I had to use that emoticon at least one given the fact that this is an introduction thread. My name is Matthew. I'm 19 years old.
I have always been fat. Growing up, I would play sports regularly and still was overweight. Obviously this was because I overeat, I don't see any other explanation. Over the years I would convince myself that it was 'in my genes' -- my parents were fat, my siblings were fat, but I'm trying to accept this as just another excuse I made.
Over the years I've tried many 'diets', didn't stick with them because I was embarrassed to make the commitment. I would always make the excuse, "we'll, I'll just do what I want know but, before college, I'll get into shape.."
Well that time has come and gone, now I'm in college and worse off than I was ever before. I'm normally sitting on my computer, as I enjoy them immensely, but I've always had an interest in doing more active things, but I have that fear of avoiding what others think of me so I stay out of the spotlight.
I've avoided taking pictures for the last ten years. The number of pictures in the last ten years of me I could count on my fingers. I avoid mirrors like the plague.
I really hope that I can put an end to the endless stream of frustration that has plagued me for years.
- Matthew
