loveinplaid
New member
Hi,
I'm new here and I don't really know where to start. I've always been kind of chubby and it never really bothered me. I wasn't unhealthy, I was always really active. I was probably the heaviest elite athlete I've ever seen. Since I moved away from home I've gained another 20lbs to my already heavy frame. I've always been an extremely confident person, but lately my confidence has been shaken. I've begun feeling fat. I catch a glimps of myself in the mirror and it makes me shudder. I'm sick of being called "the whale" or watched peoples eyes float down to my stomach when they meet me. I keep pushing back the date that I start getting back into shape and start eating right. I'm scared to fail. I'm scared I will let myself down, just like every other time. I'm scared I'll let everyone else down. I know I cant do it for anyone else but me, but I dont think I could look myself in the face anymore if I let myself down again. I dont like what I have become. I want and need to change. I just dont know how.
I'm new here and I don't really know where to start. I've always been kind of chubby and it never really bothered me. I wasn't unhealthy, I was always really active. I was probably the heaviest elite athlete I've ever seen. Since I moved away from home I've gained another 20lbs to my already heavy frame. I've always been an extremely confident person, but lately my confidence has been shaken. I've begun feeling fat. I catch a glimps of myself in the mirror and it makes me shudder. I'm sick of being called "the whale" or watched peoples eyes float down to my stomach when they meet me. I keep pushing back the date that I start getting back into shape and start eating right. I'm scared to fail. I'm scared I will let myself down, just like every other time. I'm scared I'll let everyone else down. I know I cant do it for anyone else but me, but I dont think I could look myself in the face anymore if I let myself down again. I dont like what I have become. I want and need to change. I just dont know how.