more of a rant than a welcome

princessbethany

princessbethany

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im a wonderer on this site... always looking at the before and after pics for some motivation..
guess its my time to post up...
i could probably be a dietician i know so much about food and excersize.

anyhow, i am kinda well, FRUSTURATED.
I started this very healthy eating plan and weight lifiting/ cardio on june 13..
we are going on ONE MONTH LATER,
and i cant even tell one ounce of a difference!!!!

i dont know if it is cause of me weight lifting now or what, but when i go to put on some jeans and i still have to squeeze into them, i feel like a failure.

now i always dont feel like this, after i go to the gym tonight i will feel good and strong, but right now i just feel like ranting i suppose.. i know you all have these days too..
anyhow i will write more later.
thank you all for your motivation and
more to come!!!

bethany
 
everyone has days like that - you've got the right attitude though with going to the gym and knowing it will m ake you feel better -that's awesome motivation...
 
if you aren't already - you might want to use a program like to keep track of your calories.. and make sure you measure everything at least at the outset to really give you an idea of what you are taking in... sometimes it's m ore than we think it is...

you also might want to check the thread in nutrition - to see how many calories you should getting in a day
 
thank you for the support.. it means so much to feel like your not alone on the journey... yes, i am very familiar with fitday.. great site..

well, if yall care to hear my mini-story here goes.

I am currently 21. When I was 17, I had to drop out of high school to take care of my grandmother. She was bed-ridden and not mobile. While at home, I ate, and ate, and ate. I was never a small kid, perhaps chubby is a good word.. But I gained a lot of weight sitting at home. The heaviest I recorded myself was 233.
I dont know what sparked in me, but I could not stand seeing myself how I was... I was 17 yrs old, and felt like I was 50. I became the most devoted and motivated person ever.. ( I cannot seem to get back to that point now..)
I do not support my diet ways now, but back then it was all I knew... I had 600-800 calories a day. I never had a cheat day, nor did I want it. I bought a walk away the pounds video and started with the 1 mile walk.. i did that 5 days a week.. I gradually moved up to 2, 3, and rarely 4 miles... I would walk outside.. anything I could do to keep my body active. Within about 5-6 months I went from 223 to 185.. I now see I lost a lot more than fat, but muscle as well.. I maintained at that weight for about 2 yrs... then I was going through a breakup and kinda quit eating.. i got down to my lowest ever, 163. Now, 2 years later, I am at 180... I went on vacation and kid you not, must have gained atleast 10 lbs... not to mention the birth control Im one ( depo) i think is adding to something...
Anyhow, I decided last month, that I cant let myself get any heavier, fearing i would get back to 233... so i quit the junk food, and also tried something new i had never tried before.. weight training. It is the best thing!! I am not counting calories, but I pretty much know the caloric intake in everything I eat.. i used to study this stuff!..I will not go back to my old ways of 600 a day because I cant survive off that... and i own my own cleaning business, and i work my butt off all day.. i would die on 600 cals... i would say i am consuming between 1200-1600 a day.. i lift weights about 3-4 time a week.. and try to do cardio everyday... I have been on this 'routine' for a month almost, and yes, i can see some muscle definition, but my pants are still snug, and it is kind of depressing... i bought this scale, but i think it is crap... everyday it says the same thing 180.4 ,,, its been like this for like 2 weeks,, there is no way that is accurate as much as body weight flucuates... so im putting the scale away, it is MY ENEMY. I havent measured myself yet, but i will.. point is, im not giving up.. in 6 months from now, i can choose to look like this, or i can choose to be better.. i choose to be better.
my goal is to get to 140 by bday which is 12-31.. i am 5'4.

i plan on being very active on this board,, so if anyone wants a buddy, i can always use one!
now, i will post up a before pic... im pretty good at disguising my body fat, so trust me its there :)
 
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