hey there, i was in the same situation i was 340lbs. type 2 diabetic, on my way to hypertention litterally. when my doctor tells me u have 3 choices, a)you can loose weight on your own the good way,b)we can do gastric which i did not want or c)i can give you a nice pill let you lay here and leave you for a few minuets when i come back you'll be gone, i would rather u do that than have your kids find you dead somewhere. i left the office feeling like owe my god myown dr. has given up on me. well then i realized i had to figure out what was most important to me, if it be food, feeling ill all the time, depression, and a sence of loss than so be it. but i decided that i would choose my children, i thought about what would happen to them if not only i died but god forbid i killed myown self with sugar and calories, and when i started realizing what was important more than myself was when i started, little steps just keep telling yourself that little steps that lead to great big ones. if you are diabetic than start eatting like one which is what i did believe me not telling you what to do, just what i did. like the no bread thing, no refined sugar, fruit became my best friend vegtables my companion and after a while excersise my drug of choice. i know what your feeling and i am telling you that i completely understand. i went from 340lbs. to 200lbs. and am healthy, i am a controlled diabetic it will never go away so i always have to be incontroll, no hint of hypertention and my children put there hands around me and give me hugs, one day my daughter turned to me and said mom i like the you now and it felt great. i screw up we all do just remember none of us are perfect but we can be the best person we want to be. i know this is long and winded but i hope it helps a little.