I like to remember a few things at times like this.
There's a line from a poem, goes like this: "A bend in the road is not the end of the road, unless you fail to make the turn" So, the way I see it is the 45 pound gain was just a bend in the road, and now you've reached another bend. Make the turn.
Another helpful thing to remember: on a mission to the moon, the rocket is off course 95% of the time. The ONLY way it reaches it's destination is through constant adjustments.
The course is not straight, and if one finds her or himself "off-course"; take a deep breath, realize it's natural, and then re-focus on the target. That's my line and I'm sticking to it!
I'm new here. I lost over 40 pounds 3 years ago and felt great. I gained it all back plus some because I quit doing what I knew worked for me. I don't know why. I'm not sure it matters why anymore, I just know that I want to feel good again and fit into a decent size. I'll turn 50 years old in 2007 and I do not want to be a dumpy old lady. I want to age gracefully. I don't expect to regain the figure I had at 20, and I'm not chasing youth. That's unrealistic and a losing battle for me. But, I want to feel good, I want to be able to do things like go for hikes or bike rides, or walk my dogs, or dance nonstop without feeling pain or breathlessness.