*Bella*
New member
Hi all,
For a very long time I have been in denial about my weight, I would refuse to look at myself in the mirror and basically ignore the signs that I am an OVERWEIGHT PERSON.
This past year has been very stressful and I have gained weight as a result of my emotional eating. I reached my heaviest weight of 80kgs (176.4 lbs) and I'm now weighing in at 76kgs (167.5 lbs).
My ULTIMATE GOAL WIEGHT is to weigh 55kgs (121 lbs).
To achieve this I need to lose 21kgs (55lbs).
Seeing how much weight I have to lose is disheartening, I cannot believe I have let myself get to this stage. This is the only body I have and I have been abusing it, there is no other way to describe what I have done to myself.
I need to start loving my body, and respecting it.
As I finished writing the above sentence it hit me that I was referring to my body as a 3rd person. "It" it's NOT a 3rd person "it" is ME. I have to start loving and respecting myself. I have to look after myself. Only I have the power to make a change, and that change will be fuelling my body with healthy food and exercise. Not abusing it with eating copious amounts of junk food just because it makes me forget for a few seconds. But the guilt never goes away, the guilt stays around and makes it all that much harder because I feel like I have failed.
This is why I am not going to jump on a fad diet and have unrealistic expectations on weight loss. I will be losing the weight by eating foods that I know I will be eating for life.
I want to achieve my weight loss the healthy and sensible way - with good eating and exercising.
Because I have so much weight to lose I am going to break my weigh loss journey into little goals.
I realised that it is 11 weeks till Christmas today and 12 weeks before the new year (I have lost a whole year of my life
with my laziness, depression and binge eating).
So I am setting myself a 12 week challenge to lose 10 kgs (22 lbs) before the new year. This Christmas and New Years I want to be happy to poise in photos and not be camera shy because I don't want evidence of how fat I am. I want to be proud to poise for photos.
I will be seeing the New Year weighing 66kgs
.
Within this mini 12 week challenge I am going to break down the weight loss even more and when I hit a particular mile stone I will be rewarding myself for the hard work. Not a food reward, but something special to keep me motivated and going to reach my ultimate weight loss goal.
So these are my mini-mini challenges:
*73kgs
*71kgs
*68kgs
*66kgs (12 week challenge goal weight)
I'm going to use this post as a place to jot my thoughts, my bumpy journey and a place to vent my frustration.
If you have gotten this far, thanks for reading. Sorry I have written so much
For a very long time I have been in denial about my weight, I would refuse to look at myself in the mirror and basically ignore the signs that I am an OVERWEIGHT PERSON.
This past year has been very stressful and I have gained weight as a result of my emotional eating. I reached my heaviest weight of 80kgs (176.4 lbs) and I'm now weighing in at 76kgs (167.5 lbs).
My ULTIMATE GOAL WIEGHT is to weigh 55kgs (121 lbs).
To achieve this I need to lose 21kgs (55lbs).
Seeing how much weight I have to lose is disheartening, I cannot believe I have let myself get to this stage. This is the only body I have and I have been abusing it, there is no other way to describe what I have done to myself.
I need to start loving my body, and respecting it.
As I finished writing the above sentence it hit me that I was referring to my body as a 3rd person. "It" it's NOT a 3rd person "it" is ME. I have to start loving and respecting myself. I have to look after myself. Only I have the power to make a change, and that change will be fuelling my body with healthy food and exercise. Not abusing it with eating copious amounts of junk food just because it makes me forget for a few seconds. But the guilt never goes away, the guilt stays around and makes it all that much harder because I feel like I have failed.
This is why I am not going to jump on a fad diet and have unrealistic expectations on weight loss. I will be losing the weight by eating foods that I know I will be eating for life.
I want to achieve my weight loss the healthy and sensible way - with good eating and exercising.
Because I have so much weight to lose I am going to break my weigh loss journey into little goals.
I realised that it is 11 weeks till Christmas today and 12 weeks before the new year (I have lost a whole year of my life
with my laziness, depression and binge eating).So I am setting myself a 12 week challenge to lose 10 kgs (22 lbs) before the new year. This Christmas and New Years I want to be happy to poise in photos and not be camera shy because I don't want evidence of how fat I am. I want to be proud to poise for photos.
I will be seeing the New Year weighing 66kgs
.Within this mini 12 week challenge I am going to break down the weight loss even more and when I hit a particular mile stone I will be rewarding myself for the hard work. Not a food reward, but something special to keep me motivated and going to reach my ultimate weight loss goal.
So these are my mini-mini challenges:
*73kgs
*71kgs
*68kgs
*66kgs (12 week challenge goal weight)
I'm going to use this post as a place to jot my thoughts, my bumpy journey and a place to vent my frustration.
If you have gotten this far, thanks for reading. Sorry I have written so much
