Kaitlin's Diary

Onix

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Hi everyone,

I’m planning on losing 25 to 30lbs. One of the main reasons for my goal is curiosity; I want to know what I will look like at 130lbs. I also want to discover an exercise method that I will use for life, and put an end to my life-long obsession with my weight (I have never been thin).
According to website, it will take me approximately 4 months to reach my goal. That is, if I lose 1.8lbs per week. When I consider the big picture, 4 months is a very, very short period of time. Therefore, I am inspired to lose the weight.
Despite the fact that I realize this, I am not very diligent when it comes to weight loss. I eat when I am not hungry, when I am bored, and whenever I have cravings. It also doesn’t help that I still live with a parent who buys high-fatty and sugary foods and leaves them where I can find them even when I explicitly tell her to stop doing so. Just today I found a brand new pumpkin pie in the fridge. This wouldn’t be such a problem if someone else in the house would eat it instead. But no, my mom can’t eat it because she has digestive problems and my dad won’t eat it because he hates pumpkin pie. I hate it when money and food goes to waste. Restaurants also pose a problem because I treat them as special places (we don’t eat out often, and I like the food more than home cooking) where I can eat whatever I want. My tendency to procrastinate is my fatal flaw. This is because I keep telling myself things like, “I will order this high-fatty food today, but the next time I will order a salad”, and “This is the last milkshake that I will ever have” and never follow through.
Aside from the fact that she buys me foods that I ask her not to, my mother also doesn’t want me to lose too much weight. Whenever I tell her that I want to be 130lbs or 125lbs, she says that that’s, “way too small” and tells me that 145 to 140lbs is small enough. This infuriates me. It’s probably also why she does things in order to prevent me from losing the weight (like buying the foods that she does).
In order to tame my bad eating habits, I am going to write down everything that I eat for the next few weeks. Then, I am going to gradually limit my intake of sweets starting with one per day then progressing to one per week, one per month, etc. until I have stopped eating them altogether. I will also have large glasses of water followed by small meals in order to get the ‘full’ sensation. I’m also going to get rid of my pet peeve of wasting junk food.
Exercise wise, I have started walking 4miles per week. I also plan on signing up for Capoeira classes in December and practicing contortion. Eventually, I would like to get into breakdancing.

I would like to reach my goals within one to two years.

Height: 5’8”
SW: 155-160lbs
GW: 130-125lbs
 
Days: 1, 2, 3, & 4

Day 1: 2051 cal.
Day 2: 2507 cal.
Day 3: 1780 cal.
Day 4: 1541 cal.

It's clear to me now that my calorie consumption is more irregular than I thought it was. This is becuase I thought that I consumed around 1800cals daily. Ideally, I would like to get down to 1220 calories per day.
 
Hey kaitlin! 4 months does pass by real quickly. I know it is hard to stop cravings, specially when you've been eating it for years. For me, i substitute the junk food i used to eat with salad and fruits. Also i replaced pop and juice with water. By doing that alone, you could see a difference in your health and your body. Imagine what would happen if you mix in a little bit of exercise! When i started a week ago, I never counted the amount of calories I've eaten. But what I did was portion my food to little snacks instead of 3 big meals each day. Everyday, I would look at myself in the mirror and see if there are any difference. At first i didn't see anything, but as i kept eating the right stuff and exercise, I saw it! I felt happy and more energetic just seeing something change! All i have to say is, make a goal, start right away, take it slow, and things will change if you make a change.
 
Hi Kaitlin,
Welcome to the forum. You have a nice plan set out for yourself and you will be able to do this if you start out strong. In the beginning, you should try avoiding all the junk foods you can - but don't deprive yourself of them and sometimes you can give in to your cravings as long as you don't indulge. I started out at 155 and my current goal is 135, but after I meet that goal I'd like to get to 125-130. So I noticed that we are in similar situations (but you are 3 inches taller than me, so you probably look way better at 155 than I did!) I have been regularly exercising, counting calories, and eating healthy for almost 3 months now and have lost about 17 pounds so this is VERY doable! You should make sure that you are getting the right amount of calories for your body type though. You should be eating around 1,600 to safely lose weight. You can get the exact number by going to the homepage (fitness.com) and if you scroll to the bottom on the left side of the page you will see a box that has to calculators - a BMI calculator and BMR. If you click the BMR, it will have you enter your weight, height, and age, and will calculate the number of calories you should be consuming. The amount will get smaller as you lose weight, but for now 1,200 is the MINIMUM you should be having. If you go under, your body will go into starvation mode and store whatever it can and you won't lose weight this way.

Sorry this was a little long... but if you need any advise or someone to talk to, feel free to stop by my journal!
http://weight-loss.fitness.com/weight-loss-diary/35004-inspired-motivated-ready.html

I will check back on you to see how you are doing :D
Take care!
~ Sarah

 
Thanks for the support guys :)

fitness.com BMR: 1576.60
hpathy.com BMR: 1569.13

So, the BMR calculations are approximately the same. I could lose 1 pound per week by consuming 1657.55cals per day and lose 16 pounds in 4 months, thus reaching my goal in 7 to 8 months instead of 4.
I noticed on day 4 that if I didn’t consume two things (1 slice of pie: 280cal. and 1 cup of milk: 150cal.) I would have only consumed 1111cals. While this is too low it made me realize that ditching junk food (the milk isn’t that bad, but I already had another cup) makes a huge difference. The ridiculous thing about the slice was that it was big enough to fit in the palm of your hand (1/4 of M&M’s 7” too deep pumpkin pie). The oatmeal raisin cookies I have also been consuming are quite small and have an explosive calorie count at 190cal. per cookie.
I started toprocking today and realized that it’s a lot more intense than I thought it was. For anyone who doesn’t know what toprocking is it’s a breakdance move which involves stepping to the beat of music. One variation that I practiced today looks like (my attempt was no where near as good btw). And it made me break out in a heavy sweat within 30 seconds of practice. To give you an idea of how intense this was for me, I usually break out in a sweat after 5mins of jogging (and I hardly ever jog!).
 
Unfortunately, I haven’t lost any weight since my last post (it fluctuates between 150 and 160lbs). Since I have been slacking off quite a bit, I’m thinking of reducing my time frame to June 2010. I said that in four months I could lose approximately 30lbs if I lose 1.8lbs a week, so this might work, if I get my act together that is.
I’ve noticed that the ultimatums I have given myself aren’t working. Telling myself that I will never eat junk food again doesn’t really seem to work. I was thinking about limiting myself to one treat per week, then one per two weeks, then one per month, then one per two months, etc. Until I get to one treat per year. I don’t think that I will ever stop eating junk food permanently, because I’m a little bit hedonistic by nature, but I can limit the intake.
I’m still in capoeira, I’m only taking one class per week, and I practice when I can, but the weight is still staying on because of what I am eating. I was reading that people’s bodies like to stay at a certain weight; therefore I believe that I am eating like a pig because my body wants to gain back the calories that it is losing from exercise.
I stopped recording my caloric intake due to forgetfulness and inconvenience, that’s why I stopped posting. It’s also a bit difficult to determine the calories of some foods. I’m going to start recording what I am eating again as well as the calories. Hopefully, I will stay on track this time.
 
Last summer I started taking Risperidal for some psychotic issues I was having. Since September, I've managed to gain approximately 32lbs and was switched to Abilify (which is supposedly weight neutral) in order to lose the weight. Unfortunately, I've read that people actually gain weight on Abilify and that it is hard to lose the weight. Fortunately, I've also read that some people have lost some weight on Abilify by taking the low-carb/high protein approach to dieting so that's what I plan on doing. My goal is now to get back to my 150lb weight. I've been on a ProEnergy diet, but am switching to Atkins within the next few weeks...

Height: 5',8"

SW: 182lbs
CW: 178lbs
GW: 145-150lbs
 
Welcome back Onix.
I just wanted to comment in on a couple things that seem to work for me in the past.
I do agree with you on the calorie counting..... IT SUCKS..... I have always had a hard time counting calories so I don't even try anymore. So I concentrate more on portion control. A lot of times its not what you eat as much as it is how you eat. Setting limits is the best way I have discovered to help. Limiting my intake per setting and spreading out meals and snacks. It takes time to get used to but in the long run you will benefit from it. Something I do is I try to eat as much fruit as I can. It really helps curve the craving for junk. On a daily basis I eat at least an apple, banana, grapefruit and blueberries. Also drink plenty of water.
As for you setting a date to reach your goal. truthfully in my mind you are setting yourself up for failure. I don't say this to be mean. I say this from past experience. Every time I set a goal date I have failed, and it really upset me. It made me feel so much like a failure I would fall back into my old ways and gain my weight back. So now I have changed my way of thinking and concentrate solely on just meeting my goal weight no matter how long it take. That way I can continue to work and see improvements without worrying about if I'm going to reach it by a certain date.

Well I wish the best for you and hope your reach your goals. I'll be coming by and checking on you periodically so you better be posting up...

Good luck.
 
Thanks GGH. At the moment I'm not really setting a goal date like I was before, I just want to be able to fit into my old jeans again. I'm going to gradually reintroduce fruits over time due to the diet I'm on (I'm following the diet plan in the Atkins Made Easy to the letter) so at the moment I'm not eating any.

SW: 182lbs
CW: 174lbs
GW: 145-150lbs
 
A belated welcome back Onix! You've had nice success so far. Do you have an exercise regimen or one planned? Regular exercise has really helped my mental and physical wellbeing. I look forward to seeing your successes!
 
Thanks Quercus. I do whole body workouts on Mondays, upper body on Wednesdays, and lower body on Fridays. Every other day I do cardio for 20 mins, except on Saturdays where I do yoga for an hour.
 
Nice! That's a really good well rounded regimen. I enjoy yoga, but I haven't made time for it lately.
 
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