok. I have just snacked on crisps and mini rolls since i have been so busy. I will def overload on fruit and veg tomorrow!


FOOD

Throughout the day

6 mini rolls 750 cals

4 packs crisps 520 cals

2 rolls 200 cals

2 coffee 60 cals

total around 1600
 
I survived the weekend with the diet relatively unscathed! In total i walked 10 miles, done 1 hr of dance mat and a little wii boxing - so exercise was good :D

Food wise, i stayed within cal limits at the big dinner and had a few less today to compensate in case i hadnt added enough up (some of the dishes were very delicious but choc full of cream and calories!)

So far i have resisted weighing myself and will try to hold out until friday. I plan to walk 2 miles per night and do a tae bo dvd on mon and wed night and use the wii dance mat and wii fit in tue and thur nights. The healthy menu is planned for the week and so is the exercise. My hope is that i hit around the 234 mark - that would be a 2.6lb loss. Maybe a bit optimistic but i plan on trying VERY hard this week!

I have an important birthday lunch for my mum in 2 weeks and a whole load of photos will be taken so i really want to be as slim as i possible can be before then. Im not sure how much difference a couple of pounds will make to my appearance but i know it will work wonders for my mental attitude!:hurray:


EXERCISE

3 mile walk
1 hour dance mat
15 mins boxing wii


FOOD

Lunch - 3 slices wholemeal bread and turkey ham 400 cals

Dinner - chicken breast 250 cal, cous cous 200 cal, roasted veg and sauce 150 cal, 2 slices garlic bread 150 cal

Snacks - kitkat 107 cals, coffee x 2 60 cals

total cals around 1350
 
Thanx for the encouragement trusylver :) i really appreciate it!


having just read over my previous diary, i cannot believe the number of times i was totally on track and then i lost it........there were only reall two reasons whhy it kept happening.

1) I drank too much and then ate crap

2) I got fed up not losing anything and started pigging out on whatever i felts like.


The first one makes me think that i def have an unhealthy attitude to alcohol. I seem to drink wayyyy too much and then have no willpower - or a complete f*** it attitude. I also seem to get overly pissed instead of just keeping it to a few glasses it seems to read 'oh dear had 2 bottles of wine.oops...' This happened wayyy too often for my liking and is such a load of crap. I really dont know who i was trying to kid. I am putting a blanket ban on all alcohol as of now. I cant afford to keep screwing up and then say oh well ill just count it as a cheat day!!!! So no drinking til my birthday on july 1st. NO EXCEPTIONS.


The second one is a litle harder to deal with. I know myself only too well and i am hopelessly ill equipped to deal with anything negative. I just dont process it well and to me a plateau is kinda devastating. I would rather the scales MOVED than stayed the same. even of tehy are going up.....which makes no sense at all! I also convince myself that if i eat 'normally' for a few weeks then when i start the diet again il lose lots of weight quickly cos its the first week of the diet. Well that genius thinking hasnt exactly worked out for me so far! Think it might be time to keep reminding myself that the last time i got pissed off at a plateau i went from 214 to 238....adding 24lbs (2 whole stones!) I totally wasted all the weight that i lost when i had salmonella, undid all my hard work and for what??? A couple of kormas and fecking wine. I have said it before - i am my own worst enemy.


I am pretty desperate to do this properly. I cant face another decade of hating myself - both for the way i look and for my destructive attitude. I cant face losing weight ....only for it to come back. I really dont have a choice about losing the weight tho....I am very obese. aside from the fact that i dont look like a model in clothes, I am dangerously unhealthy. I am putting a strain on my heart every day of my life. I am shortening the amount of time i have on the earth for a couple of slices of pizza and wine. I am being a fecking eejit and i know it. I dont eat because im unhappy (if i did i would have munched my way through a mountain if food today!), I dont eat cos im bored or frustrated. I eat cos im a greedy bastard who doesnthave an off switch for anything. everything in excess or not at all - even weightloss. Its all in for a few weeks and then i lose interest and it all goes to hell with cheat days and excuses. The worst thing is that i know myself and my flaws but i dont know how to get away from them.

Oh well, pick myself up and keep going cos no one else is gonna do this for me!
 
FOOD

I pretty much snacked all day so i had

3 bags crisps 390 cals

1 kitkat 107

1 mini roll 120

3 x coffee 90 cals


Dinner - chicken risotto 900 cal

total cals around 1600


EXERCISE

2 mile walk
20 mins dance mat


Hectic day and i really got annoyed with myself for not eating more nutritional foods but it was busy and at least i kept within cals i suppose
 
Hey Bella,
My name is Natalie jo, but my nic is Natsky. Happen to notice your message on Pink Clouds diary. Do you know what happened to her?

She was so kind and nice. I hope she is doing ok. U know.

I was apart of the 200 club, not the new/old one, but with the one that was started by Pink Clouds, and I remembered you were such a positive person.

I wanted to say hi!
I had to start a new account, because I was away for a while. My name on my last diary was Natalie jo.

You probably won't recognize me lol

I have gained ten pounds, icks. but I am starting to eat right, buying no more chocolate, ect.

hope to chat with you soon and your snacking didn't seem to bad. :)
Ive done much worse.

ttylater
Have an excellent day!:cheers2:
Natalie jo
or Natsky:waving:
 
another busy day but i actualy managed to consume some vitamins so it was a bit better butrition wise! i have def stayed within cals and plan to dance mat later too :)

FOOD

Breakfast - coffee 30 cals

Lunch - chicken risotto 400 cals

Dinner - 2 chicken chargrills 310 cals, 2 rolls 200 cals, tom sauce and mayo 100 cals

Snacks - kitkat x2 214 cals, 3 x coffee 90 cals, pineapple 100 cals

Total cals - around 1500


EXERCISE

2 mile walk
1 hour dance mat


Really hoping to hit lower than 235 this week! Im feeling pretty motivated - even tho the weather is horrible and im not sleeping properly. I just keep reminding myself of the holiday and it really is helping to stay on track :D Just need to get the energy to do the walk now!
 
hi natalie jo :) course i remember you! I dont know what has happened to pink but i have only just found my way back after gaining most of the weight that i lost right back again! So the struggle continues for both of us!

I hope you are doing well :D Lovely to hear form you x
 
Feeling very positive today and have planned a quiet weekend with NO alcohol at all. Im trying to spend no cash as i have to pay for my holiday on friday and then save up some spending money before we leave! I may have left it a little late so now i cant really do anything for the next few months!

FOOD

Breakfast - coffee and kitkat 137 cals

Lunch - tomato soup 200 cals

Dinner - penne arrabiata with creme fraiche 500 cals

Snacks - 2 pks crisps 266 cals, kitkat x 2 114 cals, 2 x coffee 60 cals pineapple 100 cals

total around 1500 cals

EXERCISE

1.6 mile walk
1hr dance mat
stretching and yoga 20 mins

I have stayed on track all week and have no plans to ruin it! I really want to hit my first mini target of 235 or lower on friday!!
 
Ugh i just had a complete failure of a low cal pizza!!! it was disgusting!!! ewwww i would honestly never try it again:puke:

Been oing well with the exercise this week and have def seen a difference in my fitness levels :) Im planning another long walk this evening and possibly some dance matting :biggrinjester:

the big weighin is tomorrow and i have to hit less than 235 to stay on track...then its on to the 230 mini goal....

FOOD

breakfast - coffee and kit kat 137 cals

lunch - 2 slices wholemeal toast 176 cals, hula hoops 200 cals

dinner - 4 slices wholemeal bread 352 cals, 100g l/f mozzarella 175 cals

snacks - 2 pks crisps 272 cals, kitkat x 2 214 cals, 3x coffee 90 cals

total cals around 1600


EXERCISE

1.6 mile walk
30 mins dance mat
20 mins stretching and yoga


roll on tomorrow!!!
 
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