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luckystar

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So every summer my friends go biking and we go to the park, i never went biking with them because i didn't want to hold them back. I didn't them to wait for the slow girl huffing and puffing. and i always went to the park but i never enjoyed it when we played sports. I'm extremely uncoordinated and i suck at any sports but i still went even tho i was the slowest one on the field.
Beginning of last summer (May, i consider the summer once the semester ends ;P) i decided i had enough, i wanted to be more active, so i started biking with my other friend. we made (What i thought was far then) about a couple miles away from my house and i was proud, i started going further and further.
i heard my friends were biking and i went with them, oh man was i exhausted, we biked like 10 miles.(double what i was used to) next day i was just tired, not sore, but just drained of all energy possible. i cut down what i ate, and i just started making some small changes.
I continued to bike to that place it started to get cold and i got bit by a dog and i was like ok i think this is it for the season, i missed biking, but i couldn't go anymore, the temperature just dropped, i got sick blah blah it sucked
but i started a new college in January and my friend and i started to go to the gym.
thats when the changed really started, we started off slow, did some cardio and i knew i needed to boost my metabolism so i did a lot of weight training. arms, back, legs, mostly arms and legs, and i focus more on the arms. i hate my arms. its not even the size of them that bothers me but the fact that i have a roll. like wth... a roll on my arm... (and its not even both but my left one) so i tend to wear hoodies or long sleeve shirts. short sleeves make my arms look bigger. so i wanted to trim that fat fast.
lets just say i went from starting off doing 20 minutes of cardio to doing cardio for a whole hour. i don't remember how many calories i was burning then (yea i know that the calories the machines say you burn aren't accurate but if i'm burning 300 on one machine and burning 700 on another i know which one is giving me a better workout) now i burn over 1000 calories per work out (just doing cardio) i use the arc trainer... man that thing is GOOD u sweat like CRAZYYYYYY i got to thank my other friend for showing me it.
anyway so i'd say since April, I've been burning about 1000 calories per work out and i go at least 3 times a week. occasionally if i got hit hard with school work i might not make it 3 times a week. but for the most part i did.

summer came and i was going like 4 days a week. i'd wake up and just go. i was biking everywhere, i rarely drove anymore, i went to the park, played soccer, definitely my most active summer ever. i would have never been able to do this before.

now its about over a year since i first attempted (made a real attempt) to start working out. my first reason was so i can keep up with my friends. i didnt want to be that slow one anymore. weight lose was just something that is happening along with it. or so i thought. those lbs were not comming off. my family never ate bad. once in a while we'd have sweets for a special occasion. the thing was we ate a lot of pasta. so i cut that out of my diet. my parents found it frustrating but i was just like uhh no... i know we do need some carbs but i get those from peas and other veggies.
i always have a piece of meat/fish and my veggies
the pounds should have been comming off right? well i only lost about 10 lbs since February?
now i can keep up with my friends. well at least better than before. but come on only 10 lbs!? i figured that its probably because ive gained muscle mass as well. i wish i knew how many lbs of fat i burned. my pants were starting to fall off and today i went shopping with some friends. pretty exciting too like YAY I CAN GET SMALLER PANTS! man did i feel like shit when that size 14 did not fit. i had to buy a size 16. ok big whoop im chubby, size 16... w.e.. heres the thing i was a size 16 last year when i bought the exact same pair of pants before i started going to the gym...
i bought them cuz the pants i have were too loose.... and i compared the size the ones that i had were about 2 inches larger? i also had another pair (same ones, when u rarely find pants that fit u buy more than one pair) of pants that just came out of the dryer, i held the new pair up to those, same size. to its not that i shrank? but that my clothes stretched out?

i guess im feeling pretty unmotivated. everyone tells me that i look like i lost weight, especially the ones that rarely see me.. but how come i didnt go down a size in pants.... the belt i have that i wore in january im going to have to make a new hole in it. cuz its so loose now...

i dont want to make the excuse and say, "oh they changed the sizes" i've been saying that since i was 15 and when i was a size 15 (juniors) and i then i truely believed that. in retrospect i was in denial. but now? is it possible that they actually changed the sizes or the material doesnt stretch as much?

i bought a hoodie and i got it in a size large, (was an xl) and shirts i was always an xl but they were the ones that stretched out so i bought them in a medium in hopes the stay fitted... last year i bought some shirts in xl and they looked like garbage bags on me.

i guess this was my little vent session. when i came home my mom asked me oh so what size pants are you. and i said the same... she said thats impossible and i just started crying.

i want to lose this weight. i want to find clothes that fit. i want to actually like shopping. i was hoping by this semester i would have been a couple sizes down and im just disappointed and frustrated. Im going to buy a measuring tape and im going to measure inches instead of lbs.... thats the only way i feel like im going to actually be able to see if i am shrinking. the scale doesnt show if i burned fat and gained muscle. size of pants threw me off.

ive been thinking about joining a weight loss forum. maybe its the support i need and motivation i can get. im sort of competitive. i like to try and work harder than other people, if i succeed i like people to know it. mostly cuz everything i do try i fail at. (not actually fail but come in second best to someone else) so when i actually succeed i'm proud :)

tell me your stories! how you lost weight! i want to know!
 
Hi there.. I just read your post and I feel your frustration. I don't know what it is about clothes and the sizes.. when I shop I can be 3 different sizes in 3 different shops. its very confusing. As for the exercise I think you are fantastic, and you do sound motivated to me. I know its hard when you do all the work and the lbs don't move but you absolutely MUST have burned fat and gained muscle.. I have no doubt about that. On a positive note you are getting more fit and more energy and I always think that is great to keep the mind healthy too. Try not to get disheartened. Stick with it. If you like biking so much you should try spinning classes, they are fantastic and also burn loads of calories and shape up the legs. I have only just joined this forum. I am on a mission to lose 2 stone approx and I too had been exercising like crazy and watching what I was eating but not one lb moved off me and I was ready to give up too. I knew I would not be happy if I gave up so decided to up the game a bit.. I joined weight watchers which worked for me in 1998 and I kept to the weight I wanted for 10 years.. so I am back at WW again now. I only joined Tuesday but I am determined and I am finding the books and meetings really help. I am not sure if any of this helps, but I really hope you stick with what you are doing because you sound like one of the most motivated people to me who has just lost heard because of the number on the scales. The measuring tape is a fantastic idea too :) we have a lot of time between now and xmas and if we work hard we will look back at these posts and smile. x
 
Maybe a little extreme and expensive, but possibly it would be worth getting a full medical checkup co-ordinated by a professional dietician. At least you would know the path you are given, from that point on, is the right one for you and you might come to understand why you are not getting the results your endevours deserved. Sounds very frustrating and demotivating. Well done for fighting on.
 
Yea it crossed my mind to get my thyroid checked out.. maybe i have a hypoactive thyroid and me not losing the weight as fast as i think i should is the result. I'm not saying i should be dropping 3-4 lbs a week (it be nice tho ;P) but at least 1 or 2.... maybe my body got used to the exercise or im not pushing my self enough and i should be doing an hour and a half of cardio. maybe after the hour on the arc trainer i should jump on a bike or a treadmill.. thing with the treadmill is that im kind of a clutz and i tend to twist my ankles easily XD

as for going to a dietician i cant afford that. im actually going to check the weather and see if its going to storm like it did yesterday.. yea a tornado in ny? 2 days in a row? hope not lmao
 
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