Jewls' diary

Jewls

Jewls

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Hi today I have decided to start this diary because i'm frustrated and annoyed at waiting. I feel like i have waited for everything all of my life. Now that's off my chest I will begin properly.

I'm nearly 38 (next week on the 27th) I have 60kg (132lbs) of weight to lose and I would like it off my Christmas:D :cool: :rolleyes: Optimistic

I am waiting for my Cohen's program to arrive in the dreaded smail mail as they don't do email. Have you ever watch a toaster cooking for 5 mins then realise the power it not switched on ~ that's how I'm feeling today, I feel like i'm in limbo because i didn't get on the bus. Does anyone feel like they are wasting their life, wanting to be someone else and not knowing who they are because what they see is not what they feel (heavy!!)

Well my program will be here tonight because my wonderful hubby is going to drive the 5 hour round trip to pick it up for me (it's now lost in the mail) as he knows how long I have waited. It should have been here on Friday or Monday or Tuesday or who knows but it will be here today we have paid for it and i want to start tomorrow. So good luck to me and a big thanks to my wonderful hubby;) :) Waiting waiting waiting Jewls
 
132 pounds in 6 months is a pretty big goal... you generally want to lose 2 -3 pounds a week and occassionally plateaus happen...

Good luck, be safe, and you'll find lots and lots of support and cheerleadings helping you out... :)
 
Hi Jewls, glad I'm not the only Cohenette to have a diary on here. So happy to hear you will have your program tonight.
 
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Maleficent is right. A weight loss of about 1 to 2 pounds a week is what you should aim for if you want to burn fat, NOT destroy muscle (the heart is a big muscle, you know), and keep the weight off for the long term. Christmas is now 26 weeks away, and a loss of 2 pounds a week would take you down 52 pounds! Imagine - that's like losing a third-grader! Be patient, do this the healthy way, and be happy and thankful with each pound you lose! :)
 
how does your program work?

This is the place to be for encouragement I've only been here a week, and I can't even begin to tell you about all the inspiration I've found.

WELCOME!!
 
i have started

Thanks everyone for your welcome. Hey J-jay thanks for reading and posting to me in my diary, it is because of you I started this thing and it is great for getting things of my chest.

The Cohens program is done via metabolism your program is written specifically for you and you alone so it is achievable to lose bigger amounts more quickly because your body is correcting it own imbalances. Dieting on and off over 20 years throughs your whoe system out of balance so all you are using is generally the sugars we eat everyday and lets all face it we all eat way to much sugar.

I have done the exercise bit before lost weight and regained it. My body didn't know how to use the sugars and fats i was eating and i didn't know what i was doing to my own body. My father would always yell at me DON'T PUT IT IN THERE AND IT WON'T COME OUT THER!! He would hurt my mouth and stomache as he said those words. So as I'm reflecting on how in the heck i got to this size i'm also dealing with the emotional side of why i have overeaten for years.

I have children and i love taking them shopping for trendy clothes I don't remeber my mother ever doing that but i do remember being yelled at for not fitting into the cheap clothes and being told how horrid i look. And if that wasn't bad enough when i started working my first job ever (parent wouldn't let me have a part time job) i saved as much as i could ~ earnt $185 pw my mother took $50 rent so as you can see it would take me a while to save for nice clothes. Thats the good bit but wait i saw the most beautiful silverblue dress (corporate) saved like crazy had it on layby then brought it home ~ was going to wear it on my birthday not the week before i can home from work to see my mother wearing it. She just looked at me and said it looked better on her as her thighs were smaller. She has not one but two wardrobs full of clothes, very label you can think of why would a mother do that to her child? So i have gathered that my increasing size was to get back at her, at both of them but really they are not affected just me, all of me and it is time for it to go.

I have been working with a counsellor for 4 month and i have turned my life around. My wonderful son said the other day "hey mum since you're working with Dale on your baggage your Cohens program will work on your garbage" and that is the best settiment i have hear in a while because thats what fat/overweightness is garbage. What do we do with the garbage we throw it out!!

I have started the program but i'm not will to weigh myself until the 4 week mark. I have hear that this program works so i am trusting God to hold me as i walk down this path (footprints in the sand). Hope your process is sucessful as mine is going to be.

Jewls:eek:
 
Jewls

***hugs***

No child should have to go through the garbage you went through. You didn't deserve it. You are worth so much more then the way your parents treated you!

Sometimes you just have to turn your back on the past and say nothing good comes from walking down those memory lanes.

Welcome to the forum, and GOOD for you for taking control on both the physical and emotional fronts.

You CAN achieve your goals!

:D
 
Welcome, Jewls. I'm glad you are going to counseling. It sounds like your parents didn't have a clue how to "parent" Good Luck with your new program. I can tell your husband and children are going to be sooo supportive. Don't be discouraged if you don't loose that much by the end of the year--just do the best you can and the lbs will drop off.
 
Thats awful what you've been through. You arent alone when it comes to emotional baggage. Mnay of us have had experiences growing up which have had very negative affects on our outlook. Congratulations on having the courage to do something about it. You have so much support on this forum, and we all want you to reach your goals.;)
 
just checking on you!

How are you going with Cohens? Just wanted to know that you're getting on okay. Looking forward to hearing your results after your 1st month is completed. Hope you arent finding it too hard to stick to. It can seem a bit daunting a first, but that passes pretty quickly and it gets better. Thinking of you.:)
 
Birthday week

Well it was my birthday on Tuesday and I have had the best time. This program was a gift to myself and the best thing i could have done. My family have spoilt me completely, romatic weekend away, beautiful gifts (especially a locket with ILOVE YOU on it from my wonderful hubby) and a loss of 29.5 cm off my body wow all in one week i wonder what is is store for me next on this program.

I have had a great start and have resisted temptation and there has been plenty of them with a birthday. I don't feel hungry and i am quite surprise at how little i need to eat. I'm also surprises that my sense of smell has become extremely sensitve (it can even smell when my hubby has eated chocolate before coming home) and that my kidneys are working extremely well to cope with the large intake of water.

Jewls:eek:
 
Two weeks done and several to go!

I'm feeling a little down today i only lost 15cm off my body last week, i was expecting more. I have weighed myself and was excepting more loss there too. Others on this same program have deviated and have lost more or the same amount and i have been 100% to the program. I don't know what is going on with me, prehaps it might be that I have had crabs for 2 months so the weigh is coming off slower than if I had been eating lots of carbs and sugars before commencing the program. I have had some cravings well not really sure if it is a craving just my mind wanting i know i don't need it as i'm not hungry i think it is just out of habbit.

Well my kids have gone back to school today and i miss them, it's going to be a long day as i still have no work (paid that is). They, my kids have been so great over the holidays but we have all missed going to our holiday place this year, its been so cold and i miss the ocean. I must addmit i do feel like a new person after being to the beach for 2 weeks. I think it makes us all blow the cobwebs from our soul.

Well the program is working well and my clothes are starting to feel loose and more comfortable. So i will heed my our words and have serenity, courage and wisdom to keep going and to be patience not one of my strong points as i have always wanted everything yesterday. My husband always said patience, perserverance and persistance equals PLEASURE and as i have not had much pleasure i think i will stick to this 100% until i'm done.
 
First month done

Well a big WOW to me, i completed my first month and lost 12kgs. I have discovered a lot of things about myself, one of which that i'm a very strong person, two trying to get a job is stressing me out and 3 i don't cope when my daughter is unwell.

To counter act against the stretching for chocolate I say a pray and have a glass of water. It usually works but it has made me stop and figure out why i stress myself out so much as to reach for food. I think it still comes back to my mother not being there for me.

My daughter E was very sick recently with a large (tennis ball) size lump under her arm, not wanting to stress her out I made an appointment at the end of the week for the doctors (mind you I couldn't get in sooner really), it turned out to be a nasty but very curable infection of the sweat and lymph glands but I stress myself out thinking about all the possiblities in could be and how i was going to fix it. She has been through so much in her young life that i just want her to have the best life i can give her without all the problems that i faced (overweigh, namecalling, being left out, riduculed by my parents). But i have discovered that i can not protect her from evcerything that is GOD's job, so my resolution was to pray and ask (not easy for me to do) people to pray for her to be well.

People did pray (thank you very much) and she is very much on the mend with God's help and some strong medication. h didn't o hat n the first place i don't know but we can learn from our own lessons. God is great so put your trust in him, even with weightloss, he never ment for us to be overweight but he will help in fix it, you just need to be willing.

Jewls
 
Hey Jewls, well done on sticking to it through the tough times. And a fantastic reward for doing so!:)
 
Hello Jewls,
Great job on holding strong and "playing by the rules". What fantastic results for your 1st month! I'm so sorry that you were parented in the way that you were. Sounds like you are "healing" and with that I with you the best of luck. Continue to focus ahead and I'm looking forward to reading your next report. Have a good one!
 
Well I haven't posted for a while but i have great news, just after 12 weeks i have lost 23kgs and I'm stoked.

If someone said to me that i would be under 100kg in 12 week i would have laughed and told them to go jump but this program really works and i am stoked.

I'm getting looks everywhere and comments on how great i look (must have been really bad before).

I'm almost half way so it will be interesting to see what happens over the next 3 months bring on summer except i have no clothes to wear (that's an interesting situation i've never been in before, well unless they are too small).

I have been working closely with my counsellor on many emotional issues and i think i have discovered why i ate and ate and ate, even after living in my own home of 18 years my parents left a devasting effect on me emotionally but i think i have now forgiven them and moved on.

I am now replacing my negative emotional experiences with positive ones. I have just come back for a church camp, and being a leader i didn't think i would personally get anything out of it but knock me down God always looks after me. I stayed on my program 100% and he let me know he is there all the time and that LIFE IS AN ADVENTURE so we need to LIFE THE ADVENTURE. God came so we could live life to the full and that is what i'm doing (well starting too).

Bless you all
Jewls
 
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