Losing Weight Again in the Land of Chocolate and Cheese

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So I don't really know how to begin this first post of my new diary... I have done a first post of a new diary about three times since my last, successful diary, and each time I've had to stop and never followed through - after less than a week. I was incredibly motivated at the time, and it seems I am always incredibly motivated in the evening, when the food guilt hits me as I go to bed, saying that the next day will be different... but it never is. I have been using my little boy, who is now just over a year old, as an excuse to eat badly and to not have the time to write here. It is true that it is more difficult for me now, particularly because it means I'll be having to make a bunch of different meals, also because I am so exhausted physically and emotionally all of the time (I did not give birth to a baby who enjoys sleep in any sense of the word), but this is not a new problem to mankind, so I have to suck it up and get with the programme.

Here is my current state - I'm now around 89kg... fluctuating between 88.5 and 89.5, but oh my god I will not allow myself to reach 90. I was this weight before I decided to get all healthy before my pregnancy, and I managed it then, getting down to 80.7 and feeling sOOOO fabulous! I am really tall, so a healthy BMI for me is 84.5. I currently have a major shoulder injury and am having a lot of girly reproductive issues that means that all my professional people are telling me to stop my exercise, which is really getting me down. I know this is the point where I can get depressed and sit on the couch, eat corn chips and cheese and biscuits and croissants and chocolate, and let myself not so slowly reach my pinacle weight of 106kg again. It would be easy, I would be unhappy and embarrassed and humiliated, and I'd continue to eat. I know this. OR I can instead use this as a time to focus all my energy on eating healthily, being smart, being a good example to my boy, and becoming happier in the process.

I want to do a crash diet for the first week to get me out of my bad habits (eating huge amounts in front of the computer or TV for the 90 minutes that my boy sleeps during the day; eating too much cheese and butter; eating too much (I don't need anything!) after dinner), and while the 'crash diet' phrase has a lot of bad reputations, if I said 'detox', it'd be fine, right? So... let's just say that. This has worked well for me in the past, though I am scared to cut out everything I love... so I'm making my own rules.

My Own Rules
1. Cut out the following: Cheese, butter, white flour, sugar (except for regulation 3 below), alcohol.
2. Small potions of everything, except steamed veggies. I know that portion size is a big problem for me.
3. Only 70% or over dark chocolate (then I know I'll only want one square and will be satisfied), and only once a day.
4. No carbs with dinner.

Tactics I'm going to use:
1. Think like this: If I wouldn't want my boy to eat it (he gets only the best, most healthy food from me!), I won't eat it!
2. I've recently discovered and love quinoa. I'm going to use this to get myself feeling full.
3. Spend money to make things easy - buy the fresh pre-chopped veg ready for steaming, for example.
4. Try to up my meat and egg intake a little (though I don't like eating a lot of meat) to reduce my desire for cheese.
5. When my boy has his daily nap, instead of going straight to the fridge and getting food then sitting down on the couch, open the computer and write in here.

I've chatted to my man, and he's ready to lose 5kg or so himself and gets a full amaaaazing cooked lunch at work every day, so he is very happy to have a light, carb free dinner too. We will support each other!

Enough typing... Onwards and downwards!
 
Good luck. It is definitely not easy with kids. Will be looking forward to an amazing first day post tomorrow ;)
 
Hello Love!! Glad you are back...looks like we all found our way back! thank makes me happy!! I bet your sweet one is getting so big!! they grow way to fast...I can tell you that!.

I think I am with you....I need to do a cleanse or detox diet to rid my body of it all. Its way to use to the crap I have been feed it.

I think I will write a statement of intent to be healthy as well!! Thanks for the idea!! :)
 
"Think like this: If I wouldn't want my boy to eat it (he gets only the best, most healthy food from me!), I won't eat it!"

Good thinking Joh! You really should look after yourself as well as you do your lovely boy. If only we gave ourselves as much love as we do our sons. Whoosh! All self-esteem issues out the window.
You have given me food for thought sweetie about making some new guidelines for myself. It's lovely having you back in here xoxo Cate
 
Hi, im new and what ill encourage you to do is to stay closer to fruits and vegetables for a while. have you ever ate avocado. Maybe you can do a research on moringa and let me know what you think about it. Hmmm once you have kids its a plant you will want to have around.
 
Hey Joh! Have missed your posts on here--can't believe little man is 1 year! I remember you telling us you were pregnant! Crazy!
 
Nawww. SO much love from you all already! I'm such a lucky lady! :D :D :D

So, look at me. Here I am. My boy is in bed and I've opened the computer.

DAY ONE
Realisation - The Great Breakfast Tragedy:
My breakfast is shot. Every morning I go for a walk with my boy along the lake, we look at the puppies and the birdies, maybe feed the ducks, say good morning to everyone we pass (we live in a little Swiss village - it happens :) ) and then we head to the local mini cafe / bakery thing which has a little mini indoor playground. I have a milk coffee (which I am NOT cutting out!), a bowl of blueberries (of which Ruben has the vast majority), a gipfeli (which is like a bun shaped like a croissant... not as buttery and nice - oops I mean bad for me - though!) and / or a wholemeal seedy roll with cream cheese. Ruben plays, I eat and drink. So no butter and no cheese means no breakfast... which I know is a TERRIBLE mistake. I've really always been horrific with breakfasts, and this is the first time in my life that I've actually been eating it... Do you guys have any suggestions? Do you think I should still eat my wholemeal roll (it's small) with some cream cheese? Because as much as I say that I'll try to find a substitute, I know deep down that I won't, and I probably will end up just having a few blueberries and a coffee. But maybe that isn't a bad thing... Ideas?

This morning we didn't go for our walk though, because my boy and I had krabbelgruppe (um... in English I suppose it's playgroup? Run by the local village...?).This includes a morning tea, but it could have been worse. It's not like an Australian morning tea, with mini quiches, pies, lamingtons and choccy biscuits or anything. Phew! I had a slice of watermelon and a wholemeal gipfeli (yes, a wholemeal non-buttery croissant. A healthy one. Insanity, I know). With another coffee, though a black one this time. This morning my little ray of sunshine decided that this night-time sleeping business was finished at 4.45am, so I needed that extra one.

And now, here I am at the computer, he is asleep, and I'm writing to you instead of raiding the fridge and cupboards and seeing what goodies are in there, or if there are none, what goodies I can attempt to make. Even better, I'm eating broccoli. Before we left this morning, I steamed some broc and this is what I'm having for lunch right now:

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The veggie patty thing has apparently 164cal, and I have some spices on the broccoli. Yum! So much yummier than corn chips! I'm serious. It's just that it requires a bit more planning!

Angel - Thanks so much for your speedy response to my pretty whingy first post! I thought about your comment a lot this morning and wanted to write about some good decisions, so a huge thanks for that.
Tete - hi lovely lady! Yep, I think there's nothing wrong with a cleanse to get rid of all your crap and start a-fresh. Looking forward to seeing your statement of intent soon :)
Cate - I love your new signature. It is perfect, and what you say is perfect! Also looking forward to seeing if you make yourself some new guidelines too. x
John - I sure do love avocado! The ones here in Switzerland are a bit... well, they aren't as good as the ones in Australia. They stay firm and aren't really creamy, and then they just go off. I've tried my boy with avo a few times and he is not a fan... sadly! but you're right, that's a great one to keep in mind. I love a good guacamole!
Hanna - Hellooo! I KNOW!!! I remember posting all my pregnancy photos... I feel like you guys have been with me through so much now! Yep, he is such a big boy... just started running and dances in circles and spends all day chit chatting away. He is my joy. Hope all is goood for you!
 

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My day is almost over...

I made a sugarfree banana bread - ripe banana, eggs, olive oil, oats, buckwheat, wholemeal flour and baking powder. It's amazing... and I ate too much of it. Probably the equivalent of a big bowl of porridge, 2tbsp olive oil, 1 egg and 1.5 bananas. :piggy: But then for dinner I had a tin of tuna and salad, with water.

That's right, with water. No wine. WHAT?! My husband offered me wine four times this evening. Count them. FOUR. :reddevil: He wants me to put a post-it-note on my forehead for a few days saying 'Wine? NO!' Might be a good idea.

Haven't had my square of chocolate yet, and dont think I will.
 
You're doing great so far Joh! It all comes down to the mind when losing weight and making a new lifestyle for yourself... because that's what you're doing, changing your life! :D
 
Had that chocolate square, but just the one. Not a horrific day 1, besides the portion size issue and the banana bread...

DAY 2
Went for the usual walk and then to the cafe / playground place. I met a mum-friend there for a coffee, and I got my bowl of blueberries (and raspberries - yum!). She asked if I knew about their breakfast deal that included a croissant, but I told her I'm off them for now - have to lose my 10kg. SHE said that she would die for my figure, and that if I lost 10kg I'd be a stick! WHAT THE?! So lovely of her to say :D haha. I would just really like to be what I was pre-baby.

Food:
-small bowl berries, milk coffee, slice of wholemeal seed bread with a scrape of cream cheese
-barley and veg risotto ('gersotto' they call it here) - no cream or cheese or butter, just stock.
-slice of banana bread and an apple
- chicken and veg stir fry with ginger, garlic, soy and hoi sin sauce.
 
Hi guys
Sorry I don't have the time to read and write on everyone else's diaries... it's a struggle to just get on here at the moment. But I REALLY appreciate your comments. Thanks so so much!

DAY 3
Not as good... I had a croissant with my coffee today. Everything else was good! I avoided all the ice cream and chips that everyone else was having, which is good! And I had a ham salad rye-bread roll for dinner at 5pm before netball. I'm now (11pm) having my piece of chocolate and 10 raspberries.

Short and sweet. Bed time!
 
Hey! Welcome, again!

I am here again, myself. I also have children (one is almost 2.5 years old and the other is 8 months old). I understand sleep deprevation completely! I also understand the lack of time. Especially now when naptime is no longer time for me as the baby sleeps earlier than the toddler. By the time the toddler is asleep, the baby wakes up! My only me time is after bedtime for the night and even that is broken up as the baby does not sttn!

I would love to help support you, as I can understand having children myself. And my first was a terrible sleeper as a baby!

Uh oh, have to go. Starving baby on my lap!!
 
Hi Joh, having a croissant & then not having a "f... it day" afterward is a big step! Well done. Every single day that you steer clear of most of the temptations around you is a bonus. I have a feeling that at 83 or 84kg your friends will be saying "don't lose any more". You will know when you are at the right weight for you & I think, like me, what the scales say won't have much to do with it. It's good that you are back in here acknowledging that you need to keep track. Don't worry about our diaries. We all know where to find you! xoxo Cate
 
Hello Joh,
Good job on making the decison to come back and get your life back! You've been here before, so you know it's not easy, it is doable though, and you can do it!
Something you might consider after your "crash diet " part is to look at your daily macro nutrients and try to have a good balance of carbs (veggies and fruits, not breads and pastas), healthy fats (olives, avocados, tree nuts) and proteins (meat, fish etc). The healthy fats will satiate you for longer than anything else (and will keep you from raiding the fridge for that soda, muffin or sweet. I'm convinced for me, Cutting out the sugars has been a key success factor. I used to crave the stuff, now, by the grace of God and a complete change of nutrition, I don't touch sweets (except on the occasional "really special occasion). If you want to see my blog about weightloss (and living in China as an expat) feel free to visit

Good choices to you my dear!
Sarah
 
Hello my lovely!!! :)

I come back and find you have just come back too!!!!! It really does take me back. I can't believe how long it's been.

I'm loving the photo's of your little man on facebook......he is sooooooooo adorable :) I, on the other hand have a 14 yr old now!!!!! Where has the time gone?!!

Looking forward to following you on your journey.

Love and hugs
Xoxoxoxo
 
Hi there cheer squad.

It would have been so easy for me to not write on here... ever again... to do the same thing I've done with my other diary attempts post-baby and just fade away (sadly not literally) again. I'm having some problems with my eating... No surprises there, seeing as I'm on here, but perhaps the specifics of this problem will be interesting to some of you.

1. I just really really enjoy bad food. It's not that I'm not organised enough, or don't have enough time to prepare good meals, it's just that I really like bad food. I know we were programmed this way, but I don't understand those people that think the smell of hot chips is so repulsive, and those who would honestly prefer fruit salad to a cheesecake. Why aren't I like this? What makes me so different? Yes, when I eat a whole heap of junk, I feel physically terrible. I know this, but it's not enough to stop me. What the?

2. In the past, when I've been really committed to losing weight, it's because I'm just SO unhappy with my body. Right now, I'm not so unhappy with my body. Yes, it's overweight (I almost deleted that 'it's' and wrote 'I'm', but I thought that was super interesting that I wrote that initially, so it's staying). Yes, I could be healthier. Yes I have bulges and bumps and sags and WAY too much solid hard-core jiggle, but most of that can be attributed to this beautiful boy that I have grown. And particularly when I look at my belly, I feel like it's just the remnant sack from where he was. And I can't hate that. It's easy (for me) to lose weight when you are so unhappy with yourself... it's not so easy when it's for a seemingly abstract idea to be 'healthier overall'. That fire in my belly isn't there. Who would have thought that being okay with your body would be bad for your health?!

DAY (? - have I lost track already? Looks like I missed yesterday... hmm...) 5
- small bowl mixed berries, milk coffee, slice of wholegrain bread with cream cheese.
- full size Kit kat (yes really. I live in switzerland and I'm having a freaking kit kat. It was thrown in with my grocery delivery... bastards!)
- rice noodles with steamed veg, egg, curry sauce (not too much at all)
- cappuccino
- caprese salad (1 tomato, fresh basil, fresh mozzarella) and half a serve of gnocchi with roasted tomato sauce.

FYI we actually went out to dinner tonight with my boy in tow at our little local pizzeria with a cute summer garden. We did great sharing those two not-so-bad dishes at a pizzeria! And my boy was a total star. :)

** HAVE to clean up, and my husband is waiting very impatiently for the computer to watch Le Tour... so I will respond to all your lovely messages in a few hours. xx
 
Heya :)

I totally understand about enjoying bad food!! It is soooooo unfair that it tastes as good as it does. If it wasn't so lovely I wouldn't be this size lol.

It is GOOD that you are not so unhappy with your body!!!! That is what we are aiming for I think. Maybe not look at it as wanting to lose weight but, like you said, being healthy.

Xoxoxo
 
I completely understand too! Cheesecake is much better than a fruit salad, pasta/pizza/etc is much better than a salad.... blech salads, haha. That's why I'm trying to make better food choices but somtimes I will still eat the bad stuff, just in better portions.... so like 2 slices of pizza instead of 5! :p
 
Hello dear!! Just sending some good vibes out there...hoping all is well I bet the sweet doll of yours is getting so big!! Hope you check in soon!!
 
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