My Weight Loss Diary

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Day 1, 9/11/2006.

Well, compared to when I measured myself this last weekend, I've lost 2 kg! I'm quite astounded because I only gave up the binging properly today... what I have been doing to countermand that is to drink piles and piles of water.

The reason why this is day 1 is because this is the first day after my 'slap in the face' which came in the form of a session of hypnosis. Many people are gonna boycot it, and shamble it, but so far it seems to really have worked for me. At every opportunity i've had today to go and buy something naughty, I've not even made a conscious effort not to do it... I just haven't. I thought a little while ago about buying some food to binge on, and instead, I just had a healthy dinner. I hope this progress lasts!

I'm currently about a 35" on the old waist, and my success markers will be 32", 30", and weight lost. I hope I can stay focused and get this weight loss train started :)
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Heh, was quite optimistic there wasn't I. Oh well...

Hello there to anyone reading this. I am here to tell you about what happened inbetween then and now...

A couple of weeks after that, after I really started losing again, I flopped. I went down to the shop and bought lots of crappy food to binge on again. Yeah I know, I've been doing this for 2 and a half years but I still haven't got the message.

Basically since then it's been a downward spiral. I thought I'd leveled off at about 15 stone... but I've since climbed back all the way up to 18, right back where I started 2 and a half years ago. I'm sure you can imagine that has been terribly depressing, which in turn has lead to comfort eating etc...

Everything in my head tells me that I need to do this, and that I've done it before, so I can do it again. Now I have this mental block to overcome in my head that tells me that the way I want to be is not the way others want me to be (and they all keep telling me in case I forget!)

So, I will try my best to keep to the straight and narrow. As previously I have recieved little support from my friends, and as I also know that you fine people on this board can't be there for me every time I get a twinge of hunger, I have purchased a ring, just a simple metal affair that I intend to use as a "commitment band". lol I hope that doesn't sound to ditzy, but for me the logic is there. This is something physical to hold on to, to remind me of what I'm doing, beyond the constant psycological war in my head.

So here's me starting again. The goalposts are set as follows:

By Feb 1st: to be a 36" waist

By Feb 22nd: to be a 34" waist

By March 15th: to be a 32" waist

By April 12th: to be a 30" waist

By May 17th: to have lost all the weight I want to.

I feel it should be noted that whilst I am a tall guy ( 6'2" ) that my frame is quite thin underneath, that is, that the usual BMI and such don't work for me. for instance, when I previously dieted and got down to about 11 and a half stone, with a BMI of 20.7, I still had a massive gut and huge legs... there was still a lot of fat to come off. When I did eventually get down to a 30" waist (I didn't keep scales in the house so I didnt know what weight I was, but I'd guess 10 and a half stone) I still had a gut.

My eventual goal is to rid myself of all my body fat and to put on some lean muscle, as I am lacking slightly in that department also.

If you have any comments, they are welcome.
 
Hey aaron,
Welcome back and good for you for taking control :)
You CAN reach your goals!
 
hello aaron :) that ring certainly doesn't sound silly. don't worry, whatever helps you to stay focused i support. i've tried to lose weight lots of times, but really didn't want to lose it.
i was hiding from things. and as soon as i decided i will not do that anymore, that i won't run and face trhe ghosts, suddenly all pieces are coming together. i don't find dieting or exercising such a big problem anymore. this forum is helping me to stay focused and express my emotions here instead of hanging out with the fridge.
the challenges are here every day but this is a good thing. stay positive and you have all my support in achieving your goals.

Lena :)
 
Welcome here! I love the ring idea...for me it's the computer...I have people here and on other boards that I can count on for support, that I can talk to about stuff, and can in turn encourage. It's what keeps me going.

Good luck!
 
Hi all. Thanks for your comments M2M, lena410 and dariqueen.

Just a small update...

I have been doing all of my exercise so far and have stuck religiously to my diet... this is since Saturday! lol somehow i've managed to get rid of a couple of Kgs already, though I think a lot of that may be water retention.

So, some progress! w00t! :)
 
Hehe, I would like to get into the habit of regularly updating here, so here's another post :)

Hmm, seem to have lost 4kg in just under a week... my lord! thats a lot of water retention! I'm beginning to think most of my weight is just water.

Or maybe I really am getting rid of it that quickly...:eek: time will tell I guess! :cool:
 
It could be water. I lost 10 pounds (about 4.5 kg) in the first 2 weeks I was making an effort.

You said earlier that you've always had "a gut." Just a question - do you drink much alcohol? Seems like the belly is where alcohol weight goes - hence the term "beer belly."

Glad to see you're updating regularly. It's helped keep me honest!
 
No actually, I don't drink alchohol at all. I did used to drink lots of Coke, though. praps that's what did it :p
 
Hmm, no weight loss today. I'm hoping that's just a blip and there'll be more tomorrow. We'll see :)

Saturdays' naughty day! thats right! for 1 meal I get to eat something I want :D . Today i'm thinking... ooo... cornish pasty! Yum...
 
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