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Jaya2

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Two years ago i had 132ibs/60kg, I went from 85kg/187ibs, jsut with a lot of exercising and eating little food. Not wise:) In these two years I got to 220ibs...and it's finally the time when I say no. I confess I can't do it alone, I need help. So tomorrow I'm starting with a group of few people with same goal...loasing weight...we will have personal trainers, two of them who will help us with what to it, how to exercise. They said I can get to 143ibs/65 kg in 6 months. So my goal is to lose weight, but most importantly to get into shape and starting to live like sport is my life. I really love dancing, I love active life, but because I like to eat, and more and more kg I get, harder is to move and doing stuff. So we'll see. Tomorrow I'm starting, I will see what kind of stuff to eat I will get. Maybe i just want to ask you, from tomorrow to 15. august...how much i can lose till then...

It's funny, my boyfriend and I met when I had 90 kg, and he liked me than, he likes me now, he says he will support me, if I will feel better, but he says he will miss my belly:-D Only people that now about my losing weight are my parents and boyfriend, nobody else, cause I need to do it myself.
 
Hi, and welcome (back) to the forum :) Well done for taking the steps to lose the weight.

Do you have plan for your diet?
 
Great job on saying no. I'm sure if you keep your mind to it you can lose a good amount of weight between now and August. Everybody is different though so I don't want to throw around numbers that could be a disappointment! At any rate I think getting active with a group will keep you motivated.

Food is my downfall as well. Lately I haven't been able to keep myself under control... it just takes a little more work than I'm used to. Good luck on your journey. :)
 
I don't know what kind of plan diet I will have. This program that I'm in it's for healthy way of life, so I figure I will have 1200 kcal a day.

My point is I'm not losing weight...I'm changing my style of life and result of that will be losing weight and so on. Cause what good it gets me, to starve myself, lose all the weight and then start eating normally again and get all kg back??

So yeah, basically I know it will be hard, the first 21 days it will be agony, bit this is my birthday gift, I have birthday in one week, and this is a challenge for me. I just hope I will be able to study, cause I have 6 exams in this month...

In last week I was eating less food, and I'm so so hungry, I guess my stomach is bigger now, but it's okay, I just get something else in my mind.

My biggest concern is my eating disorder, I'm eating to fill my emptiness...I'm jobless and cause I'm fat I'm not happy with myself, so I eat to fill emptiness...yeah it's a circle. What do you think I should do? When I feel the need to eat, just go exircising? I'm able to resist overeating now for the last 5 days, it's been really hard, a lot of thoughts are about food...I don't know...that's not normal...I cannot tell that anybody, cause I'm ashamed...but I still think I can make it...with a lot of discipline...and I have to find something else obssesed about...maybe exercising:-D

And yeah, I haven't been smoking now for two weeks, I was hoping to quit, and if I was able to do it for two weeks, I guess I can do on and on. i hope so.
 
Hi,

I am new here too and we both weigh roughly the same amount so perhaps we can help each other.

I was the same with eating. I could put soo much away it was disgusting. At night time I would eat family size bars of chocolate, packet of biscuits, bags of crisps, dips etc etc and that was just in one sitting.
Then like you there needs to be a time where you think to yourself enough is enough and jst say no.

I started my diet on Saturday. I was thinking of eating around 1500 calories a day on days where I exercise and 1200 cals on exercise free days.

If you eat low calorie healthy meals and snack on fruit etc you will be massivly surprised at just how much you can eat. I write down absolutely everything that I eat. If you have a smart phone download a calorie app which adds it all up for you. That's what I do and sometimes I sit here and think i've def not eaten enough today and eat slices of toast etc just to get my calorie intake up. Don't get me wrong sometimes I feel a little anxious and really want to eat chocolate and crisps but I bought these rice cakes - they're large ones and they have a coating of chocolate on top and they're only 76 calories per rice cake and last night I had two - I would've been ok with one but again I needed to get my calorie intake up so i ate two and they're yummy and satified my sweet tooth.

Have a look around peoples diaries etc you may pick up some nice ideas for meals - just ask for the recipes and some ideas for snacks.

I hope to read how your getting on - I'll be checking up on you lol!!
 
Today I had my first training with a personal trainer...it's just the first time to show me what to do. I had operations on my both knees, and I'm not supposed to run or do it too much, but today my training was top of the top. I was sweating like I'm swimming, but it was nice....and I got once more confirmation that I cannot anymore live the way I did. So I don't have any wishes towards any food, cause I now I see and know what is my purpose.

I'm really happy, that my parents kicked me in the butt, but They kicked me the way every person should be, with love, with support. A lot of people just said to me you're so fat, you gained weight, common lose our weight...my boyfriend sais he supports me, today he said you're already beautiful, later you'll be shining. And it was really nice for me to hear that, cause my exboyfriend was always saying to me how ugly I am, how fat I am, that I must starve, that he wants a skinny girl, so yeah it's a change. And it's easier, cause now I know i'm doing it for myself, for my health, not for others.

Yeah, so I think this forum will really help me. I will take picture of me every 14 days to see change. I'm optimistic and staying positive. Thank you for all your support.
 
Good work Girl on the PT session. I used to see a pt and she killed me - they work you sooo hard. I couldn't afford the cost so i had to stop seeing her which is a shame.

Glad to hear your feeling good - your bf sounds like a sweety it's good you've got someone like him who loves you the way you are and supports you in what your doing.

Keep up the great work xx
 
Yeah, I can't afford to have my own PT too, but here we have like a program of 8 people with two trainers and they help us,show us. Well on the first one I was alone...

Today I was thinking, how I hate being fat, and I want it all now, I want to be skinny...but than it got me thinking...GIRL, hey, this is the time, you're gonna remember all you're life, you're gonna prove yourself you can do it, enjoy every minute of it, every kg lost enjoy it. So i'm enjoying it, after all the path is important not the goal...goal will become with path.

My problem right now is I was on antibiotics till monday, and i was having a fever for the weekend, so I'm not feeling 100%. But I guess I will feel so much better when I'm totally healthy:-D
 
So, quick update. My diet is going great, I'm doing great with my workout, it's wroking my ass off, but I love it. My centimeters are much quicker than my actual weight loss, but that's normal, I'm lifting weights so I can really feel how I'm stronger.
 
ski_bunny30 said:
If you eat low calorie healthy meals and snack on fruit etc you will be massivly surprised at just how much you can eat. I write down absolutely everything that I eat. If you have a smart phone download a calorie app which adds it all up for you. That's what I do and sometimes I sit here and think i've def not eaten enough today and eat slices of toast etc just to get my calorie intake up. Don't get me wrong sometimes I feel a little anxious and really want to eat chocolate and crisps but I bought these rice cakes - they're large ones and they have a coating of chocolate on top and they're only 76 calories per rice cake and last night I had two - I would've been ok with one but again I needed to get my calorie intake up so i ate two and they're yummy and satified my sweet tooth.

Have a look around peoples diaries etc you may pick up some nice ideas for meals - just ask for the recipes and some ideas for snacks.

I hope to read how your getting on - I'll be checking up on you lol!!
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I totally agree that you will actually eat more if you eat the "right" stuff... I mean as an example because I kept a journal on my smart phone for calorie counting I noticed that... if you were to eat 1 bag (49.6g) bag of doritoes (it's like the size of those halloween give away bags)...it's 250 cals...and have yet to mention the "nutritional" things in it...like the fats and the sodium. To translate 250 cals into healthy eating... you could eat 3 tablespoons of hummus and like 5 large stalks of celery for dipping is 250 cals. Or like 2 tablespoons of peanut butter and 5 large stalks of celery is like 250. Or you could have like 4 apples, or 2 corn on the cobs, or 2 cups of leafy greens and 2 tablespoons of any kind of light salad dressing WITH a piece of chicken. 2 tablespoons is more than enough...that's way more than some measly bag of chips. Believe me. I was in shock too...and really I only found this out because I kept a record of it.
 
ninjaman32 said:
I totally agree that you will actually eat more if you eat the "right" stuff... I mean as an example because I kept a journal on my smart phone for calorie counting I noticed that... if you were to eat 1 bag (49.6g) bag of doritoes (it's like the size of those halloween give away bags)...it's 250 cals...and have yet to mention the "nutritional" things in it...like the fats and the sodium. To translate 250 cals into healthy eating... you could eat 3 tablespoons of hummus and like 5 large stalks of celery for dipping is 250 cals. Or like 2 tablespoons of peanut butter and 5 large stalks of celery is like 250. Or you could have like 4 apples, or 2 corn on the cobs, or 2 cups of leafy greens and 2 tablespoons of any kind of light salad dressing WITH a piece of chicken. 2 tablespoons is more than enough...that's way more than some measly bag of chips. Believe me. I was in shock too...and really I only found this out because I kept a record of it.
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I agree with ninjaman. Although ive only joined this blog recently and started my very first dairy log , its been easier for me to see which food i should eliminate, reduce, have more of..etc! I am a sugar lover and one thing thats been keeping me away from junk like chocolates and chips is the fact that i need to post it on the forum. I don't want to tell people i actually ate a chocolate bar, so that has been doing me a HUGE favor. Jaya, Why don't you start writing down what you are eating for each meal and write down the calories for them. I think you will really benefit from it. Check out my diary, i need moral support :(! Feels like everything is not working out the way i want it to...ahhh :(
 
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