littlefish
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well, here goes nothing...
i'm roughly 230lbs... today i'm 229 (which i hope is due to my eating well and doing exercise today and yesterday, but it's probably just water weight).
i can't handle being this big anymore. my job is physically (and by god, mentally) challenging. i am an health care assistant at hospital, in a ward especially for the elderly. most have dementia, and a lot can't do anything for themselves. it's my job to go around helping them. it may sound simple, but getting 9 people up, washed, dressed and onto their chairs in 4 hours is harder than it sounds. especially when quite a few can't hold their own weight and there are buzzers (people calling for help/assistance) going off left, right and center. and it doesn't stop there. on top of the first, very physically demanding 4 hours of the day, i have another 8 and a half hours in which most of the things i did in the first 4 hours are repeated over and over. plus i have to deal with patients hitting, kicking, biting and scratching me whilst all i'm trying to do is help them. it makes me fell just grrrrreat! ... not.
i do love my job, i will say that. it is the most amazing thing, being able to help people, but i literally do not have the energy most days. this is my main reason for losing weight now. not because i look fat, not because i can't fit into nice clothes, but because i'm seriously unfit and i need to do something about it. also, along the lines, i would like kids and if i keep going down the road i have been going, then i'm not going to be able to have any.
so, goal #1: try harder.
i have been (pardon my french) a lazy shit for as long as i can remember. i've never had that "addicted to exercise" thing that some people talk about and most of the activities i really enjoy doing are done whilst sitting down. i can draw and paint, write novels and poetry, create websites and sleep to my heart's content, but i will never be able to lose weight just by doing that and i will never get fit. so one thing that's top on my list is to try harder... at getting up in the morning, at getting myself to the swimming pool and gym and at convincing myself that it would be better for me to walk those 20 minutes to town instead of paying £4 for a taxi! my mother's a nutritionist and works for a charity that helps support the weightloss and physical wellbeing of kids, young adults and their parents. yet she is barely able to get me to get off my arse from in front of the tv and stand up to lay the table for dinner. i would rather not eat dinner than do that most of the time to be honest. my eating isn't usually that much of a problem. it's my lack of exercise. though portion size is a big deal to, as for some reason, even if i don't eat for 6 days, a normal sized bowl of pasta won't fill my stomach, even though it must have shrunk...right? i don't know. all i know is, i've tried to lose weight for purely the wrong reasons and in completely the wrong way in the past, and i don't want to continue.
one thing i must say is, i love fasting. i can go very long periods of time without feeling physically hungry, and if i'm asleep/at work/busy, i can even get through that without noticing. i have fasted for 6 days before (it may not seem much, but hiding that from your parents [i still live at home] is difficult) and that was, i'd say, pretty easy. i lost over a stone in those 6 days, but you know what.. it took very little time to put it back on again. i need a change of lifestyle, and one of the biggest components has to be exercise!
my plan is simple. i will eat 1000calories or less per day and i will match that with exercise, so i basically burn whatever i've eaten that day and my body can take care of the rest. as i'm on my feet for 12 hours a day when at work, and it's physically impossible to go to the gym after that, i will keep the pool and gym for days off, but i'll definitely be making up for it. it's not too hard, as most of the exercise i enjoy doing is cardio and quite intense (once i've actually got off my arse and in the gym) and i usually work the whole of my body with different exercises, and if i haven't then i go swimming anyway, which exercises the rest. i hope to find a happy medium through adjusting and getting used to my new healthy lifestyle, that will eventually allow me to drop the pounds easily and consistently until i've reached my goal weight (or until i feel comfortable and healthy).
i'm roughly 230lbs... today i'm 229 (which i hope is due to my eating well and doing exercise today and yesterday, but it's probably just water weight).
i can't handle being this big anymore. my job is physically (and by god, mentally) challenging. i am an health care assistant at hospital, in a ward especially for the elderly. most have dementia, and a lot can't do anything for themselves. it's my job to go around helping them. it may sound simple, but getting 9 people up, washed, dressed and onto their chairs in 4 hours is harder than it sounds. especially when quite a few can't hold their own weight and there are buzzers (people calling for help/assistance) going off left, right and center. and it doesn't stop there. on top of the first, very physically demanding 4 hours of the day, i have another 8 and a half hours in which most of the things i did in the first 4 hours are repeated over and over. plus i have to deal with patients hitting, kicking, biting and scratching me whilst all i'm trying to do is help them. it makes me fell just grrrrreat! ... not.
i do love my job, i will say that. it is the most amazing thing, being able to help people, but i literally do not have the energy most days. this is my main reason for losing weight now. not because i look fat, not because i can't fit into nice clothes, but because i'm seriously unfit and i need to do something about it. also, along the lines, i would like kids and if i keep going down the road i have been going, then i'm not going to be able to have any.
so, goal #1: try harder.
i have been (pardon my french) a lazy shit for as long as i can remember. i've never had that "addicted to exercise" thing that some people talk about and most of the activities i really enjoy doing are done whilst sitting down. i can draw and paint, write novels and poetry, create websites and sleep to my heart's content, but i will never be able to lose weight just by doing that and i will never get fit. so one thing that's top on my list is to try harder... at getting up in the morning, at getting myself to the swimming pool and gym and at convincing myself that it would be better for me to walk those 20 minutes to town instead of paying £4 for a taxi! my mother's a nutritionist and works for a charity that helps support the weightloss and physical wellbeing of kids, young adults and their parents. yet she is barely able to get me to get off my arse from in front of the tv and stand up to lay the table for dinner. i would rather not eat dinner than do that most of the time to be honest. my eating isn't usually that much of a problem. it's my lack of exercise. though portion size is a big deal to, as for some reason, even if i don't eat for 6 days, a normal sized bowl of pasta won't fill my stomach, even though it must have shrunk...right? i don't know. all i know is, i've tried to lose weight for purely the wrong reasons and in completely the wrong way in the past, and i don't want to continue.
one thing i must say is, i love fasting. i can go very long periods of time without feeling physically hungry, and if i'm asleep/at work/busy, i can even get through that without noticing. i have fasted for 6 days before (it may not seem much, but hiding that from your parents [i still live at home] is difficult) and that was, i'd say, pretty easy. i lost over a stone in those 6 days, but you know what.. it took very little time to put it back on again. i need a change of lifestyle, and one of the biggest components has to be exercise!
my plan is simple. i will eat 1000calories or less per day and i will match that with exercise, so i basically burn whatever i've eaten that day and my body can take care of the rest. as i'm on my feet for 12 hours a day when at work, and it's physically impossible to go to the gym after that, i will keep the pool and gym for days off, but i'll definitely be making up for it. it's not too hard, as most of the exercise i enjoy doing is cardio and quite intense (once i've actually got off my arse and in the gym) and i usually work the whole of my body with different exercises, and if i haven't then i go swimming anyway, which exercises the rest. i hope to find a happy medium through adjusting and getting used to my new healthy lifestyle, that will eventually allow me to drop the pounds easily and consistently until i've reached my goal weight (or until i feel comfortable and healthy).
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