I've stooped to a whole new level

kimmyg

kimmyg

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This is my first day here, and I'm just learning my way around so bear with me. I weighed myself for the first time today since...I'm not even sure when and was shocked at my weight. 257.5. I have NEVER weighed this much. I'm just a measly 5'2!! I can really feel it too. I get sore easily, steps are killing me, and I'm only 24yrs old!! I'm a newlywed, was married on October 8th. My husband and I are starting back up this week (even moreso when we get a paycheck this week to buy "GOOD" groceries). What are some neccesities we should get for groceries? More for...side dishes for dinners.
Now, as for my stooping to a whole new level; we went clothes shopping for me this week because I...honestly... I thought I had been shrinking all my clothes by washing them too much but will only admit here that is NOT why they don't fit. I wasn't able to find much of anything I liked, a few sweaters but that was about it. Being my weight and height it is VERY hard for me to find pants that are big enough in the gut, short enough in the legs (but not short enough that when I wash them they'll shrink so much they'll be to my knees), and legs that aren't too big to make my thighs look huge, or look like granny pants. So anyway, I'm at Target today and find two cute pairs of pants for work, khaki's and olive green khakis. They're maternity. All the plus sized ones were... well, how they always are, too big in the legs and too long, and look like granny pants, so I swallow my pride and cover the bright pink "Liz Lange Maternity" tag under the shirts I was trying on and duck into the fitting room. They fit perfectly. *sigh* Ya, so... I bought two pairs of MATERNITY pants. God help me. It really has come to this. I'm wearing what thin women wear when they have another human inside of them. I just have a whole bunch of fat inside of me. I don't know how to justify it but that the fact my dad told me when my mom and he were dating, she did the same. (I don't have a relationship with her, they divorced when I was 2, but do have some contact with her). I know the fact my mother did the same doesn't excuse it, and I think about the fact that when my dad told me that I laughed, and now.... I'm doing the same. *sigh*... I'm so depressed....
 
Hun, I"m so sorry you are feeling this way!! BUT, its good too, b/c alot of people don't really change until they've hit "rock bottom". SO now that you are here,you'll start really making changes :) And while I understand why your deppressed, you have to move on. You have to say to yourself, "Ok, this is what it is, and I have to accept it and then move on" The reason being, if you are so deppressed, your not going to be able to really change..I don't think so anyways...deppression causes alot of emotional eating. Just really look for the future, be excited about loosing weight!!

"What are some neccesities we should get for groceries? More for...side dishes for dinners."

I would certainly suggest stocking up on veggies!!! Fresh veggies are very healthy for you, and very low in cals! (except corn and I think peas) Anyways, fresh fruit are great too, lot of vitamins there as well. I am a big fan of lean cusines..they are perfectly portioned, low in cals and easy to make. You can always have a side salad to go w/ them. They also have side dishes. There is a mac and cheese one and a potatoe and broccoli one as well.
 
*hugs*

kimmy, we all have our 'oh my god i can't believe this' moments. that's why you're here, dear!! the fact that you motivated yourself enough to join the website and get support and suggestions is a HUUUUGE step in the right direction, and you deserve a pat on the back for it!!! i've only been on the site for . . . two weeks, i think? and i've already learned a lot about myself and where my weight loss plan was taking me (or not taking me, as i should put it). everyone on here is SO helpful and SO supportive. you have it in you to lose the weight, and attain your goals!!

so *hug* hon don't worry . . . . you've taken the right step to a healthier you!!!
 
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with what newbride said. . . . .the lean cuisine broccoli and potato dish is SO SUPER GOOD. just FYI ;) hehehe
 
We stock up on frozen veggie mixes. They are already pre-cut, and easy to cook. But what really helped me is watching my portions and counting calories. Without counting, I never knew that I ate so much more in snacks then I thought. I also eat a lot of frozen dinners like by healthy choice or lean quisene(sp?). They are great lunch choises.

Another trick is using smaller plates for dinner, and not going for seconds!
 
I'd give starting a food journal a try. Don't alter how you eat for a day or two and just write down everything that you've consumed. At the day's end review what you've eaten, try adn calculate the calories and see where you might be going wrong.. It can be pretty surprising how much people can sneak in "here or there" through out the day without realizing it!:)
 
I agree with newbride02. Sometimes you have to hit rock bottom first... That said, I am 5'1.5" ( I call myself 5'2" to feel tall LOL) and know just ehat you are going through. I does suck but it is a START not the finish. Feeding a family of skinny eating machines not only taxes you mentally, but it leaves no money for "special" foods. So, since I am the cook in our house, I researched ways to make our favorites healthier. If you are interseted in some solutions I found/discovered feel free to email me, but there are way to many to list here all at once.
my food journal has been a great help as well as the fresh veggies and soups.
Don't give up - it'll take time but it WILL be worth it.
 
Kimmy, the first thing you have to remember is You are NOT alone! In July, I went throught the same thing. 5'3" I hit 264 pounds! I couldn't wear anything except men's sweat pants. Now, you've faced the truth, you've put the truth into words and even put those words out for the world to see. Believe it or not, you've already done the hardest part! It's now a matter of making the decision to change your life. Not to lose weight, or get skinny. To CHANGE your life. To be healhty to feel good to look in the mirror and smile. I know that sometimes that is so hard to do. I'm not saying that it's all gonna be a breeze from here on. Allow these wonderful people to support you, keep your mind open to new ideas, and don't get discouraged. You'll go through good times and bad, but that's true in anything in life. We are all here to help each other and we are going to help you too! Oh yeah, start drinking lots of water!!!! Some of the best tips I can give you've already gotten but I can't stress enough the importance of water.
 
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