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lurker9116

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Here's my opening stats:

Height: 5' 4''
Starting weight: 215 lbs
Current weight: 200.8 lbs
Goal weight: 120 lbs
Ultimate goal weight: 115 lbs

Weaknesses: Emotional binge eating, fast food/eating for convenience instead of health, 40-50 hours a week spent sitting in a cubicle.

Strengths: Love of exercise (when I actually make myself do it), compulsion to document my habits/stats/etc..., and a dog that really, really, really wants me to jog. He is getting tired of dashing out to the end of the leash and waiting patiently for me to catch up.

Strategies: 30+ min. of cardio a day, 5-7x a week (no excuses); staying away from the untouchables (alcohol, fried food, excessive amounts of red meat or bread, sweets); weight training 2-3x a week; meticulous documentation of my food/exercise intake, both here and on transition into more raw foods/vegetarian fare; learn to cook food that tastes good AND is good for you.

Goal - I'd like to be down to at least 120 pounds by November 7th of this year, because I am going on a cruise and I want to wear this dress:

My reasons:
- I want to wear styles of clothes that only look good on skinny girls (and only come in skinny sizes)
- I want to be agile and visibly athletic, because I think there's nothing sexier.
- I hate the way binging makes me feel afterwards.
- I want to wear bikinis, sleeveless shirts and shorts.
- I want space between my thighs.
- I want a body with sharp edges.
- I want to be as successful and fearless on the outside as I am on the inside.
- I want to prove that the "smart girl" can be the beautiful girl too.
- I am tired of hearing, "You'd look like a model if you were thin."
- I want to become who I really am.
- I want to gain more control over the direction of my life in general. This is a good enough place to start.

I'll record my food, exercise, recipes, and other randomness here.

Sup? :seeya:
 
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5/1/09

Breakfast:
- 1/2 large unsweetened tea
- medium coffee (black, unsweetened)
- large bowl of fruit from Chick Fil A
- handful of gummy fish

Lunch:
- other 1/2 of the unsweetened tea from breakfast
- Chick Fil A Chargrilled Chicken Sandwich (plain)
- Chick Fil A Chicken Noodle Soup (small)
- 4 saltine crackers


Notes: Don't know what dinner is going to be yet, but I'm inviting part of my family over for dinner, one of whom is underweight and needs a high-calorie meal, so I am trying to figure out the logistics of how I'm going to make THAT work..

Also don't know if I will make it to the gym today since my apartment is a disaster and I have no groceries, so I will try to do some kind of late-night workout at the apartment after my dinner guests leave (play the deck of cards game maybe), and give the dog a long walk tonight if weather permits. It's been pouring rain all day.

Also, you might notice I eat at Chick Fil A a lot. That's because it's right down the street from my office (convenient!) and when I eat breakfast and lunch there, it puts me at about 500 calories, 6.5g of fat, 35.5g of protein, and 89g of carbs. Not bad for two of the three meals of the day. :D
 
Hi!!

Welcome to the forum :) good luck with your goals. I like that dress, I feel like it would look dumb on me though because I'm so short...

Well, keep it up! 15 pounds is a GREAT START!
 
Just wanted to stop by and say hi and wish you the best of luck on reaching your goals.

YOU CAN DO THIS.

Keep us posted on how things are going.


Matt
 
Kimmy: Thanks! :D I am a bit worried about how the dress will look on me too because I'm 5' 4'', but if I get down to 120 I will be happy to wear a potato sack, 'cause if you're skinny you can pull off almost anything!


Side-note on water intake: As I'm sure everybody knows, drinking enough water is a HUGE factor in weight loss. So currently I am trying to get about 64 oz. of plain water a day. Sometimes I manage it, sometimes I don't. But I always try to get close. Besides that, you will lose weight just by drinking water to replace regular (read: empty calorie) drinks; I know that from past experience. And most people go around in a water-deprived state from drinking coffee, tea, sodas, and other diuretics instead of the real deal.

Being dehydrated is like poisoning yourself with your own waste products. So think of that as incentive.

Side-effects of prolonged dehydration:
- excess body fat (!!!)
- poor muscle tone
- poor digestion/organ function
- increased toxicity
- joint/muscle soreness
- water retention

Downfalls to your eight glasses a day: Need to pee every fifteen seconds, it seems like. Hehe.
Pros: Soft luminous skin, lost weight, good for the environment if you get it out of the tap, and did I mention that lost water weight? :D

So far I've gone from drinking sweet coffee, sweet tea, and sodas to drinking probably 85% water; the rest is juice, black coffee, unsweetened black iced tea, or an occasional small glass of sweet iced tea as a treat (I make it more like a dessert than a beverage).

I have dropped four pounds since last weekend, so yeah...water - it does a body good!
 
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i dunno, i think it actually slacks off a bit. I drink 3-4 liters of water a day and now im not making the trip as much.

hell yeah to muscle defintion tho, i actually see the bulge in my biceps now, woooooooooooooooo
 
Weekend

Friday:
Dinner - Binged. (sigh) Had a Special K protein shake for dinner, then had 3 Taco Supreme tacos, several tiny Italian breadsticks, and a Strawberry Lemonade Frutista for dinner. It was a binge because after the shake, I definitely wasn't hungry. But I ate anyway.

Exercise - None.

Notes: I'm pretty sure that this was a boredom binge. I had dinner plans which were unexpectedly canceled, I was alone, I had stuff to do and didn't do it. Instead I cruised around the city aimlessly, and stopped in for a Fruitista because I was thirsty for something sweet after drinking water and unsweetened tea and black coffee all day. One thing led to another (difficult to go into a drivethrough and JUST order a drink) so I ended up eating when I didn't need to.

(Dammit.)

Solution: In order to give myself access to something sweet to drink at home to stave off that particular craving, I bought some raspberry lemonade Koolaid (with 1/2 regular sugar added) so I could have it on hand, and not go to a drive-through for a slushy, slurpy, freeze, or any other syrupy concoction of that nature. It puts me in harm's way...


Saturday:
- Breakfast: Medium unsweetened tea, large bowl of fruit.
- Lunch: Plain chargrilled chicken sandwich, small bowl of chicken noodle soup.
- Dinner: Bowl of beef stew, two pieces of Tuscan bread, garden salad, two small pieces of marble loaf cake with 1/2 cup of ice cream.

Exercise: 20 min. warmup, 40 min. treadclimber (500 calories), 1.5 hr yoga class.

Notes: This dinner was the high-calorie meal I had to prepare for my underweight relative that I mentioned earlier. I think I did pretty well with portion control on this one. Probably didn't need an extra piece of bread, but I was at the gym for two and a half hours that morning, so I was hungry.

I'm proud that I put in that much time at the gym though, and I am starting to feel a difference. I'm running up the stairs more easily, my pants fit better and I can tell that my arms and legs in particular are becoming more toned. Little change in the belly too. So it's working!

Sunday:

- Breakfast/Lunch: 3 large strawberries, a carved chicken sandwich on stone ground wheat bread, blue Koolaid.
- Dinner: 2 hot dogs, bowl of chili with a sprinkle of cheddar cheese, 10 saltines. Also drank a sweet iced tea and two ultra light beers.

Notes: Definitely did not drink enough water this day, and if I had, I probably would have not eaten as much as I did at dinner.

Exercise: None.


End of the week review:
Did pretty good on exercise; made it to the gym 5 times. Didn't walk the dog as often as I wanted to, because it poured rain for four days straight.

Not so great on food, as I ate a bit heavily for my purposes over the weekend and binged Friday night. But hopefully a hard workout on Saturday sort of negated my temporary weakness.

Goals for this week: Drink more water(!), start eating lunch at home, make it to the gym 6 times, walk the dog at LEAST twice a day, throw out the pints of ice cream in the fridge from my dinner party Saturday night. They're the devil...
 
Monday 5-4-09

Breakfast: Large bowl of fruit, unsweetened tea, black coffee.

Back on the bandwagon. I allow myself some wiggle room on the weekends because it's my highest socialization point of the week and I'm usually dining with other people, but during the week I have a strict caloric intake. I actually need to buckle down even more today to make up for the transgressions of the weekend. :D

My gym buddy is going with me tonight, so at least I have no excuses to get out of it. I will probably sneak back to the gym after she leaves and do a little extra workout, because she is definitely on a much lower fitness level than I am, and for me, twenty minutes on the treadmill and ten minutes on the weights doesn't cut it. I need to put in at least an hour a day to get where I need to be.

Should have gone to the gym this morning, but I stayed up WAY too late last night, which means I slept WAY too late this morning to hit the gym and have time to get ready for work. Will try to get to bed at a decent hour tonight so I can get up early tomorrow and hit it hard!

Note to self: Do not eat when bored. You have WAY too much other crap to do. See to-do list. 'Nuff said.
 
Lunch:
- turkey sandwich on stone ground wheat (two thin slices of turkey and bread; I'm a plain jane when it comes to sandwiches...)
- 10 pretzel crisps
- few sips of blue raspberry Koolaid to wash it down

Exercise: I actually went and did 10 minutes on the treadclimber at the gym on my lunch break. (150 calories) Not much, but I did it mostly for symbolic purposes. Also because I am in the red (ladies, you know what I mean...) and I needed those extra endorphins because I am cramping like a mofo.

Dinner:
- 1 bowl of chicken ramen (I know, I know, but I was in a hurry...)

Exercise: 20 min. treadclimber (300 cal.), 20 min. weight-lifting

5-5-09:

Breakfast - Mega Monster Energy Drink

Stayed up until three packing up my apartment. So....tired...
 
I am so wishing that I hadn't skipped breakfast this morning (also wishing I hadn't stayed up five hours past my bedtime too...)

It's funny. Before I started working out, I skipped breakfast on the regular and never even missed it - a sweet iced tea and a black coffee would do for me just fine. Now that I am constantly burning calories, when I skip a meal (even a small one like a bowl of fruit) I get hungry.

Not that I'm hungry right now. I just feel kind of ill from staying up so late and not eating anything...I have such a headache. I am not one of those people that can go on three or four hours of sleep and be fine; anything less than seven hours and I am dragging the entire day.

My workout partner approached me earlier and asked me if I wanted to take off work a bit early and go work out with her, but I told her to go on ahead for today. I can't afford to take off early from work, for one thing (I am an editor, thus I work on deadlines) and I'm sure by 3:30 this afternoon I will barely be able to remember my own name, much less be a chipper and sociable companion at the gym.

Today is probably going to be a skip day. It's amazing how if you start your day off wrong, it continues to spiral. I will try to eat a square meal for lunch, and I might hit the gym later on tonight if I'm feeling up to it.

But Tuesdays suck.
 
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