Nevermind, I'm just blinded by disbelief in myself, tomorrow I'll feel a lot better!

luca_lass

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Hi! I'm writing this thread right now so I can feel sorry for myself and vent in peace. Tonight is one of those nights when I just can't stop feeling bad about myself. It doesn't happen often but when it does I just can't take it and feel like talking about it. So here goes:
I'm 17 years old, 5'4 and weigh 158 pounds (that would be 72 kilos). I don't even think that my situation would be considered desperate or health damaging, but sometimes when I look in the mirror I become horrified. Three years ago, in summer I lost 22 pounds, with weightloss massage (wich is THE best way to lose weight from my experience), a healthy and sometimes restrictive diet, and exercising at home. That was the time when I really felt good about my body. But I have an annoying predisposition of gaining weight very fast. Until now my weight kept fluctuating. For me it's very hard to lose it, but it's almost impossible to keep a nice silhouette without dedicating most of my time to weight loss.
Recently, after a medical check I discovered that I suffer from disfunctions of the thyroid and suprarenal glands, disfunctions wich seem to have triggered this weight gain. I followed the doctors prescription and took some pills, wich worked out very nice... they rid me of my acne (it was a wonderful result actually), but the weight was still there.
I eat healthy and in normal quantities: a rich breakfast (most important meal of the day), moderate lunch, and for dinner I usualy eat fruits and carrots (sometimes I have snacks in between meals, and I never exagerate with the desserts). This is my normal eating habit, I can eat neither more, nor less.
I can't exercise too often anymore, because the big exams are coming and I need to get ready, and I also have to finish some art projects, so I just try to walk as much as I can, avoiding to take a taxi or a bus, and here I am 158 pounds in weight. Most of the fat goes to my thighs and my arms, wich are now twice as large as the normal size.
I FEEL LIKE I'M LIVING INSIDE SOMEONE ELSES BODY! I don't feel comfortable with myself at all!:(
That was it. You may consider me as superficial, because I know that there are people in MUCH worse situations. All I wanted was to vent, actually, and now that I did it, I can't say I'm not feeling a little bit better. Goodnight everyone!
 
Hi, luca_lass! Hey ... don't ever apologize for venting. We've all been there, no matter what our weight. That's the wonderful thing about this forum. You can vent, and everyone else can feel your pain and be supportive. And you are NOT superficial! Nobody here will ever think of you in that way. We all have our weight loss journeys that we are on, and we're supportive and encouraging of each other, no matter how much or how few pounds we want to lose. Sorry to hear that your medicine is not helping. Be sure to talk with your doctor. I'm sure he/she will help you in that regard and have some weight loss suggestions for you.

Don't be too hard on yourself. You're a terrific person, and you've found a great place for support and ideas. Welcome aboard!
 
superficial... lol. Hardly. 1/2 the reason I am loosing weight is for revenge. Now THAT is superficial. :p But a fairly good motivator for me... lol

Girl... its a hard to do.. but learning to love your body the way it is is a neccesity in life... I am sure you know this.. I'm sorry I cant help more.
 
Thanks!

Thanks for your support guys! Last night I was pretty angry, I'm feeling much better. I just couldn't stop thinking about the small number of posibilities I have, and the inevitable weight gain as soon as I stop making an effort. But I guess, that's what weight loss is all about: making an effort and believing in yourself, and with great people like you around we should all be able to surpass these moments of uncertainty.

superficial... lol. Hardly. 1/2 the reason I am loosing weight is for revenge. Now THAT is superficial. But a fairly good motivator for me... lol
Hehe! I know exactly what you mean. Superficial or not, revenge is a good motivatior, no matter what you're doing:p

Thanks again guys! Luv ya!:D
 
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