John's Crazy Journey

I have been losing my crazy urge to eat all of the time now that I am off of the birthcontrol pills. I am so happy that I am nopt starving like I was. I am still not losing any weight, because I am doing to much snacking. But on the the other hand, I have not gained any weight. I have stopped working out also and I know that I need to get back into it. I have class tonight, but I am thinking that I am going to go in the morning to calm me down before I go to school. My boyfriend is going away this weekend which is so sad. I am also a little bit happy because I wont go out to eat for the next two days, maybe I can lose some weight that way. I am trying really hard to get back down to 130.
 
Well I did not have SUbway with my boyfriend last night, but I did have a piece of cake that his mom made for me. I am losing my taste for over eating. I am having my coffee and getting ready to teach...
 
Thanks so much for the support Maleficent!!!! I went to Bread Co. all last week and got a Ceasar salad without the chicken. Not knowing the whole time that it had 540 calories or something along those lines. I could have had a BigMac!!! Instead of that yeasterday, I ate the soup and I also had the veggie soup on Monday. The hardest day by far for me is Saturday. I work 8 hours and its usually tons of food hanging around that I just snack on like a crazy person. I have been sick since Sunday so that has helped with not over eating. I am still eating a lot of good foods, but just not pigging out and being more interested in the amount of calories that I chose to take in.
 
Well I am down in weight and did not eat like a pig today. I am really falling into a place where food is less of an issue. So yeasterday I walked for six miles and so I am going to take today off, but I plan on running in the morning because I have to be to work a little bit later. I sae the woman that I want to be in my head this morning and loved it. It really kept me motivated today, because I was def. feeling a little bit down because of my hair and clothes and the whole nine. Well I know that I have def. grown into myself and will be even more of who I am supposed to be as the years go by. I am feeling very happy about the present and the future right now. It is all by design.
 
I am so tired and weak. I have my period and the first day is always the hardest. Also this is my first period since I have been off of birth control pills so I am really really feeling it. The kids that I teach are really acting crazy and my bosses are off the chain also. But I am calm and just ready for some change in my body to start really taking place.
 
Of course I have not lost any weight this summer. But the good news is the school year is starting again and I will have so much to do. I hope that I dont eat all day everyday any more.
I used to think that having a boyfriend would help me in my weight loss, but it has hurt me in that area profoundly. Dinner and lunch are the way that we have bonded. Feeding him is my way of showing him love. The fact that I eat as much as he does; not such a good thing.
I love my new job and am happy to go into work in the morning without a problem. I actually get up early and want to go to work. I am hoping that this will last. I have not been running, but I have been doing a lot of yoga. Every time I go to run my legs itch so much because I am so out of shape its not even funny.
My plan is to write down everything that I eat so that way I can keep up with the amount of calories that I am taking in so that I know how many calories I should cut.
 
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