tygersfire
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I started off this journey weighing in at 259, the heaviest that I have ever been. Not a good sight to see looking back at me on the scale. When I saw that number, I knew something had to change. I've been working on this for about a month now.
Its been a tough month too. I knew in my heart that my boyfriend at the time was cheating on me. I think thats one thing that has motivated me. I want to look damn good the next time he sees me. I want him to kick himself in the ass for cheating on me and losing me. Yes, I'm partially doing it for the wrong reason. It started off fully for the wrong reason. About a week into my diet, I found proof that he was cheating. Broke my heart. I couldn't eat or sleep for days. I'm usually an emotional eater too so it was rough. I replaced emotional eating with working out which I swore I detested.
Now...Now i still want to make him kick himself in the ass but I'm also doing it for me. I'm 24 years old. I've lost 18 pounds since I started a month ago and I'm so proud of myself. My knees have stopped hurting and I have more energy than ever before. Its an amazing feeling. The first couple weeks the weight fell off. Now its a little slower. 2 to 3 pounds a week. My family and friends say they can tell a difference. The guy I'm talking to now says I'm perfect the way I am. Silly boy. Don't get me wrong I like me the way I am. It took me a while to love myself but I finally do. I just feel so much better nowadays health wise. I don't get wore out from walking around for a while.
The hardest part about it is I get my cravings. I want horribly fattening stuff. I'm just a country girl who loves the biscuits and gravy and fried chicken. Its been a eye opener. I'm counting calories and walking 3 times a week. I never knew how fattening fast food really was. Didn't really care. Its crazy! I mean the "healthier" stuff is worse than the unhealthy stuff most of the time. That threw me for a loop. But I still long for horribly unhealthy stuff and I'm not used to saying no. I'm not used to actually sticking with a diet.
I'm rambling. Its a bad habit of mine, especially at 5 am when I'm waiting patiently for 7 to roll around, when I get off work.
Its been a tough month too. I knew in my heart that my boyfriend at the time was cheating on me. I think thats one thing that has motivated me. I want to look damn good the next time he sees me. I want him to kick himself in the ass for cheating on me and losing me. Yes, I'm partially doing it for the wrong reason. It started off fully for the wrong reason. About a week into my diet, I found proof that he was cheating. Broke my heart. I couldn't eat or sleep for days. I'm usually an emotional eater too so it was rough. I replaced emotional eating with working out which I swore I detested.
Now...Now i still want to make him kick himself in the ass but I'm also doing it for me. I'm 24 years old. I've lost 18 pounds since I started a month ago and I'm so proud of myself. My knees have stopped hurting and I have more energy than ever before. Its an amazing feeling. The first couple weeks the weight fell off. Now its a little slower. 2 to 3 pounds a week. My family and friends say they can tell a difference. The guy I'm talking to now says I'm perfect the way I am. Silly boy. Don't get me wrong I like me the way I am. It took me a while to love myself but I finally do. I just feel so much better nowadays health wise. I don't get wore out from walking around for a while.
The hardest part about it is I get my cravings. I want horribly fattening stuff. I'm just a country girl who loves the biscuits and gravy and fried chicken. Its been a eye opener. I'm counting calories and walking 3 times a week. I never knew how fattening fast food really was. Didn't really care. Its crazy! I mean the "healthier" stuff is worse than the unhealthy stuff most of the time. That threw me for a loop. But I still long for horribly unhealthy stuff and I'm not used to saying no. I'm not used to actually sticking with a diet.
I'm rambling. Its a bad habit of mine, especially at 5 am when I'm waiting patiently for 7 to roll around, when I get off work.