imstarting2moro
New member
May, 7th 2007:
Current Mood:
Current weight: 283
What am I doing and why do I do it. I completly comprehend that I am very out of shape and I tell myself that so many times during the day but a minute later i am slurping down a milk shake and chasing it down with a large side of onion rings.
I am thinking to myself right now what I am going to be eating for lunch and its over four hours away. I am so sick of myself and what I have become. I am almost scared to weigh myself. I came on this board a few months ago when I was motivated and lost about 20 lbs. It was a great feeling, but I let it go down the drain.
I was getting my hair cut the other day and i couldent believe what I saw in the mirror. When I actually took a couple minutes out of my busy life to sit and look at myself like that and see the fat hang all over the place it made me extremely sad and embarassed for myself...just how did I let myself go.
Alright I just went and weighed myself: 283. How do I feel about this number, well I am sorta suprised it was 283, I was truly feeling 300, thats how I feel. It is defiently still a lot of weight. At this weight I feel very out of place in my body. It makes me stay home sometimes instead of hanging out with my friends and having a great time. I just dont want to feel the pain of being trapped inside this weight anymore. I hope I can do something about it, I almost feel like this is my last chance. If I dont do something I will be like this forever, wish me luck. Sorry for my rants just getting my feelings out right now, maybe it will set me free but I doubt it.
Current Mood:
Current weight: 283
What am I doing and why do I do it. I completly comprehend that I am very out of shape and I tell myself that so many times during the day but a minute later i am slurping down a milk shake and chasing it down with a large side of onion rings.
I am thinking to myself right now what I am going to be eating for lunch and its over four hours away. I am so sick of myself and what I have become. I am almost scared to weigh myself. I came on this board a few months ago when I was motivated and lost about 20 lbs. It was a great feeling, but I let it go down the drain.
I was getting my hair cut the other day and i couldent believe what I saw in the mirror. When I actually took a couple minutes out of my busy life to sit and look at myself like that and see the fat hang all over the place it made me extremely sad and embarassed for myself...just how did I let myself go.
Alright I just went and weighed myself: 283. How do I feel about this number, well I am sorta suprised it was 283, I was truly feeling 300, thats how I feel. It is defiently still a lot of weight. At this weight I feel very out of place in my body. It makes me stay home sometimes instead of hanging out with my friends and having a great time. I just dont want to feel the pain of being trapped inside this weight anymore. I hope I can do something about it, I almost feel like this is my last chance. If I dont do something I will be like this forever, wish me luck. Sorry for my rants just getting my feelings out right now, maybe it will set me free but I doubt it.
