LillyTame's Diary

LillyTame

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Wow, I've been gone a looooong time. Over a year. I had forgotten that at one point I weighed 224lbs and had gotten down to 201! Uh, why the h--- did I leave? lol :iamwithstupid:

Well, I left because things had started to get a little tense around here, I wont go into details but I hope things have calmed down. "Tough" love is ok for some, but not everyone...I know....I was in the military...didn't like it then, not that into it now lol. Well, at least its about tact. You can go straight to the point without being a wad...IMO. :chillpill:

The other reason I left was because I found a site that had some tools that I found to be really helpful. I still think they are very helpful, I just haven't been consistant.

So why am I back. Well, first, I was just curious to see how things were coming here. I wanted to see what had changed, if anything (Hey, no new smilies?). Second, when I was here before I met some really cool people that could relate to how I was feeling and right now I think it would be great to have some more weight-loss-penpals.

So welcome back to ME! Best of luck to me and YOU!


A little about me:

I just moved to Hawaii (in March) from California. I LOOOOVE it so far. I'm on the Big Island so it's really laid back. Because of my move I'm doing the long distance relationship thing and it sucks. About 2 1/2 weeks ago I gave up beef and pork, so far its been a lot easier than I thought it would be. I did it to reduce my calorie intact and see how it would effect my digestive tract. Both my BF and BFF have given up pork and beef and swear it's a good move. I recently started Zumba and I love it but I've been sick over the last week so I haven't gotten ANY exercise in, but that's all over starting today, I'll be going for a walk after work.

So that's all I can think of that's relevant. See ya around :waving:
 
So much for getting started

Well, I was supposed to get started yesterday after a week of being sick, but it started to rain on my way home and of course I used that as my excuse to take my fat butt home and hope in the bed to watch some movies. :banghead: But I need to be honest with myself and honestly I just want to chill right now, plus I hate "starting" at the middle or the end of the week:nopity:. So my fresh start will begin Sunday.
 
208.2 vs. 209.4

On my official weigh-in day I was 208.2, but on Sunday and this morning I was 209.4, so which one do I go with? I would love to go with the 208.2, even though it's a measly 4oz less than my last weigh-in. But if the Sunday and Monday weights had of been less, I definetly would have gone with the lower amount. I can't have a double standard for my highs and lows, so I'll post my higher weight and keep my butt off the scale till my official weigh-in day.

My Week is starting off pretty decently, other than the weight increase. I got my Sunday walk in and I prepared plenty of fruit for the week. The challenge will be cooking myself meals and not eating out. Tonight is Zumba, can't wait. The instructor should have some new moves as she just got back from a convention. I hope my butt isnt too sore for Zumba, I fell down the stairs last night! It was very dark because apparently the lights over the stairs are out AND it was raining. So even though I was taking my time and holding on to the (wet) rail, I slid....my butt took the worse of the beating lol....thankful for my fat right about then lol.

And I didn't get to take Friday off like I thought I would...I ended up going out that night and we danced and danced, I'm sure I burned plenty calories.
 
Trying

It felt great to get back to Zumba yesterday. Now I just need to re-work on getting my water in and stretching in the morning, but that may have to wait a week or so because my butt and back are still sore from the fall. But I guess there are stretches I could do that don't have me sitting on the floor.

I'm having trouble coming up with lunch ideas. I haven't found a bread out here that I like yet so I can't bring sandwhiches, sounds weird I know. I can eat it toasted though, so I make sandwhiches with toast when I'm home. But I know there is more to lunch then sandwhiches and TV dinners.

I'm also having trouble getting really motivated. Sure I'm doing the basics, but I feel there is more I could be doing...I just dont have the motivation to push myself.
 
Lack of motivation but pushing on anyway

Why is it so hard to keep up the motivation?

Why is losing weight so hard?

Why is gaining weight so easy?

Why are all the "good" things so "bad" for you?

*sigh* I'll be starting over next week. The plan is to exercise at least 30min a day, at least 5 days a week. Count my calories, do stretching in the A.M. when I first wake up, walk during my lunch break, try harder to make my own lunch even if it means going home for lunch and drink at least 6 cups of water daily. Once I can maintain these habits for at least one full week, I'll add for challenges for myself.
 
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