Moogle
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Hello.
My name is Alice and i am 36 years old. I am currently about 400 pounds and i am living terrified. My self esteem is so low that i find myself sitting in my room staring at the wall with a black mind trying not to think about myself. I no longer look in mirrors and walk around when i have to run errands looking down at the ground and avoiding eye contact with people. The only way i can bring myself to communicate is with people online who have never seen me. I don't have a job and live at home with my mother who takes care of me. This in itself depresses me as i should be able to take care of her. I try to diet and lose weight, but i always fail. I am scared of working out, like if i make my heart beat to fast at this size i will have a heart attack or something. I don't have anyone to talk to about these feelings and no one who will talk to me everyday and be a friend and help me mentally to start the challenge of losing this weight. I want to be at a healthy size in a year, i'm not asking to be skinny, i just want to be healthy before i turn 37. I can't afford a personal trainer, i cant even go see a doctor because this problem has spiraled so far out of control that i cant even function in the real world anymore. I lock myself inside as much as i can. If there is anyone out there who is good at this sort of thing, please contact me.
My name is Alice and i am 36 years old. I am currently about 400 pounds and i am living terrified. My self esteem is so low that i find myself sitting in my room staring at the wall with a black mind trying not to think about myself. I no longer look in mirrors and walk around when i have to run errands looking down at the ground and avoiding eye contact with people. The only way i can bring myself to communicate is with people online who have never seen me. I don't have a job and live at home with my mother who takes care of me. This in itself depresses me as i should be able to take care of her. I try to diet and lose weight, but i always fail. I am scared of working out, like if i make my heart beat to fast at this size i will have a heart attack or something. I don't have anyone to talk to about these feelings and no one who will talk to me everyday and be a friend and help me mentally to start the challenge of losing this weight. I want to be at a healthy size in a year, i'm not asking to be skinny, i just want to be healthy before i turn 37. I can't afford a personal trainer, i cant even go see a doctor because this problem has spiraled so far out of control that i cant even function in the real world anymore. I lock myself inside as much as i can. If there is anyone out there who is good at this sort of thing, please contact me.