lilie's diary :)

[lilie1]

Well. I feel like Bridget Jones! I guess this journey is about me trying to improve myself and not doing too well. I managed to lose 10 kg - from 75 to 65, which is the same as going from 165 to 143 pounds (my scale has both). I'm 170 cm (around 5'6 - 5'7) tall (grrr my sister is 5'11). But then my mum bought heaps of icecream and snacks for me so now I'm 150 pounds again. I don't want to lose the plot too much... Why won't she help me out? It makes me a little angry, especially when she lets my little sis eat heaps of junk and then people at school make comments to her about her weight. I don't want her to feel like how i did at school.

Today in class (I'm at med school) the tutor said examining the abdomen in thin people was easy and we were lucky to have so many thin people in our class to examine. He was looking at me and I could feel him thinking 'except you!'. Everyone else is really fit, which makes me feel like I stand out as the 'fat one'. I guess that's my motivation. I feel so guilty though. When I work out I feel like I should be studying. I hope to lose about another 5 kilos. So hopefully this will keep me on track.

 

[Omega]

It is a shame that you have put on some weight recently.

I notice that you have not added a weight ticker. If you did you would realise that at using your height as 5ft6 (the shorter one you give) and your weight as 150 (your weight since your recent gain) - you have a BMI of 24.2.

Since you are at Med School - I am sure that you must realise that 24.2 is nicely inside the "normal" range for BMI.

I am sure that your tutor would not be making a pointed commment - as you appear to have interpreted things. I suspect that you interpreted it that way because you are sensitive about your recent gain.

Maintain a healthy level of exercise and eat healthy snacks - leaving the ice-cream and other junk for those that wish to buy or indulge. Your lower weight will return and you will be generally healthier for giving the junk a miss!

You will also show your sister that you do not have to eat junk - just because it is there. Ultimately we put the food into our own mouths.

 

[lilie1]

wow. that was some really kind and helpful advice. thanks! Today I think I did pretty well. I ate my normal meals and for a snack had some yoghurt and crackers. I also walked to uni even though it was a bit rainy and cold - its easy to think of an excuse so I'm glad I did. I do feel a lot happier after I've been walking/exercising. I

also find it helps to dress up. When I put on some earrings and sparkly rings I feel like taking care of myself more. I love buying cheap jewellery and there seem to be heaps of places selling accessories recently. Its the same with make-up; this morning I put on foundation, mascara, eyeshadow, lipstick ... even though I usually don't wear anything. And then its nice when people compliment you. Maybe I should get my nails done too

 

[Omega]

Hi Lilie

Well done for opting for the healthy snacks and for walking. Quite aside from the weight management side of things - healthy snacks are so much better for the skin than junk food. The skin also benefits if you drink sufficient water. Try drinking 1 ounce of water for every two pounds of your weight - that would be about 75 ounces water per day. Walking is tremendous exercise. I walk lots every day - and you will see that I have lost tons of weight that way. If you get into the habit of doing lots of walking - I am sure that it will keep you at the weight that you aspire towards.

It is great that you are putting effort into your appearance and getting lots of compliments too. I often think that some nice perfume cheers me up and makes me feel nice. If you are happy you are more likely to smile. My husband assures me that a genuinely happy person is always more attractive and more likely to stand out from the crowd.

Keep up the good work.

Take care
Love
Margaret