I am not sure if I am posting in the right section for a diary. I just joined in yesterday and what really made me feel encourage somekhow was the idea that I would be writing about my diet. I have been struggling with my weight for over a year I want to lose 30lbs first I wanted to lose 10 that 20 and now I have gone to 30 I get very anxious for not being able to lose any weight and I an eating more and more. I hope and I am finally looking forward to be able to lose those lbs by joinin this website. I feel that I will. I had thought about being able to organize a group of women and start a walking group and walking here in town, because I has started walking, but I felt unsafe by going walking by myself. I just don't know anyone that is willing to do exercise. I think that a lot of us have so busy lifes that there is notime to exercise. I think that we just have to put exercise as a must do activity so that we can get it done. Being a mother of 5 it's hard for me to find the time I am also trying to get a degree at the same time, but I wonder if I am doing the right thing. Sometimes I feel as if I am being too greedy and should just dedicate all my time to my children, since I had the chance to go to college when I was younger and I didn't took advantage of it. I have started gaining weight since I started going to college. I know that I have been in alot of stress and that has contributed to my weight gain. I am looking forward to lose weight this time and writing the journal will help. I just know it. Today I was watchin what I was eating thinking about what I was going to write in my journal. Today I had to take my daughter to the orthodontist and my father to a pre-surgery app. and I had coffee with some a biscuit and I was wondering while eating it how many calories I must be taking, then I had a 10 piece chicken nuggets and last I had a big dinner which was a big stake and beans and koolaid. I feel that I am eating uncontrollably and I need to change this AND I WANT TO THINK THAT I WILL DO IT.
