My E.D.

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Molly07

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Thanks for all your advice..It's just really hard to take all this and actually do it, because I've been suffering from an e.d. since last year. It's so in my mind that I feel horrible about everything I eat. For instance.. today was like this...

B- 1/2 cup Special K Red Berries
L- 14 Cherrios
*Ran after school, 30 pushups, 300 crunches, 50 lunges*
Snack- 2 bowls Special K Red Berries
D- Salad w/ low fat dressing, Cucumbers, Carrots, Zuccinni w/ Mozarella cheese
Then tonight while watching american idol, I had an apple and some grapes.

See, when I look at all that, I think that that's too much. When I'm at school and I feel nothing in my stomach, I love that because I can feel my hip bones sticking out, and that's what I love. I want to lose weight and keep it off, but giving up this e.d. is so hard because i feel so lonely without it. I want to lose weight the right way, but I also want to be lean and thin.
 
You said "I want to lose weight the right way, but I also want to be lean and thin." I am lean and thin and eat WAY more than that and workout on a regular basis.

If you have an eating disorder then you need to speak to someone. You already said that you would feel lonely without the disorder. That means you recognize there is a problem. So now be proactive and get some guidance.

I know it's hard, but if you don't do it now... you'll get much worse, spend your life revolving around food, and miss out on so much.
 
Molly. I come from a family of e.d. My two sisters, my mom and myself all have/had an e.d. I personally suffered from anorexia for a little over a year and I will admit it was the worst year of my life. I felt like I was trapped inside my head and as much as I hated the e.d. I loved that feeling of emptiness and feeling my bones (as you described). However I too felt so alone. My sister was able to help me overcome my e.d. and to this day I have a mixed relationship with food. I felt like an e.d. is like hell on earth and is something I would never wish upon anyone - even upon my worst enemy. You are not alone...if you want to talk to someone about their experiences and how they overcame their e.d. What life is like after an e.d. How to regain that healthy relationship with food. PLEASE email me! Right now my little sister is suffering from anorexia and it breaks my heart to see her this sad...
My email is esplichal@yahoo.com
 
Molly. I come from a family of e.d. My two sisters, my mom and myself all have/had an e.d. I personally suffered from anorexia for a little over a year and I will admit it was the worst year of my life. I felt like I was trapped inside my head and as much as I hated the e.d. I loved that feeling of emptiness and feeling my bones (as you described). However I too felt so alone. My sister was able to help me overcome my e.d. and to this day I have a mixed relationship with food. I felt like an e.d. is like hell on earth and is something I would never wish upon anyone - even upon my worst enemy. You are not alone...if you want to talk to someone about their experiences and how they overcame their e.d. What life is like after an e.d. How to regain that healthy relationship with food. PLEASE email me! Right now my little sister is suffering from anorexia and it breaks my heart to see her this sad...
My email is esplichal@yahoo.com
 
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