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I have eaten a lot better the last few days. I have gotten a taste for whole-grain bread. In the morning, I make a nice sandwich out of it, egg whites, and a little ketchup salt and pepper.

For dinner last night, I made a home-made pizza out of a tortilla, some pizza sauce, some non-fat cheeses and some turkey bacon. It was surprisingly good once I baked it.

My biggest problem is working out. I really have a image issue (whoa, rare, I know) and hate working out around other people. I have a free gym membership at my school and yet I'm deathly afraid of even going inside so I keep making excuses. I have another gym in my apartment complex with is smaller and might be better, but I'm still afraid to make the commitment. I don't know how to overcome this and not mind working out with people around.

I invested in a new scale today. I figured that if I wanted to keep an accurate count I would need to stay consistent. The scale said I was 288.4, so I'm staying with that. I hope to one day be back down to 200. Which god knows how long was the last time I was actually at that.

- Matthew
 
The last couple days have been really good on my diet.

I normally wake up in the morning and have an egg white sandwich on whole grain, with a little ketchup. (Seriously, try it.. it's delicious) Normally I eat it with a few cheese and crackers, fruit, or something else. I wash it down normally with a flavored water.

I was surprised at how well this fills me up.

During lunch, I normally have a little salad kit worth 350 calories, or I make a mini pizza (using grain tortillas, pasta sauce, non-fat cheese) or a burrito using (grain tortillas, chicken, and non-fat cheese). All of these options fill me up quite well, and because of that, I still feel like I'm 'overeating'. There's just this premonition that being on a diet = not having a satisfied hunger, and I can't get over that. It's just something that I have to get used to.

I noticed the last few days that I've been feeling better. More perky, more alert. I'm not sure if it's the placebo effect of if I can attribute it to cutting out over-eating and fatty foods. Comfort foods may not be comforting in the long-run afterall.

I did a walk the other day for two miles, and it was nice, although thats the furthest extent I've taken towards exercise this week. I still have a fear of exercising around other people and It's something that I'll have to overcome soon.

I looked into talking to the RD at my school, but I have not heard back from the recreation center about her email address so I have not gotten a chance to talk to her yet.

I looked into a gym orientation setting. This way someone introduces me to the gym, brings me around and shows me how to do everything properly. I figured it would be less intimating the first time around. They also offer personal training sessions, for $20/hr sessions. For a college kid, this is quite expensive, but I guess they have to make a profit. I guess once I get in full swing, I'll do a personal training session once a week. Doing something like instills some sort of obligation to go as I am paying them. Additionally, for the rest of the week, I would want to go back the next week and 'have results' or at least be able to say that I've been keeping up with my exercise.

I hope I'm on the right track. The scale seems to gradually go down. It's only been about a week, but even with the fluctuations, it seems like my averages are going down a few lbs. I invested in a $40 scale and today I'm going to go buy a pedometer. I love statistics, so being able to see how many steps I've made will only make me aim to beat my record every day.

Till next time <3
 
Hi!

Sounds like your doing really well at this game!! I hate gyms too- theres the 'everyone is looking' factor plus I find them deadly boring! But in reality im sure noone is looking coz everyone is too busy worrying about themselves! If you are interested a proper induction would probably be worth doing.

On the food side choosing foods that are lower in calories than before (but not too little- theres plenty on the forum about how bad that is!) but still fill you up is definately the way to go. Personally I think if your too hungry it just makes you crave the bad stuff more and ultimately you dont keep up the new lifestyle.

Anyway, I just wanted to drop by and say hi and good luck!!
 
tryingtotrim said:
Hi!

Sounds like your doing really well at this game!! I hate gyms too- theres the 'everyone is looking' factor plus I find them deadly boring! But in reality im sure noone is looking coz everyone is too busy worrying about themselves! If you are interested a proper induction would probably be worth doing.

On the food side choosing foods that are lower in calories than before (but not too little- theres plenty on the forum about how bad that is!) but still fill you up is definately the way to go. Personally I think if your too hungry it just makes you crave the bad stuff more and ultimately you dont keep up the new lifestyle.

Anyway, I just wanted to drop by and say hi and good luck!!
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Yeah. In the back of my head, I realize that everyone is basically more worried about themselves, but it doesn't take much to acknowledge the fat guy in the corner lifting weights.

I'm embarrassed enough buying a healthy dinner at work (I work at a grocery store). I normally eat a salad kit, some fruit and vegetables, and a water, and given the vast majority of choices at a grocery store, the cashier (Friends, of course, not a standard practice to comment on food selections) that I was eating "healthy". I mean, I'm not starving myself. I've come to enjoy the food selection. It's just that I avoid the phrase "I'm on a diet" like I do chocolate cake.

Meh.
 
Yeah I dont like that either. I was at a friends the other day and didnt want to admit im trying to be different in my eating habits. I ate the cake instead of telling her :( I dont like drawing attention to the fact so I know how you feel.

Gotta keep plugging away I guess!
 
Today my room mate made a pizza for dinner and I resisted the temptation to eat any.

For lunch, we went to sonic, but I was able to settle with a chicken wrap (only about 300 calories) and a diet cherry limeade. I was happy with the ability to settle.

I hope I hit below 285 soon. It will be the first sign to me that I am losing weight rather than just fluctuating in my favor.
 
I've made a bad habit of finishing off the diet soda in my fridge when I should be focusing on water. I rationalize that diet soda has no calories, but at the same time, I know water would be a lot better for me. It's just hard rationalization to make.

Suddenly, I feel conscious about how much calories are in everything. Working as a grocery store cashier, I would casually find something interesting, flip it over, and find it with way too many calories.

Pass it on.

Candy bars now discuss me. 3 Servings with 220 calories? That's just.. pitiful. I could have a whole lunch, or this candy bar with a lot more fat content?

Also it's being very hypocritical, I can't help but to silently judge people by what they purchase. People come through with low-fat this, low-fat that, protein bars, but are then drinking a coke and asking where the ice cream is. I can't help but to wonder, "I wonder if he knows thats what's making him fat".

At the same time, I see people come through with the same things my diet consist of, and they look great, and It gives me hope (as well as ideas of other things to eat.)

I'm beginning to realize why I've wasted away after so many years. Everything I ate had so many calories of, and then I would eat it totally out of portion control. Something had to happen and I'm glad it did.
 
The scale is discouraging.

I mean, I know I'm eating better.

However, of course, the scale will of course fluctuate up and down by a couple pounds depending on the time of day you weigh yourself.

BUT IM A SCALE WHORE.

I can't help but to just jump on the scale for a few seconds and see where I'm at. It's encouraging seeing a lower number, but then discouraging seeing it a few lbs higher later.

BLAST YOU SCALE

BLAST YOU
 
Weight loss isn't difficult.

The wait is what kills.

I mean, over the last month I've lost around 10lbs. Even though among "healthy weight loss" standards, that is about right, I just wish it was faster.

Now, we all wish this. We wish that we lost it even faster. But for some people, it's because they just want to get to their target weight faster for a date, or so they can start chomping on a cheeseburger..

NO.

I love my diet. I love what I'm eating, how I feel more energy. I love the feeling of making myself better.

But no matter how much weight I loss, no matter how well I think I'm doing, I'm only going to second guess myself if I'm doing everything right.

It's human initution.

Because of this, until we get to our goal, we suffer from 'the wait'. The wait of time passing, our goals being met one time or another. I sometimes wish there was a magic number, say, 2000, and that was how many miles I needed to go on a treadmill at x speed to get to my weight goal.

But it doesn't work like that, no. Even if you spent hours upon hours in the gym, when you have a major goal to be undertaken, you run into the wait, and the wait we'll all suffer through.
 
patience grasshopper -you will get to your goals... :)

just don't wait to live your life - enjoy it now... still have fun, do the things now that you find yourself saying -when i get to my goal weight i will.... do it now... :D
 
It's been about 36 days now since I started my diet.

For the first month, I did not exercise. It was purely my diet. And with that, I lost 2 lbs / week. I guess that's a healthy weight loss, I suppose.

Now I have added exercise to the mix, and I kind of wonder how it will help in the long term. Because really, all I am ever doing is exercising 500ish calories off, other than my weight training. Repeat across 2-4 days, and well, that's almost a lb, I guess? It kind of confuses me why diet and good exercise are viewed equally as important when the latter seems to pale in comparison to the aforementioned mathmatically
 
Haha, our situations seem rather similair, although i'm not bothered about telling workmates etc i'm on a diet. (Not `some` of them though obviously) There is nothing like friendly embarasment looming over your head to keep you on track... It'd suck now if i went on this site, told my dfamily & some friends that i was on an `actual` diet & then fail

I'm also looking at labels now & thinking "WTF, that was XXX calories... jeez" but i also seem rather embrassed when i'm patrolling through the salad or fruit section, cause well... i dunno. There are certain expectations of people of certain frames to be like, not in the salad section :p or look at labels etc. (Nor males for that matter)
Still 2lb's a week is a pretty good weight loss & a nice steady one at that... Admittedly there is a wait with it, but at least you'll drop in clothe sizes... I s'pose you could think of them as sub-goals :)

& lastly, yeah i suck at drinking water as oposed to anything else, i've managed to get 6 pints down in a day,. but trying to get 8 is killing me, my cousin does it every day & then some without even trying dammit X_X
 
Hi Matthew,

Good luck with your weight loss project. Congratulations on the weight loss so far. You may find it easier to picture the achievement if you look at it in terms of groceries. Put together ten pounds of butter and look at that. Weigh out ten pounds of potatoes and lift that. Be proud of your achievement.

You mention having bought scales and spoke of an intention to buy a pedometer. I hope that you have done so. The scales and pedometer are the best things that I have bought this year. I wear my pedometer all the time. I put it on as I get dressed and only take it off at bedtime. I make a note of all my daily readings in my excel spreadsheet - where I record my daily weight and lots of other things. You sound very like me when you mention statistics. My pedometer certainly challenges me to walk further each day. It has taken me from a zero start to walking often 12 miles a day. You could join me and Stacy and one or two others in the pedometer buddies section of the challenges. There is no competition there - we just like to mention our pedometer counts. We are all losing weight so it must work.

You say that you cannot see why diet and exercise is mentioned in equal terms from what you read. For me the walking is the main differentiator between this weight loss project and countless other failed projects of the past. Granted I do walk large distances these days - but for me walking is more important that diet - my food wasnt that bad to start with. It certainly wasnt generally as bad as people imagined when they saw the size of me!!! (although I certainly had my moments).

Take care
Best wishes
Margaret
 
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