I'm new here too...I used to be slim and now I'm depressed b/c I've gained a lot

snowhite

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Hello everyone. This is my first post here and I'm so glad I found you all.

I am 28 years old and for the most of my life I've been satisfied with my weight which usually tinkered around 115 lbs. About a year ago I lost a lot of weight (for me since I never wavered more than a few pounds) and was at 100 pounds with my 5'2" height and was happy and energetic. I didn't try to diet nor did I exercise more than usual...my appetite for some reason was just suppressed. I was going through a lot of changes in my life (i.e. stress, a break-up, death in the family) and probably just busied myself with distractions to even notice I was hungry. Even so, I never thought about food and was completely happy with how much energy I regained. I felt like a little kid.

Anyway, the past couple of months I've regained my apetite and I'm even ashamed to say how much I've gained. I have definitely moved up about 5 clothing sizes. Now, all i can think of is how "fat" I am although I've tried to exercise more, it's really discouraging since I don't see any results. I'm hungry all the time. I feel like I'm making up for almost a year of eating very little. These days, food is always on mind and I'm so sick of thoughts of it consuming me.

I don't know what all of a sudden changed my ways although I have my suspicions. I was in a relationship with a significant other who would eat horribly and eat out all of the time, I was in an extremely stressful period with national licensing examinations and now I've moved to another state (just today). I suppose these things could have caused this strange change of appetite, but I don't see why I've done a complete 180.

Needless to say, I'm feeling really down and depressed right now. Family members I haven't seen in ages are noticing my "fatness" and are making comments such as "you gained a lot of weight". I know I shouldn't pay attention to them, but *I* in fact don't feel at all healthy. I feel sluggish and slow and sometimes I dream about cutting parts of my fat off just to fit in my clothes since nothing fits anymore.

I'm going to try my hardest to attain the weight I was before (I've included a pic to show how I looked a year ago). If I could even get within 10 pounds of that weight I would be happy....I'm MUCH heavier now, but I'm too ashamed of how I look now to take a pic.
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I'm really glad I found you all and I'm really glad this community exists so we can help each other out. Thank you for reading my first post.
 
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Welcome snowhite.

I know its hard but do not at all feel overwhelmed by the amount of weight you have to lose.

When it comes to weight loss any goal is possible if you want it badly enough.

If you've been lurking I'm sure you've read me say this before but I'll say it again if you haven't and that is definitely check out Ironman's topic in Before and After if you need motivation and to begin to believe that what you want to accomplish is possible.

Also in the On Topic section you may want to have a look at the stickied thread by Steve that gives a lot of great advice on where to start and everything else you might want to know about weight loss.
 
Thank you for the warm welcome. :) I appreciate the support and I will look at the threads you mentioned. You're right - I tend to look at the big picture and get overwhelmed...that's how I am with most things unfortunately.

I look forward to reading others' posts and learning a lot from you all. :)
 
No problem.

You're also welcomed to post in my diary and support me right back *wink wink* lol.

Then when you are ready you could make your own diary and I will be honored to be your first dwarv lmao.
 
Welcome to the community.

Honestly, you need to get a control of your mind before you take control of your body. You are focusing on all the bad stuff; stress, weight gain, the past, etc.

Focus on where you want to go and why you want to go there. Do this consistently.

How are you eating right now?

How are you exercising?

Have you heard of
 
I know how you feel. I came to this board yesterday with incredible sadness in my heart because of how my body has changed. I look at old pictures of me and just get so depressed. You came to this board for a reason, YOU ARE READY TO START YOUR WEIGHTLOSS journery! We are all here for support :)
 
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