Growing up I never imagined I would ever get married or live a normal life. Beginning at the age of 5 my weight ballooned as my father became emotionally abusive to my mother at our home. I turned to food for comfort.
My story was featured in "BEST HEALTH MAGAZINE - CANADA" this year in May displaying a traumatic event that changed my life forever. Once my sister and I were locked inside our home with a stranger, my father attempted murder on my mother in the carport just out side our Vancouver home one day. As we heard her scream, I lunged to the fridge and at a bucket of potato salad. Now I look back and see how it made me feel. I remember the flavors rolling on my tongue as my throat closed because of my tears.
Tormented through elementary, middle and high school, my confidence because non-existant and I took to acting on stage to reach out and be "someone else" even if it were for only an hour and a half. No one judged me when I was on stage. I was someone different and it didn't matter if I was only 17 and 300 pounds.
In grade 12 my weight was at it's highest, just over 300 pounds I was in the largest size in Plus sized clothing stores and my pants would tear in the thigh area from the rubbing and heat. I remember being so embarrassed.
Once I moved to a larger city to begin post secondary school, my environment changed. My mom wasn't around baking and without a vehicle I wasn't able to just run out and get fast food every chance I could. I was also forced to walk.
The first 40 pounds of weight I lost almost went unnoticed. Family around me would say "wow, you've lost weight" but I couldn't tell and at that point I wasn't even trying. It was simply a reflection of my changed lifestyle.
But when I saw it on the scale, it made me realize that maybe one day, I could fit in a be "normal". I realized I wanted to eat right and wanted to work out and have a "fit" body.
Eventually I got a trainer and lost it all. I say "lost it all" because there is some deep theory behind this phrase. My weight reached 157; however, I was put on such an extreme diet that I actually lost my mind. I hadn't eaten carbs for months and was never allowed to put an ounce of fat in my body. Even my omega fatty acid pills. As a result, I became illogical and felt the whole world was against me. It was so scary. It took me a year to get back to a normal functioning mental state.
During this year I came to terms with the fact that weight loss must be achieved through balance and proper nutrition. I began to research fitness and nutrition more seriously.
My personal website has more details and before/after pictures...also, you will be able to see the success I finally achieved in my acting career.
http://www.suzannanicole.com/weightloss.html
I hope this encourages many of you. My article did and it was so rewarding to hear people thank me for the motivation!
Suzanna Nicole
My story was featured in "BEST HEALTH MAGAZINE - CANADA" this year in May displaying a traumatic event that changed my life forever. Once my sister and I were locked inside our home with a stranger, my father attempted murder on my mother in the carport just out side our Vancouver home one day. As we heard her scream, I lunged to the fridge and at a bucket of potato salad. Now I look back and see how it made me feel. I remember the flavors rolling on my tongue as my throat closed because of my tears.
Tormented through elementary, middle and high school, my confidence because non-existant and I took to acting on stage to reach out and be "someone else" even if it were for only an hour and a half. No one judged me when I was on stage. I was someone different and it didn't matter if I was only 17 and 300 pounds.
In grade 12 my weight was at it's highest, just over 300 pounds I was in the largest size in Plus sized clothing stores and my pants would tear in the thigh area from the rubbing and heat. I remember being so embarrassed.
Once I moved to a larger city to begin post secondary school, my environment changed. My mom wasn't around baking and without a vehicle I wasn't able to just run out and get fast food every chance I could. I was also forced to walk.
The first 40 pounds of weight I lost almost went unnoticed. Family around me would say "wow, you've lost weight" but I couldn't tell and at that point I wasn't even trying. It was simply a reflection of my changed lifestyle.
But when I saw it on the scale, it made me realize that maybe one day, I could fit in a be "normal". I realized I wanted to eat right and wanted to work out and have a "fit" body.
Eventually I got a trainer and lost it all. I say "lost it all" because there is some deep theory behind this phrase. My weight reached 157; however, I was put on such an extreme diet that I actually lost my mind. I hadn't eaten carbs for months and was never allowed to put an ounce of fat in my body. Even my omega fatty acid pills. As a result, I became illogical and felt the whole world was against me. It was so scary. It took me a year to get back to a normal functioning mental state.
During this year I came to terms with the fact that weight loss must be achieved through balance and proper nutrition. I began to research fitness and nutrition more seriously.
My personal website has more details and before/after pictures...also, you will be able to see the success I finally achieved in my acting career.
http://www.suzannanicole.com/weightloss.html
I hope this encourages many of you. My article did and it was so rewarding to hear people thank me for the motivation!
Suzanna Nicole