Katie's first Diary entry!!!

KatieJewell

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Katie's Diary!!!

so here it goes. Im a pretty reserved person, i dont express my feelings very well and so i dont usually have much luck writing an interesting diary. I appologize in advance if anyone reads this. : )

It's about day 4 of me trying to exercise like a real person, my regime usually flops after a week. I never get past the achey part.
Ive been aiming to ride my bike atleast twice a day for 20-30 minutes at a time. I take my dog along who absoltely loves it, why wouldnt he, hes a 16month old siberian husky, bred to run his butt off. I live in California, right now its too hot at certain parts of the day to take a poor doggy running so i go at 6.30/7AM and again at 9pm. The last two nights my husband has joined us, so now he rides the bike and i rollerblade. I actually prefer this slightly because i feel like im getting a better workout, and most of the weight i have gained is all on my hips im hoping rollerblading will take care of that....

I didnt eat well today at all! I really want to lead a healthy life and eat properly, no diets. I was just exhaused today and didnt want to eat. I dont think its physical exhaustion tho, more getting tired of having to think about what to eat all the time, i think im way to obsessed. I will do better tomorrow.

Breakfast: 2 frozen waffles with a little syrup (not what i normally have, i was tired and didnt do as i should)
Lunch: Turkey sandwich with lettuce, Grapes
Dinner: Chicken and a baked potato. (potato was a bad idea, i felt like crap after eating it, and ive been staying away from such carbs for my skin aswell as my weight)
No snacks. Big mistake
I wasnt kidding when i said i ate bad. this is not what ive been eating the last few weeks, just lazy today. Please dont judge :S
Exercise: 30mins on bike (legs felt good, alot stronger everyday) about 20mins rollerblading (kicked my ass as always but so much fun)

I am going to weigh myself tomorrow for the first time in 3 weeks or so, i hate weighing myself because i never know how its going to make me feel. *Fingers crossed*

I'll check in tomorrow,

Katie
 
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I felt so much better today, but I didnt work out which is stupid of me.
I weighed myself and theres been no change on the scale, i thought i felt different in my clothes so it concerned me a little that im just imagining it. I had a minor vent at work and a girl i work with told me i look slimmer from behind, which is music to my ears. I cant wait till i dont have these stupid rolls on my back.

I constantly think about my weight and body, i could be staring into space but still in the back of my mind im hoping people arent talking about me.
Its something that i feel is ruining my life. I dont have fun when im out with my friends because i dont want to draw attention to myself, im so worried about what people who dont even matter (strangers) think. I dont let myself wear the clothes i want incase people think i look rediculous because im overweight...
This is the biggest thing other than my weight i need to correct. My self image and confidence, I know it just what be fixed when i lose 50lbs.
Afew nights ago as i was falling asleep i had a frightening tought "what if i lose all the weight and still dont feel happy", then what? i have nothing else to blame the way i am on and will be miserable forever.

hmm gtg, i will add more about this tomorrow
 
I weighed myself again this morning. I didnt believe i stayed the same, i feel slimmer. The wii says i gained 1.1lbs since i used it last, which was about 3 weeks ago. I didnt really react, just got off and said "oh". Im not going to jump ship and start another type of diet, im going to stick this one out a little while.

I blame myself, i drank a little on monday and tuesday, i new i shouldnt be drinking because of the calories but i really wanted to. Monday i had, 2 tall glasses of malibu and sprite, 2 lemon vodka shots, 2 peach and some kind of juice shots there was another something but i forgot. not to mention the fries i stole off my husbands plate.
Speaking of my husband, hes lost about 20lbs the last 4months just by "eating less". Im so happy for him i wish i could drop weight like that.

Im going to keep doing what im doing, it should work. I really want to buy some weights, i dont care if the scale doesnt move aslong as i lose FAT!
Anyone whos reading this know what my first weights should be and some exercises i shoudl try that would show results?
 
Hi there!
You are in a hard spot right now, because I think you do want to lose weight - but just not enough yet to actually totally commit to it. Once you can get your head into that space, THERE WILL BE NOTHING THAT CAN STOP YOU!

1. Develop a nutrition plan that you can stick to.
2. Develop a realistic exercise plan that will challenge you.
3. JUST DO IT!

If I can do this (and I have)...so can you! Go for it!:auto:
ABBA
 
Hey welcome to the forum!
Abbagirl hit it spot on. The beginning is always the hardest but once you really start noticing some changes there will be nothing that can stop you :)
Best of luck and most importantly....keep going!
 
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