b.e.a.u.t.y
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Day 1
This diary comes far after the beginning of my healthy lifestlye change but better late than never. Today will be my first day back to exercising as i took last week off. Ive been having issues with my knees and hips lately so on thursday after i has a weigh in (my doc advs me i lost 16 lbs since the last time i seen her) yay for me !! She had advise me to try and take it easy instead of jogging taking walk etc. This was kind of a set back for me as im trying to push myself harder and to hear i need to take it easier was a bit of a disappointment. With that in mind im not going to let it hinder my progress i weighed myself this morning im not at 195 from my last log on here was 203. Personally i would have hoped for more but some weight loss is better than none and i have a tendency to expect unrealistic things and thats something im slowly trying to change. I am my own hardest critic. Many individuals have complemented me on what i have achieved so far and i cant help but look in the mirrior and still feel in a sense disgusted with myself. i look at myself in the mirror now and i dont like the way i look and i just have to sit down and think that a couple of months ago i have 25lbs heavier and how i didnt see this before is beyond me but now that i have started loosing weight im noticing it more. Which frankly does not make any sense when i think about it but i guess that another hurdle i have to overcome. Ive found that my mental battle with my change in lifestyle is far more difficult than the physical. im hard on myself when i dont see the numbers that i want and it just discourages me from pushing on any further because i just feel like how is it that im putting in all this work but yet their is no change im eating right im working out thats what they said would work so why not for me. But instead of being down on myself i need to take that to motivate myself to try something new switch up my regular routine recharge my weight loss.so as much as this weight loss journey is a work in progress finding myself and becoming a positive and more encouraging person is a work in process as well. Lately ive been using the phrase that im just a caterpillar in a cocoon waiting to transform into the wonderful butterfly i know i am deep down
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This diary comes far after the beginning of my healthy lifestlye change but better late than never. Today will be my first day back to exercising as i took last week off. Ive been having issues with my knees and hips lately so on thursday after i has a weigh in (my doc advs me i lost 16 lbs since the last time i seen her) yay for me !! She had advise me to try and take it easy instead of jogging taking walk etc. This was kind of a set back for me as im trying to push myself harder and to hear i need to take it easier was a bit of a disappointment. With that in mind im not going to let it hinder my progress i weighed myself this morning im not at 195 from my last log on here was 203. Personally i would have hoped for more but some weight loss is better than none and i have a tendency to expect unrealistic things and thats something im slowly trying to change. I am my own hardest critic. Many individuals have complemented me on what i have achieved so far and i cant help but look in the mirrior and still feel in a sense disgusted with myself. i look at myself in the mirror now and i dont like the way i look and i just have to sit down and think that a couple of months ago i have 25lbs heavier and how i didnt see this before is beyond me but now that i have started loosing weight im noticing it more. Which frankly does not make any sense when i think about it but i guess that another hurdle i have to overcome. Ive found that my mental battle with my change in lifestyle is far more difficult than the physical. im hard on myself when i dont see the numbers that i want and it just discourages me from pushing on any further because i just feel like how is it that im putting in all this work but yet their is no change im eating right im working out thats what they said would work so why not for me. But instead of being down on myself i need to take that to motivate myself to try something new switch up my regular routine recharge my weight loss.so as much as this weight loss journey is a work in progress finding myself and becoming a positive and more encouraging person is a work in process as well. Lately ive been using the phrase that im just a caterpillar in a cocoon waiting to transform into the wonderful butterfly i know i am deep down

