I'm starting this a little later...almost 2 months late but I have my reasons which I will get to in a bit. For now though, I've decided to try out weight watchers, again. By again I mean I went there once last year and didn't even go back the first meeting. I guess I was just really discouraged. I'd never been 200 lbs before.
I tipped the scale at 205.6 lbs. That's a whole lot for a girl who is only 5"2'. To be honest, I didn't care for the longest time. But suddenly I had stretch marks all over my stomach and my sides and dark patches of skin everywhere. I could barely eat food because everything I chose to ate was greasy and horrible. I'd order a cheeseburger and large fries almost everyday. I guess my body was just not happy with me.
After a particular day of eating unhealthily, my stomach hurt so bad I could barely sit up right, and I broke out into a fever. I can remember just lying in bed feeling like I would die, and not because I was sick, but because I was obese.
For a month or so I kept thinking if I just had help, if I just had a little something to lean on I would do it. I'm only 20 years old. I can't keep feeling like I'm about to die.
My cousin lost more than 150 lbs in about 2 years. She looks great! I asked what she did, and she said weight watchers. So, after scaring myself into thinking, no, KNOWING I would die if I didn't change my bad habits I went to weight watchers. I gotta say, I haven't felt this good in awhile. 16.6 lbs down. Do you know how much losing 5lbs does for a person my height? It feels amazing.
WW has become second nature so far. I think it's because I've been only eating things I WANT to eat. My "burger" is now a multi grain english muffin, 3 egg whites, 1 slice nonfat american cheese, and 2 turkey sausage patties. I think I've become a master at tricking myself into thinking I'm eating something I've been craving. Like a burger! lol.
When I introduced myself to this forum, I couldn't come back til now. My family is going through a loss and everything has been really stressful, but I feel like I finally know how to think, how to get through tough times. It's weird but you really have to look at the good. For instance, I never realized how lucky I am to have a family like mine. I know that's cliche-ish but...when I get more comfortable pouring out my feelings here you'll understand!
I think I might have rambled, and I sound really formal right now. I'll remind myself this is my diary sometime soon!
Can't wait to be part of this community!
-Justine
I tipped the scale at 205.6 lbs. That's a whole lot for a girl who is only 5"2'. To be honest, I didn't care for the longest time. But suddenly I had stretch marks all over my stomach and my sides and dark patches of skin everywhere. I could barely eat food because everything I chose to ate was greasy and horrible. I'd order a cheeseburger and large fries almost everyday. I guess my body was just not happy with me.
After a particular day of eating unhealthily, my stomach hurt so bad I could barely sit up right, and I broke out into a fever. I can remember just lying in bed feeling like I would die, and not because I was sick, but because I was obese.
For a month or so I kept thinking if I just had help, if I just had a little something to lean on I would do it. I'm only 20 years old. I can't keep feeling like I'm about to die.
My cousin lost more than 150 lbs in about 2 years. She looks great! I asked what she did, and she said weight watchers. So, after scaring myself into thinking, no, KNOWING I would die if I didn't change my bad habits I went to weight watchers. I gotta say, I haven't felt this good in awhile. 16.6 lbs down. Do you know how much losing 5lbs does for a person my height? It feels amazing.
WW has become second nature so far. I think it's because I've been only eating things I WANT to eat. My "burger" is now a multi grain english muffin, 3 egg whites, 1 slice nonfat american cheese, and 2 turkey sausage patties. I think I've become a master at tricking myself into thinking I'm eating something I've been craving. Like a burger! lol.
When I introduced myself to this forum, I couldn't come back til now. My family is going through a loss and everything has been really stressful, but I feel like I finally know how to think, how to get through tough times. It's weird but you really have to look at the good. For instance, I never realized how lucky I am to have a family like mine. I know that's cliche-ish but...when I get more comfortable pouring out my feelings here you'll understand!
I think I might have rambled, and I sound really formal right now. I'll remind myself this is my diary sometime soon!
Can't wait to be part of this community!
-Justine