Nightshades
New member
You know I'm new in that forum. but hopefully I will become a permanent member here..
Since I was so young I've been spoiled by my family. lots of chocolate , icecream and food. and that somehow destroyed my life even if they thought earlier that it was to make me happy. When I became on high schools , I looked like a 20 years old girls and I was only 16 or 15.
Each time I tried to diet I lose some weight then gain them doubled.
I know, when I get angry I do eat, when I feel sad I do eat. even with happy moments. and the most hurting part as I started to grow up was memorial pics that my family/friend did take for me.
Whenevr someone take pic for me, I take a look at it and I go like "oh my god , am I that fat?!" and I realize that looking to your self in the mirror is very very different than looking at your pics with friends or so on.
yes, I've decided this time to lose weight. Now I dont want to lose weight for my bf (we already broke up ) nor for my family, I want to lose weight for my self. and I know I will keep going on, no matter what.
When I'm down I will come here to stay motivated, but no more laziness about losing weight.
Hopefully my detemination will go higher each time I go here.
so til the next time
Thanks for making this site
Lulu
Since I was so young I've been spoiled by my family. lots of chocolate , icecream and food. and that somehow destroyed my life even if they thought earlier that it was to make me happy. When I became on high schools , I looked like a 20 years old girls and I was only 16 or 15.
Each time I tried to diet I lose some weight then gain them doubled.
I know, when I get angry I do eat, when I feel sad I do eat. even with happy moments. and the most hurting part as I started to grow up was memorial pics that my family/friend did take for me.
Whenevr someone take pic for me, I take a look at it and I go like "oh my god , am I that fat?!" and I realize that looking to your self in the mirror is very very different than looking at your pics with friends or so on.
yes, I've decided this time to lose weight. Now I dont want to lose weight for my bf (we already broke up ) nor for my family, I want to lose weight for my self. and I know I will keep going on, no matter what.
When I'm down I will come here to stay motivated, but no more laziness about losing weight.
Hopefully my detemination will go higher each time I go here.
so til the next time
Thanks for making this site
Lulu
