Kyle's Diary

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Greetings. I am 30, and I recently reached my record high weight around 280 lbs. I have been stuck around this weight for the past 6 months or so. I have been biking 10 miles per day as my way to get to work and back. I thought the biking alone would make me lose weight, but it didn't. So I started skipping breakfast and not eating sweets (cake, ice cream, candy, etc.). I had done this a few years earlier for about year, and it had worked for me. But after I got married I gave up the diet and my weight climbed back up. This time when I tried the diet again, I started losing weight initially, but when I went through a stressful time at work, I rebelled against my diet and went back up to about 280 lbs.. I tried counting calories on my phone, but I didn't see much progress with my weight loss. So I recently I tried getting back on the same diet again, but I had no willpower left and I kept rebelling against it.

A couple days ago I just broke down and started crying. I had so much desire to lose weight. I had been overweight almost all of my life, and I wanted to change my life for the better and long-term. The problem was that I didn't have any knowhow or guidance about how to eat healthy, which made it seem impossible to make any progress. In the middle of my cry, I started searching online for some books about weight loss. Amazon had Dr. Phil's 20/20 Diet book, and I read the sample. Reading the sample made me cry even more because it described exactly what I have been going through. It said that I can only do this when I am truly ready to make the change, and I knew then that I was ready. I immediately bought the audiobook for $15. One of the points the book makes is that it can be very beneficial to join a weight loss forum, like this one, which is why I joined this website. As I write I see that just keeping a journal clears things up a lot.

Two days before I started the diet, I weighed 277. The morning of the second day of the diet (today), I weighed 272! 5 lbs. in 2 day! I was shocked because I had been struggling to lose weight for a while, and 272 was about the lowest I had been able to get. In retrospect, I think the sudden drop in weight is due to the cleansing function, which is part of the first 5 days of the diet. But who cares? 5 lbs. is 5 lbs.! I did it!

The thing I like about this diet is that it is designed to keep people from rebelling and giving up. The book says that the only way to lose weight and keep it off is to make lifestyle changes, and that is why the diet tries to incorporate skills that can be maintained for the rest of one's life. I believe in myself, and I believe in this diet program. But I know there will be times when I need moral support. So I hope that I can make some friends on this forum and we can help each other on our quests for healthier lives.

Sorry for the long intro!

Kyle
 
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I lost 2.4 lbs. yesterday. I am down to 269.6 now. This is the lowest I have been since I moved to LA 6 months ago! I can tuck my dress shirt in! I have to give thanks to my wife who has been making my lunches and dinners according to my diet requirements.

Today, the Vice President is visiting from HQ and he wants to take everyone out to lunch. But I don't want to go with them because I need to eat my special lunch. I told my wife about it, and she recommended going out to lunch with the VP because not going might look bad. I told her that the VP is the most health-conscious person in our company and, if anybody would understand my position, it would be him. Now my manager is encouraging me to go out with them too. I feel bad because it seems like people think that going to lunch with them is more important than my diet. These are the same people who made "take better care of my health" their New Year resolution, by the way, despite the fact that they are all in much better shape than I am. I feel alone on this quest.
 
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I really thought I would get some more comments on this site. What did I do wrong? It's okay.

As of this morning I was down to 266.4, which is about 10.6 lbs. less than when I started 5 days ago. For the first 5 days of this diet, the ingredients in the meals are tightly restricted. Today I started the second 5-day phase of the diet, and the food tastes so much better to me. I expect that my weight loss per day will be less now since I am not eating the same foods as the first five days. But it is better this way because I don't think I could have gone on eating the kinds of foods I was eating in phase 1. They weren't bad overall, but just way too different than what I am used to eating.

I got some comments at church about my face looking leaner. I told one of my friends at church who is more overweight than I about my diet, and after seeing the results of phase 1, he showed some interest. But I am not going to push other people to do this because the diet recommends that I not start preaching to people about my diet. If they want to start the diet, I can recommend the book to them.
 
You didn't do anything wrong. Here's a word of advice though.... I've been on this forum for years, and the best way to get people to comment in your diary is to comment in theirs. A lot of people come on here and just post in their own diary and the ones they're used to posting on regularly. You just gotta throw yourself out there. Show some love and you'll get some in return. :) Awesome job on the weight loss so far. Good luck with phase 2 of your diet!
 
Thank you, Jen Renee. I see what you mean. I just have to jump in and get involved with other people. That seems like a good way to improve my own perspective. Thank you!

About my own current situation, I have encountered something interesting. Lately, I have been sleeping on a thin mattress on the floor with my son. But since I started losing some weight, I have lost some of the built-in cushion, without which the thin mattress is not comfortable enough for me to sleep on. I had to start sleeping in the bed. And my back is more sore than usual. Has anyone experience these symptoms?
 
Hey! You're doing great so far. Already down 10lbs?! Amazing work.
Interesting about your sleeping situation. I'm sure your wife will be glad to have you back in your bed.
 
5 lbs. is 5 lbs.! I did it!

That's exactly what I say to myself when I weigh myself before and after a big poop and see that I weigh less. :hurray:

But, seriously, signing up for the forum is a good thing. You'll find a lot of helpful advice and words of encouragement here. To get more people looking at and posting in your journal, you need to browse through other journals on the site and comment in theirs. There is a constant stream of new members here and it's honestly quite hard to keep track of everybody. So, make your rounds, post away in other journals and make yourself known - I can GUARANTEE you that more people will start chiming in on your journal.

Other than that, you seem to be off to a pretty good start. Keep it up, man. And, welcome to the forum.
 
Chef: That's pretty funny. Thank you for the welcome and encouragement. I have been reading other diaries today and commenting when appropriate. :bigear:
 
Hi Kyle, I signed up on this forum for a lot of the same reasons. I am sure this will help keep you going, but like you said "you" need to want to make the change, so really commit to yourself on this one! I had the same breakdown and kept sliding in and out of depression before I finally started my weight loss journey 4 weeks ago. Your doing great so far, keep taking it on one day at a time, one meal or exercise at a time if you need :)
 
NeedToLose30: Thank you so much for sharing! It's comforting to hear that someone else shares a similar experience to my own. This really is an one-meal-at-a-time battle. It takes energy and willpower to change my lifestyle, but the benefits go beyond my physical wellbeing. For example, I have started preparing a lot of my own meals and sometime share my food with my family, which my wife appreciates. I also have also been getting more involved in grocery shopping.

Today I really craved a coffee, which I have been able to stop drinking since I started my diet. One big piece of advice that I got from Dr. Phil's book is that it is good to ask myself Why am I craving this? Is it genuine hunger or is it another reason, such as emotions, social reasons, etc.? Since I did not feel sleepy, then I decided that the craving for coffee was an emotional one and I needed to satisfy that emotional need in another way. I ended up drinking a green tea instead, which is part of my diet.:drool5:
 
Kyle,
That's why I signed up too. I'm at my heaviest weight ever at 225 and I go to the gym regularly. I think that I'm doing enough but I'm not. I'm active and play two sports-volleyball and softball- once a week each plus going to the gym. I know at my age I should be a size two and wearing shorts that barely cover my butt, but I'm a 14 who doesn't even want to wear shorts half the time. Reading your post made me realize I'm not the only one. I feel like everyone feels alone or that they're the only one at some point. Or is that just me? Keep up the good work!! [emoji4]


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I m new too n am drinking green tea too regularly since starting Tuesday n I hope to replace my coffees with it.
LA is a lovely place... I was in Pasadena, n Venice a couple of weeks. love the weather there!
 
As of this morning I was down to 266.4, which is about 10.6 lbs. less than when I started 5 days ago.

That's amazing!! Well done :) keep it up! I fully understand the coffee cravings; I used to buy one every morning before work.. it's been tough without it but water and green tea carried me through! Plus the £3.50 I used to spend on a coffee every morning I've been putting in a jar .. I've accumulated £40 in two weeks just by giving up coffee.. not bad if I do say so myself. Anyway sorry to ramble. Good Luck!! :)
 
Hi, I know the feeling of getting so frustrated that the weight just isn't coming off that you need to just cry. At least you have your wife whose willing to make all your healthy stuff for you and whatnot. I don't want to tell my own family I'm doing it because it feels like they just crowd me with "what have you eaten today?" And "you should exercise" and it gets to be too much.

I personally joined so that I could show my progress without inviting the well meaning, but smothering "how's your diet going". Lol. So as such! Good luck, don't give up and do your best!
 
Love that you've been doing your research on all of this and good to see you passing on the knowledge to others! I started out a bit more than you so I can relate to you easily. You've got your mind in the right place and that (to me) is the biggest aspect of all of this. Great that you're getting more involved with the shopping too. That goes a long way. Keep it up, it'll be a heck of a journey.
 
Wow! Sorry I was not able to come to the site the last few days. So many delicious comments! Thank you!

Reading your post made me realize I'm not the only one. I feel like everyone feels alone or that they're the only one at some point. Or is that just me?

Amanda: Thank you for saying that you gained something from my post. I didn't expect such a great compliment, and it's very rewarding!

Jubilee & Tory: I have to admit, I did have a coffee yesterday. I didn't have a chance to eat my brekky due a bad canker sore. That missed meal and the delicious smell from my co-worker's coffee made a coffee seem like just the right thing. But today, when I wanted one again, I asked myself if I wanted it for physical needs or just for the pleasure of drinking it. I got a green tea instead.

I personally joined so that I could show my progress without inviting the well meaning, but smothering "how's your diet going". Lol. So as such! Good luck, don't give up and do your best!

Paladin-Cleric: Thank you for your post. It's just the reverse with me. A lot of the people in my community are obsessed with being skinny. So they were already giving me unwelcomed advice about weight loss before I even started dieting. So I am not afraid to tell them about my diet. It may even encourage them to leave me alone about it. By the way, what a username! It reminds me of DDO, and that happens to be one of my favorite classes too!

Love that you've been doing your research on all of this and good to see you passing on the knowledge to others! I started out a bit more than you so I can relate to you easily.

Dudeitstime: Thank you for your message. It's nice to hear that you started off near the same weight as me. I am tempted to use you as a point of comparison with myself. As for helping others, I get so much unwelcomed advice about my weight from my community that I have learned to be careful what I say to others about their weight. Last Saturday I went to dinner with my friend who is overweight, and he happened to be feeling sick that night. He gave me such a strong impression of bad health that I wanted to show him my concern and give him some advice about weight loss, but I stopped myself because I didn't want to be rude. At the end of the night he brought up the issue to me! I was tempted to give a testimonial about how I started my weight loss quest, but something inside me told me not to. So I just recommended the book that I had read, Dr. Phil's 20/20 Diet. He said he will listen to the audiobook!

As of this morning, my weight was at 262.8, which is about 14 lbs. less than when I started. I have slacked a little on my diet the past 2 days because I developed a painful canker sore on my tongue which made it hard to eat my diet food. I asked my wife to make Rice Pooridge, which is much easier to eat, but not part of my diet. Once the canker sore gets better I will try to get back to my diet. This morning I did some research on canker sores, and I think that the one I have is a symptom of dry mouth. For two days before my canker sore, my mouth was unusually dry. I think I got dry mouth from being dehydrated. My diet recommends drinking more water, but I didn't follow it and just drank when I was thirsty. But I think that I am less thirsty because I eat less salty food, which resulted in my drinking less than before my diet. I am going to try to drink more water from now on.

This is the first forum that I have ever actively done, and it is going pretty well for me. The confidence spilled over and I decided to join another forum for a different part of my life that I would like to improve. Thank you!
 
Hi Kyle, I'm sorry that I missed your diary until now. I spend a lot of time reading diaries & try to keep up, but somehow you slipped through my radar. 14lbs down already is great. Drinking more water makes you feel much better as leaving it until you're thirsty is way too late. It's good that your wife is providing the support that we all need. When I first started losing weight I wanted to tell everyone, but did the same as you & came into the forum. We don't judge & you can say what you want. I'm glad your confidence is building. Writing a journal is very therapeutic. Cheers, Cate.
 
Cate: Thank you for the warm welcome. I agree that writing a diary is therapeutic. I feel so much more positive about my diet than if I were just keeping it all to myself.
 
Green tea is so yummy actually i don't crave coffee as much. Good on you for sticking to the right choice! hope you recover from that sore fast!
 
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