Jared's Diary

Hi everybody, my name is Jared. So this is actually the second time I'm doing a "diary" on a site like this. I did it once a long time ago when I lost a bunch of weight and I felt it was a really great way to keep myself accountable as well as participate in a community of people. The old forum I used is gone but I'm glad I found this new one!

I'm 5'10", 228lbs and I'm starting this to help track my progress, help keep myself accountable and hopefully it will help like it did last time!


My Story/History:

Short version: Summer 2009 195lbs->185>220>172>210>200>240>230>265>215>Today 230lbs

I've been on a bit of a roller coaster in terms of my weight for the past 6-7 years. So lets start at the first time I seriously started to try and lose weight consciously. My junior year of high school my friend convinced me to try wrestling. I was in the mid 190's at the beginning of the season but by the end all of the intense practices had me down to the mid 180's, I was in the best shape of my life (not the most impressive thing though given that I was 17). However after that things somewhat took a turn for the worse and between the end of the season (mid winter) and the middle of that summer I had ballooned up to 220 lbs. I remember the moment it clicked for me just how big I had gotten, I was driving to work and I all of a sudden became conscious of my sides/rolls. That's when I first started on a healthy path.

I educated myself, joined another website like this one, started keeping a food diary on there as well as being active in the community, and read everything I could on weight loss. I half-assed counting calories. I measured out my cereal and milk for breakfast, made a reasonable lunch and left a 1000 calorie buffer for dinner (mom cooked so it wasn't easy to assume). Stopped snacking completely. Lastly I began exercising however I could. I would run (I remember the first time, barely being able to do 1/4 mile), I played a lot of DDR, and generally tried to be active in whatever way I could. As time went on I was losing a lot of weight, in the beginning 3-4lbs /week (even though I knew it was unhealthy). Eventually it leveled out and I was losing anywhere from 1-2lbs/week. Having started around early August 2009 by late December I was around 180lbs, I had lost 40 lbs in 5 months. My friends made anorexic jokes because I lost so much but I felt really great and it was amazing how easy it was to turn down junk food and not eat a lot.

I continued to lose weight a lot slower and eventually hit 172 lbs in March 2010, which was when I hit my first obstacle. I got my wisdom teeth out, I had been having some slow weeks and I couldn't work out for a few days. The bad eating (because of my limited options) and the fact that I couldn't workout kind of threw me out of wack. Even after I recovered I was no longer working out or watching myself as much as I was. I started playing video games a lot again and it was easy for me to sink hours and hours into them and I didn't use the online community as much. When college rolled around I was back up to mid-180s. Freshman 15 hit me and by end of freshman year I was around 200lbs again (I think I had even been closer to 210 at one point but started working out and being careful at the dining hall). a

I stayed around 195-200 that summer, the next semester came and I gained maybe 10 lbs. I n Spring of 2012 I took on a lot of extra responsibilities on campus which increased my stress and I was a stress eater. That in combination with living in a fraternity house where drinking happened often and the food available wasn't exactly healthy I gained a lot of weight. I was 245 when the summer started. That summer I tried to work out and eat healthy. I dropped maybe to 235 but no matter how hard I tried to keep it up during the school year it wasn't much use. By winter I was 250. By the end of the following summer I had dropped weight again to 240.

Then my senior year happened and it was rough. By December 2013 I was 265, the biggest I've ever been. It was bad. I started a competition with some friends and I managed to drop down to 240 by the summer. The summer was a struggle with my internship I didn't lose or gain any weight. I got in better shape but that was about it.

I went back to school for my masters, by the end of December 2014 I was 248 again. I had another moment of clarity where I realized that after the next semester I was going to graduate, start my job and I wanted it to be a new fresh start, I didn't want my weight to hold me back and it was going to be much harder to lose weight while working. I did much more meal planning and exercised almost every day at the gym or playing racquetball. The lowest I hit was 215 but the stress of final exams/projects, shin splints and then falling into bad habits when I came back home I went back up to 230.

That brings us to today where I've been between 225 and 230 most of the time trying to get back into the good habits but also falling victim to old ways of splurging when I come home.

My first time losing weight (220->172) was your typical "unsustainable" weight loss. At the peak of my performance I was working out 3-4 times per day, in the morning, depending on school during gym class, right after school (before work), and then when I got home from work. I was also eating absurdly little, and realized after I got better at estimating calories that the 1000 calorie buffer I left for dinner was sometimes as little as 300, putting me around 1000 for the day sometimes. I know now that type of progress is not only unsustainable but not good for me.

Every time after that I wasn't forming good habits and when stress increased or I had a few bad days, everything went out the window. However I still count the past year or so as a success. It's been bumpy but I'm not back up to 265, overall I consider myself on a more sustainable path to losing it and keeping it off.

Today:

Today I'm 228lbs, I'm 3 weeks away from moving to my new apartment and starting my new job, and I'm trying to work in better habits and get started again now because I know it will be much harder once I start working. I regret not using the 2 months I've had home better. I'm moving to a city around some of my best friends so I know it's going to be hard in terms of a lot of going out and drinking and eating but I really want to get back in a good mindset now to help curb the bad decisions.

I think this introductory post has gone on long enough so I'm going to throw in my goals and call it a day.

Long-Term Goal: 195lbs. Still technically "overweight" for my height but I want to get there and see how I feel.

Short Term Goals (3 weeks):
1. Start running again, the shin splints I had are gone and I miss running especially how good it made me feel. I hope to do some running 3-4 times a week as well as incorporate some stretches to make sure my shin splints don't come back
2. Eat healthy consistently, I've been back and forth where I eat good 2 days and then have 1 killer bad day. When I go off track I tend to lose control, it's pretty terrible. My goal is around 1500 calories/day, but I'm giving myself anywhere from 1300-1600. Bad days I can do anywhere from 2-3 times that much....
3. Start some strength training. I'm not going to hit the gym everyday but doing some sort of strength training 2-3 days per week.

I hope to post at least every other day, just a kind of general how the day(s) went. I'll probably also mention other things I'm working on in my personal/professional life.

If you read all that thanks, any and all comments/feedback are welcome. Here we go.
 
Hi Jared & welcome to the forum. It sounds like you have a good idea of what you need to do & we can help provide you with the support you need. I'll be a part of your cheers squad! :D Cheers, Cate.
 
Hi there,
You can do this.
Try to include one pound of raw vegetables (think big salad, dark greens), one pound cooked/steamed vegetables, four fruits, one cup of varying types of beans, a handful of various nuts and seeds, oh and some flaxseed. Book, Eat to Live, your body will find it genetically designed weight. The more you eat of this type of food, the more you lose. When your body finds it's designed target it stops the loss on its own. It works.
 
Thanks for the greetings everyone!

AHHHH

Well I've already broke my "post at least every other day" rule but I'm going to give myself a pass. The weekend after my first post I went to a friends to celebrate his birthday for the weekend and then my PC broke when I got home. Had to send it in for repairs. Spent the long July 4th weekend visiting family and just got home to find my PC back and repaired!

So over the past week.

Overall the eating hasn't been superb. I'd call it average. Didn't really eat at a deficit but didn't really over eat either. The weekend at my friends was spent going out so I was probably worse than I should of been but I also find myself stopping my drinking/ordering healthier. It's a step in the right direction I guess.

The long weekend was tough, not a lot of food choices when you're on the road or eating at a family members house. Again didn't over do it I think but I didn't exactly do terrible.

However the running has been fantastic. I ran every other day since last Friday (Jun 26th). It's been cycles of walk-run-walk-run-walk where I tend to run 1.5-2 miles the first time and then 1-1.5 the second time. Overall I'm pretty happy with how I've been keeping up with it. The off days I walk my dog about 3-3.5 miles (something I've been doing for a while) so I'm still active.

I think last week I had a good mentality but I've fallen victim to certain habits. Part of the not-good-eating last week was my lack of planning. Whenever I lost weight in the past I was either too busy to eat, no food at my disposal, or was super controlled with it. I think moving forward I'm going to try and plan/stick to my plan more meticulously. When i leave a buffer amount of calories for dinner it very easily gets out of wack.

The second thing, and I've talked to a lot of people with this problem, is that I found in the evening I settle down in front of the couch and watching TV just makes me want to snack. I've decided this week, in addition to the tight meal planning, I'm going to do something other than watch TV. I've been reading a lot more so I think I'll go into another room and read a book.

Well that's my late update for now. Hopefully after this I won't have any more technical problems and can continue to post regularly!
 
So I decided to do my weigh-ins on Monday nights. I did that a while back and I found it helped keep me more honest on the weekend.

So yesterday's was 229.6. Can't say I'm surprised, especially with all the eating I did on my trip for the 4th. However I feel really good about today and yesterday. Both days I was on track with eating only what I planned and I walk/ran. Also been avoiding TV at night and it has been really helping.

Not too much else to say. A lot to do in the next 2 weeks before I move. Kind of in between about it. I do need a lot of new clothes, especially for work, but I don't want to spend a lot of $$$ if this keeps up and have a wardrobe I need to replace in 6 months anyways.

I like to cook, it's kind of a hobby and I think I picked it up from my mother. When I was growing up my mom was old fashioned I guess you could say, she would feel guilty if she didn't make dinner for us, even when she went back to work. Her meals were pretty straight forward and I think a lot of my dinner mindset comes from the kind of things she used to make which basically consisted of your protein (meat/fish), a vegetable and a starch/carb (rice, potato, pasta). After talking to a friend recently I kind of had an epiphany that there is no reason I need a starch with my dinner. It was just always something I planned for the meal automatically, but now I'm seeing that I really like vegetables and if I replace the rice/pasta/potatoes with just more vegetables and protein I'll probably be just as full if not more afterwards. I don't eat pasta or potatoes much to begin with but it's really the rice I like. I think next week for my meals I'm going to try and plan for every other day being a "low-carb" day.
 
226.6 as of Monday night! I'm happy and surprised at the same time!

Yikes! Didn't realize how long it's been since I posted, I feel like I think about doing it a lot but then I just never get around to it. Then again I'm not sure if I'll have a lot to say if I actually post every other day.

I was really good for most of the week but had a little lapse on Friday and the weekend was tough. The "I need to plan what I'm going to eat" thing was kind of hammered home. Friday I left the second half of the day open and ended up eating too much of random snacks, Saturday went out to dinner with the family and was really full. Sunday wasn't terrible. But in the end I guess despite the pitfalls here and there that I had I was good other meals (for instance Saturday breakfast/lunch were realllllly light).

The kicker was yesterday (Monday) I wasn't terribly good either. Not as bad as I could have been but I snacked some when I shouldn't have. I felt kind of crappy about the weekend and I was in a bad mindset about it and got a bowl of chips at night. I decide before I sat down I'd step on the scale for kicks and giggles to see how little progress I made over the past week. When I saw the 226.6 I was a bit overwhelmed and the bad feelings were gone just like that. I threw the snack away and that was that.

I find myself doing that sometimes too during the week. I'll get something to eat and then be about to take a bite or take one bite and have this willpower come over me and I just throw it in the garbage. Wasteful I know but I think the more I do it the less I'll make the snack to begin with.

So things are going well hooray. My runs have turned into 2 miles, walk a bit and then 1.5 miles. I run around an 11 minute pace, which isn't terrible for me. This week is a little crazy since I start my new job in 1 week and I have so much to take care of before then, which hopefully means no time for snacking!

This week I'm going to stick to all of my food plans as best as I can and even make ones for the weekend. I'm also working on a list of all the things I see as "my problems" with food and hopefully if I have it all in one place to look at it will help me remember and notice my bad habits more.
 
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