I've seen these diaries on here before and I thought I'd finally sign up and give making one of my own a go!
So some background...
I'm 22 and I've felt insecure about my weight since I was 13. I weighed around 130/140 until I began going to school online to avoid bullying and my weight went up to 160. I lost a bunch when I was 19 and then promptly put it all back on as soon as I stopped working out. I now weigh more than ever and it makes me feel awful, both emotionally and physically.
I struggle with Depression which makes it hard for me to stay motivated and eat right but I'm determined to stick with it. So my goal now is to simply run as much as I can. Right now, that isn't a lot but I want to increase the amount of time I can run before I get sore and have to walk. The problem I am experiencing is pain in the fronts of my legs, a sort of cramping that can get so bad that I can barely bring myself to take another step. I'm not sure what that's all about, if it's because I'm out of shape or if I'm hurting myself. =/
I also want to eat healthier and I've actually taken steps towards doing so. I drink water more often now and I've had maybe two bottles of soda in the past week.
I get bored easily so I have a myriad of options to try to keep me busy including a yoga mat, Wii games, workout games and DvDs, and a gym nearby and yet I still get distracted and bored a lot. So now I'm going to attempt to post here as often as I can to try to make myself stick with it. The idea is that maybe if I post every day, I'll feel bad for skipping a day because people will see that I skipped. >.<
So now I am going to attempt to jog a bit and then do some other things if I get bored. Hopefully I won't...
So some background...
I'm 22 and I've felt insecure about my weight since I was 13. I weighed around 130/140 until I began going to school online to avoid bullying and my weight went up to 160. I lost a bunch when I was 19 and then promptly put it all back on as soon as I stopped working out. I now weigh more than ever and it makes me feel awful, both emotionally and physically.
I struggle with Depression which makes it hard for me to stay motivated and eat right but I'm determined to stick with it. So my goal now is to simply run as much as I can. Right now, that isn't a lot but I want to increase the amount of time I can run before I get sore and have to walk. The problem I am experiencing is pain in the fronts of my legs, a sort of cramping that can get so bad that I can barely bring myself to take another step. I'm not sure what that's all about, if it's because I'm out of shape or if I'm hurting myself. =/
I also want to eat healthier and I've actually taken steps towards doing so. I drink water more often now and I've had maybe two bottles of soda in the past week.
I get bored easily so I have a myriad of options to try to keep me busy including a yoga mat, Wii games, workout games and DvDs, and a gym nearby and yet I still get distracted and bored a lot. So now I'm going to attempt to post here as often as I can to try to make myself stick with it. The idea is that maybe if I post every day, I'll feel bad for skipping a day because people will see that I skipped. >.<
So now I am going to attempt to jog a bit and then do some other things if I get bored. Hopefully I won't...
