JP's Journey to Wellness

jpsone

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I don't quite know how to begin...

I'm turning 18 on September 3rd, I'm 5'4", and based on what the scale said today, I weigh 201 lbs. In the past I used to weigh more (around 240) but I lost a lot of weight after giving up red meat and soda, and exercising often. I plan to lose weight like that again... I just have to be dedicated.



In other news...


It's 3AM on a Wednesday. I'm extremely hungry and also very tired and sore. My legs feel like jelly from playing DDR on difficult... but in a good way. I like the feeling. Having just started doing push-ups, my chest hurts a bit when I do them, so it worries me a bit... but that feeling will go away soon enough I think.

I also tried a bit of toprock today... just to see how well I could do it even though I'm still horridly overweight right now. I managed to do... okay... I guess. I'm not very coordinated. I checked out some freezes too and I realize I'm gonna need a lot of arm and core strength... I guess it's time to hit those push-ups and crunches.

Goal for now:
<200 lbs by July 15th
 
Sheesh. Been a while since I posted here. But I got sidetracked with some other business so I didn't really have the time to check in here.

Anyway, I met my first goal!

I currently weigh 198.8. Weighed myself this morning right after I ate lunch (woke up at noon, haha).

I wonder though, I've been doing a lot of exercise lately (flutter kicks, bicycle, bicycle crunches, weight lifting, etc), so I know I'm probably gaining muscle. If I wasn't gaining muscle mass, I wonder how much I would weigh if I was just weighing the amount of fat I'd lost?

Honestly I don't feel like I've lost much fat really. I mean, I can kind of see the muscles in my legs and arms now, but there's too much fat around it still for it to be really defined just yet. It's kind of like I can just see little hints that I'm building muscle, but not much else.

My legs especially are making me happy right now. I mean, my calves have always been pretty strong since I walked a ton even before I really got into exercising all the time, but now when I flex the muscle in my calves I can almost see definition there...

On my thighs, they're still not as great as my calves. It's weird, there's barely any fat on my calves compared to the rest of my body. But anyways, there's still a lot of fat on my thighs, especially UPPER thighs, but like when I lay down on my back ready to do bicycle crunches or flutter kicks, I can see the shape of my muscle starting to show...

I love seeing that, so sometimes I just lay there for a minute and stare at it rofl. Cause even just that little hint of muscle there allows me to kind of see what my legs will look like after I lose all the weight. It looks so healthy... so it gives me so much motivation just looking at it to keep up with my exercising.

Speaking of exercising, I realized I don't really keep track of how much exercise I do daily. Like I don't have a specific regimen for what I do, but I just do it.

Like, the other day, I rode bike for about 1 mile, and there are a lot of hills around here. My legs felt like jelly afterwards.
Then after I rested for a bit when I got home, I did some wall push-ups (still can't quite do regular ones on the floor just yet, but I think I have the right form down for wall ones now), and some curls with my weights. I did around 25 wall push-ups and two sets of 25~30 curls. But it's not that I have any specific amount set, I just keep going until I start feeling the burn in my muscles and then go a bit farther than that, since I've heard/read that going past your limits is what you should do when you work out if you want to build muscle.
Then I laid down and did my crunches and flutter kicks. Usually for those I do as many as I can before my back starts to hurt. I can usually manage about a set of 10 reps for the bicycle crunches (counting 1 rep as doing both legs and not just one) before my back starts complaining. So then I'll rest for maybe 15 or 20 seconds or so to give my back a bit of a break, and then I'll start doing flutter kicks. For those I usually count to 30 or 35 (~15 reps) since that's about when my back starts hurting for the most part. Then I rest again and repeat until my back gets too uncomfortable to continue or my ab muscles start spazzing a bit (like spasming and twitching and whatnot).

So I basically do that about every day at least once. Most times I do it more than once, but not all at the same time. I don't like exercising when other people are home, so if I ever get the excuse like to go to the bathroom or head for a trip upstairs, I do one or two of the exercises. Usually I make a point to do 25 wall push-ups whenever I go to the bathroom. There's just enough space in the downstairs bathroom to do it, and there's perfect privacy for it.

If I go upstairs, I might do some curls (my weights are in my room), or some flutter kicks or crunches, or today I tried doing some squats. I figure that it's good to exercise throughout the day even if it's just a little bit... you know, the more exercise the better right?

But I always make sure I do an extensive workout for at least 30 minutes right before I go to bed... I wonder if that's good or bad? I read that you're supposed to eat within 30 minutes of working out, but it's bad to eat before you go to bed too... Hmm... I'll have to do some research on that. Maybe there's a fruit with protein in it? Hahaha. Or maybe I'll just buy some peanuts and have a serving of those after working out... that's a good source of protein, right?

I'll check it out I suppose.

Anyway, new goal!

..<195!

Just 4 pounds to go!
 
So, I totally forgot this existed.

I got really busy last year with family issues and trying to find a job, and then when I actually did find a job, all my dieting and exercising just went down the drain. There was always just one more reason why I couldn't eat healthy, why I couldn't exercise that day.

Like, "Oh, I have a long shift today, I shouldn't go on a walk today because my feet will be killing me at work if I do..." Sadly, I could actually justify this - I have serious problems with over-pronation in my ankles that makes it extremely hard to be on my feet for extended periods of time, so I kind of tricked myself into believing that excuse was perfectly valid.

And then there was always, "I'm too lazy to pack my lunch today, I'll just make myself something to eat at work..." And when you work at Pizza Hut, NOTHING you could ever make yourself could possibly be healthy in any way, shape, or form.

It just all went downhill from there. I just kind of fell apart. It's just like they say, too... When you bounce back and gain weight again, you don't just gain the weight you lost, you gain that and SO much more. My highest weight at that time was like 215. According to what the scale said when I jumped on it last week, I officially have hit an all-time high of 235. I've NEVER been this big before, and it really makes me hate myself for letting it get this far.

I guess what really snapped me into focus was going through my photobucket earlier today. I saw a picture of myself back when I was at my thinnest - I'd say 180? - and I was astounded by how different I look now, how much bigger I am.

It's time to whip myself back into shape, this is getting ridiculous. So, therefore, here I am, back at this site like almost a year later... and getting my "journey" back on track. Here's to hoping it works this time. For good.
 
Welcome back and I hope that this time you will be successful. I have failed so many times in the past but this time seem to have it beaten so keep writing your diary here and ask for any help or advice and somebody will always come along with an answer.
Good luck
You CAN do it :)
 
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