My sophomore year of college I studied abroad in Italy. It was the best 5 months of my life. I returned home to the states 30lbs heavier. By the end of that summer, I had gained another 20. From 130, to 180. I am tall and carried my weight proportionately, and many of my friends will tell me that they can't believe I ever weighed that much. Over the past 3 years I have lost the extra 20, slowly, and maintained at 160. I have bought new clothes that fit this new body, I even became comfortable for the most part in my new size 10 or 12 jeans. Sometimes I would like at my little friends and ask myself, where did my little body go? Where did my healthy and strong body go? But most times, I felt... comfortable.
But now that has changed. And as I get older and start my career and begin my life on my own, I find myself taking responsibility for every single aspect of my life EXCEPT for my health. And I am worth more than this.
The past 2 weeks, I have for the first time in 3 years, made my first steps towards returning to the body that could run 5 miles, hike for 4 hours, hold her own on a basketball court against her brothers. This makes me proud. For the first time in 3 years I weigh under 155lbs. Whether you have 100lbs to lose or 30lbs to lose, actually losing a few pounds gives you the faith to believe you can lose a few more. And a few more. Today, I believe.
But now that has changed. And as I get older and start my career and begin my life on my own, I find myself taking responsibility for every single aspect of my life EXCEPT for my health. And I am worth more than this.
The past 2 weeks, I have for the first time in 3 years, made my first steps towards returning to the body that could run 5 miles, hike for 4 hours, hold her own on a basketball court against her brothers. This makes me proud. For the first time in 3 years I weigh under 155lbs. Whether you have 100lbs to lose or 30lbs to lose, actually losing a few pounds gives you the faith to believe you can lose a few more. And a few more. Today, I believe.