I'm too fat and tired

[Thefatfriend]

Hello, I am 31 and am 5 feet tall and weigh probably 290 lbs. I am afraid of making it to 300lbs I am almost there I should weigh at least half of what I weigh. I am always tired and I have 4 kids 14, 13, 6 and 15 months. I am happily married (except for the weight). I just don't know where to start. I need to exercise (oh no here come the excuses) but I can't afford to join a gym. I am also very busy with 4 kids and a business to run. But I have to find time to do this as I am tired all the time and tired of looking in the mirror and seeing a stranger looking back. I don't feel like I look like the person in the mirror. I was always a normal weight before I had kids (I know it's not their fault it's mine). When I was a teenager I'm sure I had an eating disorder, I didn't eat hardly anything I would never eat breakfast or lunch when I got home from school I would eat some ice for a couple of days then other days I would eat a whole bag of doritos and drink pepsi after school. then I would feel bad and not eat for a day or two. I met my husband at 14 years old, he was 17 when we moved in together. We couldn't get married because of my age until I was 16 and pregnant (Florida law). I had a baby at 17 and 10 1/2 months later I had a second baby at 18 years old the day my second baby was born the nurse weighed my and I weighed 149 lbs. After the swelling went down I was 132 lbs. Not too bad for having 2 babies so close together. But over time I just slowly put on a lot of weight. I was on a shot for birth control for 6 years I thought that helped cause a lot of the weight gain so I switched to pills and got pregnant right away I weighed about 232 I had my 3rd child at 25 years old. I had my 4th child at 30 years old I weighed 282 at my heaviest during the pregnancy. My baby is 15 months old I play with her a lot and I get tired so easy. I wish I had more energy to do more things with my children. The weight really bothers me I am very self concious. But I like to eat. I think the only thing that will work is to starve myself sometimes but that isn't good for my kids to see. My 14 year old daughter needs to lose some weight too. She is 4 feet 11 and weighs 160 she only has a few lbs to lose. I wish I could help her. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know what I can do to get rid of this fat person that I have on the outside.

 

[MsGhettoBooty]

Hey there,

first off welcome to the WLF. My name's Sheryl and I'm one of the many "friendly faces" of the forum. Congrats to you for wanting to change things in your life. Here are a few things that may make your stay here a bit easier:

1. read and understand all stickied threads (If you have questions, just ask... others are more than happy to help.)
2. create yourself a food journal. The great thing about having a food journal is that it not only allows others to learn about you, but it gives you the opportunity to share words of advice, a few good stories, list your accomplishments, and make a few new friends.
3. skim through other diaries to get a feel for various workout programs as well as meal plans... (It's okay to steal ideas.. )
4. Find time for yourself. Even if you have to take 15 mins walks around your neighborhood twice a day. Just get out there and move.
5. Gyms can be expensive, so if you're just starting out, get out there and purchase a few free weights for weight training or bands for resistance training.
6. Most importantly, have fun and eat.

As for your daughter.. wow... I was just on this end telling my husband how close I am from reaching my weight when I was 14... 4'11"... and 161 lbs. haha! How weird. Well, good luck with your weight loss journey. Hope to see you around the forum.

-Sheryl aka MGB