Careysgirl36
New member
Hello everybody I would like to introduce myself my name is Marianna and decided to join an support group for weight loss because I can't get any support at home.My son loves to eat my boyfriend doesn't care how much I weight but I'm miserable and need emotional help from somewhere.
A little bit about my situation:
Lately I fiind myself doing nothing but looking at pictures from 2 years ago when I weighed 136lbs (I'm 5'4) and that was my comfortable weight, I looked great I felt great and I was happy with myself. My boyfriend and I got back together after years of breaking up and I forgot all about me and let myself go. I've been good time going to buffets, restaurants, gourmet meals at home and weekend parties with lots of food and drinks. Well the lbs. started coming on, first my pants were tight then the sizes started going up from 6 to 8 to 12 to a snuggling 16. I kept thinking I have to do something about this I am loosing control I don't feel like myself anymore, the frame of mind was there, but lack of motivation and for whatever reason I wasn't being selfish enough to think about myself and what I knew would make me happy.
For months I was looking to start a sensible diet and exercise program to follow, my mind just could not focus I was putting it off and I could feel the lbs creeping on.
Yesterday was really the straw that broke the camel's back. I had not stepped on a scale for at least a year. I was thinking I might have put on 20lbs or so, I needed to see the doctor cause I had some chest congestion, well when the nurse asked me to step on the scale I got the shock of my life.
196lbs!! Suddently a dark cloud was lingering over me for the rest of the day. I was upset at myself, I could believe I let myself go the way I did, somewhat depressed and mad at everybody at home especially my boyfriend blaming him for my weight gain.
This morning I woke up and decided to do something about this, it's ridiculous to blame others for what you do to yourself. Since I keep hearing at home you look great don't worry about it I need outside support. I'm hoping this forum will help me. I started reading before I joined and I noticed there are many like me who need this kind of support. Wish me luck!
A little bit about my situation:
Lately I fiind myself doing nothing but looking at pictures from 2 years ago when I weighed 136lbs (I'm 5'4) and that was my comfortable weight, I looked great I felt great and I was happy with myself. My boyfriend and I got back together after years of breaking up and I forgot all about me and let myself go. I've been good time going to buffets, restaurants, gourmet meals at home and weekend parties with lots of food and drinks. Well the lbs. started coming on, first my pants were tight then the sizes started going up from 6 to 8 to 12 to a snuggling 16. I kept thinking I have to do something about this I am loosing control I don't feel like myself anymore, the frame of mind was there, but lack of motivation and for whatever reason I wasn't being selfish enough to think about myself and what I knew would make me happy.
For months I was looking to start a sensible diet and exercise program to follow, my mind just could not focus I was putting it off and I could feel the lbs creeping on.
Yesterday was really the straw that broke the camel's back. I had not stepped on a scale for at least a year. I was thinking I might have put on 20lbs or so, I needed to see the doctor cause I had some chest congestion, well when the nurse asked me to step on the scale I got the shock of my life.
196lbs!! Suddently a dark cloud was lingering over me for the rest of the day. I was upset at myself, I could believe I let myself go the way I did, somewhat depressed and mad at everybody at home especially my boyfriend blaming him for my weight gain.
This morning I woke up and decided to do something about this, it's ridiculous to blame others for what you do to yourself. Since I keep hearing at home you look great don't worry about it I need outside support. I'm hoping this forum will help me. I started reading before I joined and I noticed there are many like me who need this kind of support. Wish me luck!
