My fight against junk food and fattiness! (Aiming for 30kilo loss)

nyzeh

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Hello to anyone who's reading this!

I'm a 19 year old girl, soon to turn twenty and i've been fat almost all my life. I had begun to realize how fat I was post puberty and have been unhappy with my weight ever since.

As I grew older and into my teen years, I began to realize that I'd specifically stay away from certain social gatherings which I would otherwise enjoy solely because of how much I weighed. It wasn't the weight that was the only problem, but also other ancillary things that plagued my mind like 'Oh no, what will I wear?' or how I'd look like a 'cow' next to my hot best friend, or even the (perhaps incorrect) assumption that everyone would make fun of me. While I do realize some of this is in my head, I believe that the only way I can truly overcome these feelings is by actually working on my weight.

While there are clothes I want to wear and parties I want to go for after I've lost weight, more recently I realized (post eating my 3rd donut for the day, if I may add) that my knees always hurt a little bit, my breath always catches when I'm trying to walk up a flight of stairs and running is out of the question. Cosmetic incentives aside, I really want to lose weight because I believe that I am currently extremely unhealthy. I've been losing hair, my skin is getting patchy and flaky, and I am overall much unhappier than I would be if I were healthy.

Motiviation seems to be my biggest problem though, and my willpower falls to peices when I look at a packet of crisps or a brownie. Almost like an addiction, I relapse every time I take even the teensiest bite of junk food and it all goes downhill from there.

Hence, I thought it would be a good idea to join a forum where everyone else is on the same journey as I am, draw inspiration from people, keep myself motivated and hopefully help them achieve their goals too. I am very excited this time, and I promise myself that I will do all that it takes to go all the way.

My weight goals are these:-
I currently weigh 85kilos (187lbs) which is a LOT because I am a very short girl, just about 164cms tall. My goal weight is 110lbs and my target is by the end of next year; So in 14 months, I seek to lose about 75lbs which I think is realistic if I eat right and exercise dilligently.

I really hope to meet some amazing people on this forum and help each other along the journey!


Thanks for reading to the end :)
 
Just a few minutes into my resolve, I feel really tempted to eat something fried. I'm however going to hold off my craving, eat an apple instead and read through the forum.
 
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Hello! and Welcome!. I initially wanted to lose 36kg and now I've managed to lose 8.8kg(19.4lbs) in 48 Days under the guidance and encouragement of some very helpful members of this forum. You can do even better. I have been sugar free for 48days and junk food free for around 40 days. All you need is sheer determination. You'll definitely get good advice and encouragement from the members to keep you motivated.
 
Hey Nyzeh and welcome to the forum!

Congratulations on making your health and well-being a priority right now instead of waiting until it gets even harder to do so. I personally think 110 lbs would be very little at 164cm but that´s not really important yet, especially since it sounds like you´re planning this the healthy way instead of crash-dieting. What´s your plan for this thing then? Do you have a specific diet in mind or are you simply planning to stop snacking (which can also be very effective)? Do you work out?

Good luck on your journey!
LaMa
 
Hi and welcome
I am the same height as you and started at 80kg- im now 74kg. Im surprised that your goal weight is 49kg, thats what I used to weigh about 5 years ago and I was way too small, hungry all the time and very weak. My goal weight is now 65kg and then I plan to see how I look and feel and lose a few more kgs if Im not quite there. I never want to be under 55kg again.
I also have avoided social functions because of my weight.... I hope your confidence grows like mine slowly is

Goodluck
 
Hi Hypercool, LaMaria, Katy and Sunflower_!

It's really nice to meet you guys and thank you for the warm welcome! Maybe you guys are right and 110 is too low. Do you guys think around 127(55kilos) or even a little more would be better?

As for the diet, I am not planning any specific diet but something I can stick to for the rest of my life. So i'm basically thinking ill stop eating processed and fried food, get rid of all the soda and sugar and exercise for about 40 minutes every day. I'll start off with just cardio for now.
I eat a LOT of junk food every day- my typical day starts with me skipping breakfast, eating a few packets of lays for lunch and a chocolate (those really big bars), lots of fried stuff around 6 and a huge dinner with sweets, chips and rice for dinner. :\

Weirdly enough, when I seem to eat healthy consciously, portion control seems to just fall into place. I eat much much less when its healthy food (perhaps because I don't like the taste all that much?)
The biggest problem is my all or nothing attitude I think. I have a week of healthy eating, it isn't too hard for me to just keep going, but if I slip on even one day, it's all downhill from there and I end up eating everything I can find. Which is an issue because I lose a lot of weight if i just eat healthy given the amount of additional calories that are eliminated, but since I eat everything again if I mess up once, my weight oscillates a LOT leading to other things like stretch marks (ughh). My doctor was also of the opinion that a stable weight might even be better rather than yo-yoing so much all the time.

Yesterday was alright though. I ate completely healthy throughout the day and got some studying done, so I felt quite good. I hope I can keep this up though. I wanted to exercise but I was too tired (read lazy) so I didn't. Have to work up the motivation to get moving!


Do you guys have the all or nothing problem too when it comes to eating healthy? That seems to be my biggest setback in losing any weight :\ Thanks for all the responses. It really helps to stick to my resolve!
 
I definitely know the all or nothing problem. Reading along here even when I don´t feel like writing when I´m not doing well helps me get back on track sooner, so there´s that. I think 130-135 pounds would be a good first goal for now, then you can see how you feel about your body and adjust your if you want to. Your body will love you for all the healthy food that´s coming your way!
 
I agree with LaMa see how you feel at that weight and then work out if you have more to do. I was an all or nothing but Im getting better. I try to think of it as ok Ive had a massive binge but it doesnt have to ruin my goals and learn what your triggers are to prevent the binges in the future. One of my triggers is eating after a stressful day at work- so now I dont go to the shops after work and I cant buy anything to binge on
 
Hi Nyzeh, & welcome to the forum.

Congratulations honey on deciding to make changes to improve your health. If you concentrate on eating healthy food & cut out junk then you will succeed. I had a mantra when I first lost my weight (I went from 111kg to 75 back in 2007)- "Nothing tastes as good as slim feels". Our brains are amazing things. If you decide that you really want to do this you can. You have to want to become slim, more than you want to eat junk food. Try to start working on your self-esteem. "Your body is your temple" sounds corny, but if you want to really become healthy you have to really nourish & look after your body. It needs fruit & vegetables, lean protein & healthy fats.

Break your planned weight loss down into smaller sections, rather than aiming for something that may feel too daunting. 110 lbs seems too low to me too & I agree with LaMa that maybe you should aim for 130-135lbs & then reassess. I used to be a bit of an all or nothing person when it came to eating too, but now I have a good balance. You can re-train your brain.

I used to spend lots of time in here as a distraction whenever I felt myself wavering. It's a great idea having a diary. You'll get lots of support. It's good to know that you are not alone. We have all been through or are going through similar battles. Cheers, Cate
 
Day 02

Thanks for all the support guys!

Ate healthy, still didn't exercise. Slept a lot though, over 9 hours :\ Have to study the whole night to make up for it today!
 
Sleeping enough helps me graze less. But it does cut down on the amount of hours in the day...
 
I sleep too much at all the wrong times. I stay awake the entire night and sleep the entire day. Plus i'm having some prep leave for a bunch of exams, so it's giving me the liberty to really mess up my sleep cycle. :\

Day 03- Went well, ate three healthy meals. So far so good. Also walked around for about 40 minutes.
 
Well done on managing to exercise & eat well, while your sleep cycle is so messed up. That too is an achievement!
 
All of your diaries are so amazing! You guys have been doing so well for a while and I really want to say Hi but I end up just lurking around because I'm super intimidated to say anything
 
Stick around a while and you'll have lurkers in your own diary, Nyzeh! Folks around here tend to be friendly and I don't know anyone who isn't happy about responses to their diaries.
 
Oh, don't be intimidated by any of us! We are all flawed humans, who can sometimes shine. Seriously, we are all the same :)
 
Just jump in! We won't bite, I won't anyway. Maybe a little nibble though. This is a diet site, and I am hungry. lol! Just kidding! :p Welcome to the forum, nyzeh!!
 
Yes, start posting! I'm a greedy thing and love people posting - makes me motivated! You're doing really well hun, keep up your good work. I can easily sleep for 10/11 hours on the weekend, it's sickening. I love sleep!
 
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