I know I was never on the thin side, but I never cared about losing weight. Then when I graduated college and started working full time, I came across of co-workers and college buddies, where they were so aware and conscious of what they ate and the calories. During that time, I gained 10 pounds, at my heaviest 140, 5’3. I was in a committed relationship and HAPPY. But then, my weight obsessed peers took a toll on me, and I became obsessed of my weight. Started portion controlling, and calculating my calories, and running became a part of my everyday life. I yo-yo’ed back and forth during Jan 2005 till now, from 140 to 130, then finally maintained my weight at 130 pounds since spring of 2006 till now.
One thing I've realized is I'm a hypocrite. I'm so healthy in that I work out tons, limited my alcohol, and quit smoking. But...but....but, it's just the eating. The thing is, if I work out, then eating bad, is only working against everything.
Then the other day while i was driving home, I saw someone flick their cigarette butt out of the window. It reminded me of when I use to smoke and how I was once the same, i looked in disgust. It's pretty often i'm out in public and i just get so grossed out by smokers. I think it's such a disgusting habit. I know that I will never smoke again. It’s probably been about almost a year since I quit. Well, then I realized that my health overall should be looked as the same. Quit smoking, exercise regularly to the point that if I don't work out I feel guilty, well, then I need to eat good to maintain my health at it’s optimal potential level. It all goes hand in hand. If I can quit smoking, I can quit eating when I’m not hungry.
I hate, when I think, "gosh, if only, I didn't eat that bag of chips, then I wouldn't have to work out so hard." Blah, blah, focus, move forward, and no more “if only’s”.
I was looking at one of those hollywood gossip magazines the other day, and it featured hilary duff. and how she lost so much weight and was looking her best. well, her stats are like mines, i'm talking the height. not weight now. but anyways, her chunky days, was basically where i am at now. 5'2 and 130. they showed before and after pics. then at 5'2, she went down to 125, then to a measly 95...yuck, way to skinny, and then advertised in her column as her being content finally at 105 or something. anyways, i'm 5'3, and 130. no wonder, i'm so obsessed over losing weight. damn media, i think that's the story for all "chubby stars." britney spears is considered chubby in some articles and yup, she’s about my weight and height, then there's nicole richie, so skinny mini now, but back before losing all that weight, is me, now. anyways, i try not to think that kind of stuff has an effect on me, but honestly it does, even though i'm not a star. and compared to the average person, i'm not fat. But it doesn't matter, the stars skinnier bods look better than when they were considered “chubby” (me). Then I wonder, if you lose weight to your target goal, is there an ending? Cause it seems to be that you just wanna keep loosing more. Is there an end?
I am at a plateau. So, I need to write down goals.
So I shall answer the questions before starting my diary.
-- How much weight do you want to lose?
Ideally, 20, but realistically 10. Healthy is key.
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
August 23, 2008-my wedding date. Actually a little before then to make sure my dress fits perfect and for the engagement photos!
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
I wanna be healthy, eat healthy, more like it. Diet and exercise....in moderation. I run religiously and have been for the past two years. I have a gym membership, using the cardio machines such as elliptical, stairs, and love going to the classes such as turbo kickboxing, and lifting ones. I want to change my workouts often, shocking my body, just started incorporating pilates. I also want to work out by doing more fun activities I enjoy, such as golf, dancing, hiking, swimming.
As for my eating, no dieting, just portion control. I really need to focus on balance, balance, and balance. I will never forbid myself from any foods. But if I do indulge in one of my favorite junk foods, to portion control. Don’t eat when full or bored. Eat slower and smarter. Choose healthy foods to enjoy, and try my best to abstain from alcohol., for drinking equals to eating whatever is in sight! Only drink for special occasions. Eating 5-6 mini meals or 3 good portion meals. Drinking lots of water and staying away from empty foods-no nutrition and yet very many calories.
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
Going on this forum really helps. My fiance and sister are always there for support.
-- How realistic is your goal?
My goal is very realistic. I've mentioned it before, and I'll repeat it again, it's about training the brain, rather the tummy.
-- When will you start?
Today. No more thinking, "ah, it's okay, i've been good. i can eat this because i ate good this week or because i've worked out." Reward myself not with food.
One thing I've realized is I'm a hypocrite. I'm so healthy in that I work out tons, limited my alcohol, and quit smoking. But...but....but, it's just the eating. The thing is, if I work out, then eating bad, is only working against everything.
Then the other day while i was driving home, I saw someone flick their cigarette butt out of the window. It reminded me of when I use to smoke and how I was once the same, i looked in disgust. It's pretty often i'm out in public and i just get so grossed out by smokers. I think it's such a disgusting habit. I know that I will never smoke again. It’s probably been about almost a year since I quit. Well, then I realized that my health overall should be looked as the same. Quit smoking, exercise regularly to the point that if I don't work out I feel guilty, well, then I need to eat good to maintain my health at it’s optimal potential level. It all goes hand in hand. If I can quit smoking, I can quit eating when I’m not hungry.
I hate, when I think, "gosh, if only, I didn't eat that bag of chips, then I wouldn't have to work out so hard." Blah, blah, focus, move forward, and no more “if only’s”.
I was looking at one of those hollywood gossip magazines the other day, and it featured hilary duff. and how she lost so much weight and was looking her best. well, her stats are like mines, i'm talking the height. not weight now. but anyways, her chunky days, was basically where i am at now. 5'2 and 130. they showed before and after pics. then at 5'2, she went down to 125, then to a measly 95...yuck, way to skinny, and then advertised in her column as her being content finally at 105 or something. anyways, i'm 5'3, and 130. no wonder, i'm so obsessed over losing weight. damn media, i think that's the story for all "chubby stars." britney spears is considered chubby in some articles and yup, she’s about my weight and height, then there's nicole richie, so skinny mini now, but back before losing all that weight, is me, now. anyways, i try not to think that kind of stuff has an effect on me, but honestly it does, even though i'm not a star. and compared to the average person, i'm not fat. But it doesn't matter, the stars skinnier bods look better than when they were considered “chubby” (me). Then I wonder, if you lose weight to your target goal, is there an ending? Cause it seems to be that you just wanna keep loosing more. Is there an end?
I am at a plateau. So, I need to write down goals.
So I shall answer the questions before starting my diary.
-- How much weight do you want to lose?
Ideally, 20, but realistically 10. Healthy is key.
-- What is the timeframe for reaching your target weight?
August 23, 2008-my wedding date. Actually a little before then to make sure my dress fits perfect and for the engagement photos!
-- How do you want to accomplish your goal (what methods do you want to use)?
I wanna be healthy, eat healthy, more like it. Diet and exercise....in moderation. I run religiously and have been for the past two years. I have a gym membership, using the cardio machines such as elliptical, stairs, and love going to the classes such as turbo kickboxing, and lifting ones. I want to change my workouts often, shocking my body, just started incorporating pilates. I also want to work out by doing more fun activities I enjoy, such as golf, dancing, hiking, swimming.
As for my eating, no dieting, just portion control. I really need to focus on balance, balance, and balance. I will never forbid myself from any foods. But if I do indulge in one of my favorite junk foods, to portion control. Don’t eat when full or bored. Eat slower and smarter. Choose healthy foods to enjoy, and try my best to abstain from alcohol., for drinking equals to eating whatever is in sight! Only drink for special occasions. Eating 5-6 mini meals or 3 good portion meals. Drinking lots of water and staying away from empty foods-no nutrition and yet very many calories.
-- Who or what can support you in reaching your goal?
Going on this forum really helps. My fiance and sister are always there for support.
-- How realistic is your goal?
My goal is very realistic. I've mentioned it before, and I'll repeat it again, it's about training the brain, rather the tummy.
-- When will you start?
Today. No more thinking, "ah, it's okay, i've been good. i can eat this because i ate good this week or because i've worked out." Reward myself not with food.
