LaLaLucky
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My name is Jennifer, or LaLa, or Lucky, or whatever else you wanna call me. (ANYTHING but Jenny. You call me Jenny you'll lose weight real fast due to decomposition) I'm going to go ahead and toss out the whole back-story so that I at least have a reference point if anyone has a question I end up answering 50 times. 
I remember feeling fat for the first time in 4th grade, and at that time I was by no means fat. But I've been conscious of my weight ever since. When I was little I played outside all the time, but as I got older and had to participate in gym, I got to disliking pretty much anything to do with physical activity. I guess I was always relatively slender, I just felt fat.
I failed gym my sophomore year in high school by refusing to participate whenever we played any kind of high-energy game, which was pretty much half the time. Go figure. So for my junior year I was given the option to participate in Advanced P.E., which was basically weight-lifting. We would go to the weight room 3 days a week and do other activities for the other two days.
Since there was only one other girl in the class besides me and we didn't always want to play basketball (which is what the boys usually did since most of them were on the basketball team), our teacher (the basketball coach coincidentally) let us walk the perimeter of the gym on the days we weren't lifting. Through that class I grew a love for weight-training, because it was in that class that I lost about 25 lbs, putting me at 130-ish and looking the best I could remember looking. My confidence was sky high, I felt great physically and mentally, I was just on top of the world.
Then summer hit. I let my emotions control me. When I stress I overeat. That summer I was worried I might be pregnant, so I stressed, so I overate. Then I saw my slightly bigger tummy in the mirror, which made me worry even more that I might be pregnant, so I ate more. By the end of my senior year I had gained back what I'd lost the year before plus 5 lbs.
I've escalated ever since and my peak was at 180 earlier this year. I lost 8 lbs from eating Lean Cuisine meals and cutting out all junk food and pop from my diet, only drinking water and occasionally juice or milk, but then I moved out of my mom's and packed back on a couple pounds just from going back on junk food and pop.
So here I am.
I don't know why it took me so long to look for such a place as this where I can connect with others like me, but I'm here now. I felt like I couldn't talk to my family about it because they're all fatter than me, and I couldn't talk to my fiance's family about it because they're all skinnier than me. And my poor fiance, I've complained so much to him and he thinks I'm crazy because he loves my body, but he doesn't understand that his opinion on the matter only means so much.
My goal is to get back down to where I was before, when I first started dating him (in high school!), my amazing 135. When I was in school it only took me about 6 months to lose what I lost, and technically less than that because we slacked off big time during basketball season and the end of the year. If I work my ass off I could probably get down to my goal weight by the end of the year, maybe a little bit longer. I don't want my New Year's resolution to be to lose weight next year.
So I bought a workout ball and some weights a couple of weeks ago, but I've been having motivational issues. I always seem to have motivational issues lol. But just being on this site tonight made me work out a little while ago. The competition will help I think... Plus the fact that I got back some pictures from my fiance's graduation last week and 1) I look horrible and 2) his sister-in-law is starting to slip which is encouraging to lose weight and rub it in the skinny goat's face!
i mean... haha...
So yeah... I can't wait to meet a bunch of other people looking to lose weight. If anyone is around 5'9" - 175 lbs or trying to lose 40 lbs, I'm always up for a little friendly competition to stay on track.
BTW: sorry this was so long to those who were willing to stick it out all the way
I remember feeling fat for the first time in 4th grade, and at that time I was by no means fat. But I've been conscious of my weight ever since. When I was little I played outside all the time, but as I got older and had to participate in gym, I got to disliking pretty much anything to do with physical activity. I guess I was always relatively slender, I just felt fat.
I failed gym my sophomore year in high school by refusing to participate whenever we played any kind of high-energy game, which was pretty much half the time. Go figure. So for my junior year I was given the option to participate in Advanced P.E., which was basically weight-lifting. We would go to the weight room 3 days a week and do other activities for the other two days.
Since there was only one other girl in the class besides me and we didn't always want to play basketball (which is what the boys usually did since most of them were on the basketball team), our teacher (the basketball coach coincidentally) let us walk the perimeter of the gym on the days we weren't lifting. Through that class I grew a love for weight-training, because it was in that class that I lost about 25 lbs, putting me at 130-ish and looking the best I could remember looking. My confidence was sky high, I felt great physically and mentally, I was just on top of the world.
Then summer hit. I let my emotions control me. When I stress I overeat. That summer I was worried I might be pregnant, so I stressed, so I overate. Then I saw my slightly bigger tummy in the mirror, which made me worry even more that I might be pregnant, so I ate more. By the end of my senior year I had gained back what I'd lost the year before plus 5 lbs.
I've escalated ever since and my peak was at 180 earlier this year. I lost 8 lbs from eating Lean Cuisine meals and cutting out all junk food and pop from my diet, only drinking water and occasionally juice or milk, but then I moved out of my mom's and packed back on a couple pounds just from going back on junk food and pop.
So here I am.
I don't know why it took me so long to look for such a place as this where I can connect with others like me, but I'm here now. I felt like I couldn't talk to my family about it because they're all fatter than me, and I couldn't talk to my fiance's family about it because they're all skinnier than me. And my poor fiance, I've complained so much to him and he thinks I'm crazy because he loves my body, but he doesn't understand that his opinion on the matter only means so much.
My goal is to get back down to where I was before, when I first started dating him (in high school!), my amazing 135. When I was in school it only took me about 6 months to lose what I lost, and technically less than that because we slacked off big time during basketball season and the end of the year. If I work my ass off I could probably get down to my goal weight by the end of the year, maybe a little bit longer. I don't want my New Year's resolution to be to lose weight next year.
So I bought a workout ball and some weights a couple of weeks ago, but I've been having motivational issues. I always seem to have motivational issues lol. But just being on this site tonight made me work out a little while ago. The competition will help I think... Plus the fact that I got back some pictures from my fiance's graduation last week and 1) I look horrible and 2) his sister-in-law is starting to slip which is encouraging to lose weight and rub it in the skinny goat's face!
i mean... haha...So yeah... I can't wait to meet a bunch of other people looking to lose weight. If anyone is around 5'9" - 175 lbs or trying to lose 40 lbs, I'm always up for a little friendly competition to stay on track.
BTW: sorry this was so long to those who were willing to stick it out all the way
until you get used to doing whatever it is that you need to do. mmm like for me start exercising seriously...in order to reach my goal
