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moonshine

moonshine

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i have decided that I am going to loose this weight starting today!
My past includes numerous diet failures and dissapointmets! I have never liked exercising very much,:( I have been fat most of my life, I was only thinner once when i was 18 to 20, and i starved to stay that way!
I have developed a plan of attack that includes:

1200- 1500 calories a day
20min. of exercise 4 times a week
daily journaling of food (here)
daily journaling of feelings surrounding food
weighing in on every Monday morning

Today i have had: (awoke late)
10:00am-2 eggs, 2 wheat toast, tomato, mushrooms, 1 12oz glass of milk
12:00pm-tea, 1 slice of wheat toast, 2oz colby cheese, 1tsp mayo
5:00pm-tea, 4oz steak, baked potato, onions. mushrooms, margrine, 1oz colby cheese
7:30pm-popcorn 2cups, tea

I will update this later with my dinner (around 4ish)

I feel motivated, but i always do when it is the first day and it's new and promising, I am not sure how this time will be diffrent, but it will.

current weight-270
goal weight- 125
amount to loose-145
 
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Hi Moonshine,
Welcome to the WLF and to your diary :)

I think one of the reasons diets 'fail' is because they are not something we can do for the long term. It's something we do, then stop when daily life gets in the way, that family BBQ, work party, pizza because we're too tired to get anything else.

What we need is to learn to live with the foods we love on an ongoing basis - and really, the only way we can do that, is to stay aware of how much is going in.

Remember to not let your calories get too low. You need to eat to lose weight. Drink that water, and if you can, try to up the time you're exercising.
 
Good luck on your journey. I know I have found great inspiration & support here.

Hope you can keep your motivation & we can both lose all the weight we want to ..without the starvation!

Sparkpeople.com is a great source too. I just found it thanks to the lovely people on here & its helping me to set goals & track all my food.

GOOD LUCK & glad you are here.
 
Thanks M2M and Moongodess,
M2M, i am going to try and increase my exercise time gradually, I have not done very much cardio activity for years, and i get winded after just a few min. of walking or keeping up with an exercise video. Hopefully in 2 or 3 weeks i can increase to 30 min.
Moongodess, thanks for recomending sparkspeople.com, I think it will come in quite handy!:)
I feel very welcome here!
I have been reading posts for a couple of weeks and i actually joined but have not posted, scared i guess. But now i am ready for change.
Thanks Moonshinemama
 
For today I consumed:
8:00am- 1 corndog, cottage cheese1/2 cup
12:00pm- 1 corndog, 14 pringles chips, tea
3:00pm- penut butter and jam sandwich on wheat bread, tea
 
CORNDOGS! :D Mmmmm... but not the healthiest of meals. Still, it's okay if it works for you and leaves you feeling good!

Have you done much exploration on that site yet?
 
Hello everyone it has been 6 days since i last posted an entry. I have not doen great on my plan yet I have not been totally terrible either. I realize that eating corndogs is not that great QJ, I just have a difficult time giving up all the foods i love, that is a large problem for me. I went shopping today and bought myself a lot of healthy foods, whole wheat products, lowfat dairy products, a bunch of friut and vegtables as well as some bottled water. I did however also buy some specialty cheeses, I belive Iwill use them as a reward at the end of the week, and have myself a regular treat! Today marks the first week i have been dieting and I will weigh-in in the morning. :eek: I feel nervous as I could have done much better had I put my mind to it. I really need to come here more often as well and dedicate myself to a strickter program, I appreciate all the comments and support so far. Thank you so much.
I will try and check in more often.:)

Todays Consumtion-
9am-wheat toast 1slice, 1cup milk, 8 strawberries
10am- 1/2 cup cottage cheese (fat free)
12pm-Tomato soup (made with water) 12 crackers, tea

I will post again after dinner.
Good by-Moonshine
 
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Hey now, I said, "Still, it's okay if it works for you and leaves you feeling good!"
Don't think me to be all judgemental, I am definitely not that kind of guy. I love corndogs, unfortunately I love three or four at a time and can't get by with less.

I saw that you planned a reward for yourself with some cheesy snack, but there is nothing wrong with eating it as a normal part of your diet, as long as you plan your food out and account for the calorie intensive ones in your plan.
Instead of planning a single "reward meal", make it a part of your daily food, and spread it out over several meals; there's no need to deny ourselves food we love. Using food as a reward also reinforces the unhealthy attitudes I have toward food, I know that. I'm doing a LOT better with viewing foods as fuel, neither a reward, nor a punishment. It took awhile to get my head wrapped around that idea, but it does seem to be making a difference for me.

Please don't ever take anything I say as anything but encouragement, I am definitely not trying to criticise your food choices. The closest I get to that is offering other options you might not be familiar with. :D
See you soon!
 
LOL. QJ i did not take that as an insult........just stating that i know corndogs are not the greatest of foods for dieting!!! I apprisheate your comments and thank you for your support, please contiue to give me feedback!
I am really terrible at sticking with things and this diary is turning out to be another one of them:( , I must try and renember to post my daily intake of food. I forgot to come back and enter my dinner last night.
5pm- turkey breast, mushrooms, corn, wheat bread, margrine, tea
today-
8am- 1egg scrambled, 1 wheat toast, 22oz water
12pm-vegitarian soup, 10 crackers, tea
5pm-spagetti, garlic toast 1/2 slice, skim milk

I also did 20 min of cardio tapes at my house.
goodbye!:)
Monshine
 
Hey, the only reason I remember to come here is that I have it located prominently on my computer, and I spend a lot of time in this uncomfortable chair.

Keep coming back, and I will come by to look and post back to you. How are your food portions?
 
Wow, it has been a while since I was last here. Once again I have failed miserably at any sort of dieting. I now weigh 280. That means i have gained 10 pounds since January. I feel as though I doomed to be overweight forever!
I have been reading through some other posts and diarys as well and I am quite impressed with the accoplishments others have made since my last posts. As I sit here I can not help but wonder where i could have been had I not given up and chose to eat badly. Once again I am thinking about how to loose this weight as summer approachs. Every year I tell myself how next summer I will be thin or at least thinner, and it never happens. I truley lack the skills necessary to change my behavior twords food. I am going to try and begin again by drinking adaqate water and walking for 20 min a day. whish me luck I really need it!
thanks for listening!
goodbye
moonshine
 
Don't give up on yourself! There is strength in being able to say no to even one thing that you want to eat but know you shouldn't.

Start out with the water and the walking. As you incorporate that, start gathering information on how you can make good, satisfying choices at the grocery store. What to snack on, what ingrdients to substitute in your favorite meals so you don't totally go without. You'll have a very hard time reaching your goals if you do it through any type of deprivation. Your exercise will increase as you feel more comfortable with it, and once you start understanding good food choices, you'll only have those in your kitchen because you won't have bought any corndogs to eat, so guess you'd better eat that yogurt in your fridge instead!

Do you have the ability to see a Registered Dieticien (NOT nutritionist!)? They could look at blood work and determine if you have anything lie insulin resistance or any other sugar related issue, and also look at your cholesterol levels, and come up with a guideline for how to eat well, but lose weight too. If this is something you can do I highly recommend it- I got invaluable information that really helped me.

Best of Luck to you! hope to see you on the forum! :)
 
I'm sorry things haven't been going well Moonshine... but Patfan has it right -start with somehting - start wiht the walking and water drinking... and let those become a habit -then move on to the next habit...

If you want to do this for you-- you can be successful... don't be so hard on yourself... it's tough work losing weight.... especially when there's such a looming number... but step by step and you will get there...

Use this forum as support -we'll help you along...
 
Hi Moonshine,
Welcome back to posting and GOOD for you for coming back!

Honestly, it's not giong to happen until you're READY to make it happen. Losing this weight isn't about going on a diet and losing the pounds, it's about making the changes in your life to ensure better health, fitness and the weightloss WILL happen.

You CAN do this :D

I say this all the time, but I find it has really helped me, it's about taking life (and food) one pound, one day and one meal at a time.

Track your calories - either or both sites for tracking calories, nutrition and fitness.

Learn what's going in your body - drink that water, don't let calories get too low and definitely go for those walks!

Taking small steps is what helped me - I cut out soda, then fast food - aside from that, I haven't cut anything else out. I just make room for what I want with my calories.

You CAN do this Moonshine - I've been in your shoes - I know it's possible :) You just have to decide that "failures of the past do not indicate failure in the future".

Starting fresh today, move towards your goal - one step at a time!

Welcome back!
 
Thanks for the support, boy I have not been here in a while again!!! I am however glad to announuce that I did continue with my water intake and my walking. I now can walk for around 30 min quite easily.:) I have lost 8lbs and I have been eating somewhat better, but not as good as i could have. Food continues to be my biggest issue. I really can not seem to give up fried foods. I know this is just a big excuse and am quite ashamed of it actually, I guess now that i have the walking and water conquered I need to change my food. Maybe I could start out small, like giving up white bread, or maybe fast food alltogether. I think i will go and read some more stories on here to inspire me!
good by
Mooonshine
 
heya moonshine
Grats on your 8 lb loss, water intake, and walking!!!

I think we can all relate to falling off the wagon.
I have been trying to get this down for the past 3-4 years.

For me this time I know it's real. I feel different, and convinced. I think what brought me to this was that I am faced with buying new clothes of much larger sizes.
For a while there I could squeeze into my clothes. Now, I just can't. I feel so uncomfortable. And I realized how unhappy I am with myself and realized that I am going to continue to feel this way unless I decide to accept it and stay like this forever, or do something about it. Its put me in a bad place self confidence wise and keeping me from doing the things I want to do. So now I know I have to make decisions that are going to make me happier in the long run.

I hope this helps you in some way. :)
I look forward to reading your future posts.
 
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Hello,
here it is about a month later and I still have not changed my eating patterns. It is so frustrating to think where I could be now. I am not even walking or drinking lots of water anymore. :cry: I have visted sites about people who are overweight and proud of it, even very open about it. I am thinking I should just accpet myself as is, and not obsess about my weight anymore. Inside myself I struggle with my food addiction and wonder why i can not get ahold of my behavior, why I can not eat like others. I am tired of the fight and the failure. I have considerd the gastric bypass surgery, risky and expensive. however it is an option. It seems like I get this way around the holidays. My family is out at the beach swimming and having fun, while I sit in my sweat pants on a bench, too embarrased to even get in a suit. I am watching my life pass me by, with no end to my obestiy in sight.
Thank you for listening.
Moonshine
 
I know that feeling.. hang in there. There is ALWAYS hope.

Just strive for the lil changes one at a time. Maybe increase water today, cut down on sitting & more walking next week. I think the times I really get down on myself are the times when I think I have to do it all perfect to make any difference.

I am impressed you are concerned enough about your health to care. You obviously are emotional about it, so I know you care. Just go easy on yourself & keep trying. No one wins the lottery by just scratching once. :)

Hope you are feeling more positive soon. I believe in you.

& I live at the beach & can't bare to get in SHORTS! I end up missing out on a lot of fun by my own limitations. I have to believe one day I will be comfortable enough to just put on the short & a tank & go sit... forget the bathing suit.. I'm not that optimistic...yet. I love that some people are so confident at any size... I'm just not there yet.

You aren't alone in this.
 
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