MamaJen's Diary

[MamaJen]

Well, I guess I can't avoid this any longer! Every single day, I tell myself "Oh, I'll start tomorrow!" I swear, I've been telling myself that every single day for about 5 years now. I haven't started yet.

So I'm starting now. I am completely convinced that continuing to talk about all of the time I've wasted... is just another waste of time.

Real quick... I'm Jen. I'm a 33 year old wife, and SAHM. I spend most of my time with my 4yo and my 2yo twins. I use food for just about every emotion that I have. And although I haven't necessarily battled my weight all my life, I know that food has always been my friend. I was pretty athletic most of my childhood and through highschool. So when my weight started to creep up on me in my early 20s, it really was no surprise. When I married at age 26, my wedding dress was a size 18. By the time I got pregnant with my first child, I weighed in at my first prenatal appt at 206. I was shocked. When did I get that big? Now, here I am... 4 years later, (after having 3 kids in 2 years) and weighing in at close to 240 lbs (I'm about 5'5"). I am ashamed and a little depressed. But I want to brush all of that off, and start the journey back to health. I feel like I deserve it. God gave me so many reasons to get healthy and stay healthy, and I'm grateful for those reasons in my life.

So today I'm going to start. I have many little goals along the way... and some rewards that will tickle only me. For instance, after I lose the first 10 lbs, I will be getting a much needed, long anticipated hair cut! I'll be making a list of other little 10-lb rewards...

Ok, enough. My kids are all awake now, and it's time to start the day. I'll be back to journal my food, exercise, and my thoughts!

 

[maleficent]

Just take it one step at a time...

Spend time reading around the forum to put together a realistic plan for yourself and just do it...

Welcome to your diary and much success on getting to where you want to be

 

[jellybellyjean]

Welcome and good luck. I think you have some really good ideas and plans. I like the 10 pound rewared, I did that too and it is a great gift to give yourself. It took me 5 years to finally find the determination to lose the 80 pounds that I gained and yo yo dieting. I got determined a year ago and it has made such a difference in my life. For example, yesterday I played softball and I hit and ran with confidence and didn't feel like the fat chick out there and it felt so good and even better today when I woke up and didn't hurt at all. I find to lose weight successfully you have to have goals and you have to keep yourself accountable every day. Write down what you eat, how much you exercise, etc. If you are keeping track of everything then you will learn what works for you and what doesn't. Keep up the good work and just think how good you will feel when you lose the weight and are able to get out there and play games outside with your kids and have fun running around with them!!

 

[MamaJen]

Thank you both for your encouragement!

I guess I'll be using this diary to track my food, my exercise, and my thoughts for the day. It's a normal morning here... hanging out with my 3 little ones. It's so hard to keep them busy and happy some days. If I'm not entertaining them or have structured play with them, they are fighting and screaming and running. This of course stresses me out to no end, and I usually spend the afternoon while they nap, eating. That's one of the things I'm going to work hard on changing.

Today's Food:
B - 1 Cup Heart Smart Cinammon Raisin
1/2 Cup skim milk
Citrus vitamin water

L - Lean Cuisine (Turkey/Stuffing/apples)

S - Bowl of frozen grapes and blueberries (about a cup?)

 

[Niffer1]

You must keep very busy with your little wee ones! The mini goals and rewards are an awesome idea! Good for you!

 

[MamaJen]

Yep it's true, my kids do keep me busy! In the fall I have one that will start Kindergarten full time, and my twins will go to preschool 2 mornings a week! I am already worried about what I will do with my time!

I'm really proud of myself so far today. I've stuck to eating healthy and reasonable portions. My parents called this afternoon and want to bring over burgers and fries for the kids. Yikes! And worst of all... I'm horrible at saying "no" to anything or anyone! So, it'll be burgers for dinner. I plan to eat one, probably a whole one. And instead of fries, I'll "try" to eat a salad and some fruit. We'll see how that goes. We rarely do things like this, so I'll have to see what happens.

I actually sat down and ate lunch with my kids today! Something I don't do often... usually I feed them, and then eat during their naptime. I eat WAY too much doing that, and sometimes find myself bingeing through the entire time! Today I ate my Lean Cuisine while they ate, and at the table with them. Then when I got hundry again during naptime, I ate a bowl of frozen grapes and blueberries! I've read about this snack online, and decided to try it. Today was the first time I've had them, and I must say I LOVE it! Tasted great, took a long time to eat it, and filled me up! Wahoo!