Hello everyone,
I just joined this site for a little support that I'm not getting in real life, and to find like-minded people. I'll start by introducing myself, and telling you a little about me. I hope we can spend the next few months (almost 3 months ) helping each other out, and inspiring each other to do better.
I am Y, a 21 year old female with a current weight of 147 pounds (that's about 67 Kg, if I'm not mistaken. ) and height: 5'3. I am not an active person, the most I do in a regular day is go to school and come back, and well, walking from one class to another. That reminds me, I'm a Junior in college studying Mathematics and I suck at it. LOL
I enjoy eating a lot, I hate exercise in any form, even though I used to be so active when I was a child. I started to gain weight in high school, and by 16 I was way overweight for my own good, so I went on diets. Diet after Diet, failed attempts after failed attempts. I stopped at 17, let it all go, and basically exploded. I was over 175 pounds at my heaviest, at 18. This was right after my father passed away, from a very sudden heart attack. I'm not blaming things on life, but it did have an impact on how everything turned out. It still does!
So I developed an Eating disorder the summer after graduating high school when I saw a post of myself on Facebook - and I was the fattest person, out of the whole class of 2012. How I cried and cried and wanted to die... I turned that anger, and the anger I had over my dad's passing into a long lasting depression. I started self harming, not eating for days (going actually 4 days without eating anything but tea!!! ). I started smoking to lose weight. I had no energy to overexercise, but that was on my TO DO list... Until my mother had enough, and forced me to go to a doctor. With the help of a doctor, I went on a strict diet and managed to lose a great whole 30 pounds. I was still unhappy, though...
I stopped caring for about a whole year, and suddenly, on my 21st birthday - I realized that I would never have the time and energy to lose the weight I want. I only wanted to lose weight to look like that perfect "Kendall Jenner" body I had in mind. I now know that that is unrealistic, but what's so bad about wanting to look good? I'm so young, and I know with a few more pounds off of me, I will be happier and will feel more beautiful, and have more confident... and that will lead to a healthier mind, I would perhaps start liking myself and well, a healthier mind = healthier body. (Even though I'm overweight, I have no medical problems. Thankfully!)
Did I mention I like talking?!
... Yeah, not in real life though, I'm very shy. Online, my personality shines through! I'm nice, I'm funny, I'm always up for a good laugh, and I would like to see the best in people. (BUT!) For the time being, I guess I've shared what I mostly wanted to. In conclusion, I'm now on a diet to lose about 25 pounds before summer. I would like my last summer of freedom to be amazing, and that's a very good motivation!
I'm excited about it!
I just joined this site for a little support that I'm not getting in real life, and to find like-minded people. I'll start by introducing myself, and telling you a little about me. I hope we can spend the next few months (almost 3 months ) helping each other out, and inspiring each other to do better.
I am Y, a 21 year old female with a current weight of 147 pounds (that's about 67 Kg, if I'm not mistaken. ) and height: 5'3. I am not an active person, the most I do in a regular day is go to school and come back, and well, walking from one class to another. That reminds me, I'm a Junior in college studying Mathematics and I suck at it. LOL
I enjoy eating a lot, I hate exercise in any form, even though I used to be so active when I was a child. I started to gain weight in high school, and by 16 I was way overweight for my own good, so I went on diets. Diet after Diet, failed attempts after failed attempts. I stopped at 17, let it all go, and basically exploded. I was over 175 pounds at my heaviest, at 18. This was right after my father passed away, from a very sudden heart attack. I'm not blaming things on life, but it did have an impact on how everything turned out. It still does!
So I developed an Eating disorder the summer after graduating high school when I saw a post of myself on Facebook - and I was the fattest person, out of the whole class of 2012. How I cried and cried and wanted to die... I turned that anger, and the anger I had over my dad's passing into a long lasting depression. I started self harming, not eating for days (going actually 4 days without eating anything but tea!!! ). I started smoking to lose weight. I had no energy to overexercise, but that was on my TO DO list... Until my mother had enough, and forced me to go to a doctor. With the help of a doctor, I went on a strict diet and managed to lose a great whole 30 pounds. I was still unhappy, though...
I stopped caring for about a whole year, and suddenly, on my 21st birthday - I realized that I would never have the time and energy to lose the weight I want. I only wanted to lose weight to look like that perfect "Kendall Jenner" body I had in mind. I now know that that is unrealistic, but what's so bad about wanting to look good? I'm so young, and I know with a few more pounds off of me, I will be happier and will feel more beautiful, and have more confident... and that will lead to a healthier mind, I would perhaps start liking myself and well, a healthier mind = healthier body. (Even though I'm overweight, I have no medical problems. Thankfully!)
Did I mention I like talking?!
... Yeah, not in real life though, I'm very shy. Online, my personality shines through! I'm nice, I'm funny, I'm always up for a good laugh, and I would like to see the best in people. (BUT!) For the time being, I guess I've shared what I mostly wanted to. In conclusion, I'm now on a diet to lose about 25 pounds before summer. I would like my last summer of freedom to be amazing, and that's a very good motivation! I'm excited about it!
