I'm FINALLY completing the journey!

Antagonist1

Antagonist1

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I say "finally" because I've been doing this for a year now and have only lost 20 pounds. Sheesh, I could have been done by now. The school year was a lot more stressful than I'd anticipated - that's the main reason why I haven't lost more. Another reason is that I spent the summer in Italy and France, which I'm sure is self-explanatory. Also, I've been pretty unmotivated since my BMI dropped into the "normal" range. That's no excuse, though.
Anyway - now I'm 15, and I'm in my last year of high school, and I'd like to lose the rest of my extra weight. Mostly so I can be myself and have a good time in college next year without feeling self-conscious.
My "goal date" is basically just 2008. I think I'll have to lose about 2 pounds a week to reach it. (Just assuming. I'm too tired to do the math.)
I generally change my ticker on Fridays, but I like to weigh myself every day.
I'll post again tomorrow.
 
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Okay, I'm bored, so I'll just write my thoughts out in here for a while.
I didn't mention this yesterday but I've had some problems during the past year. There were some days when I starved myself, and once I made myself throw up. I know I'm never going to do it again. The reason I did it was because I felt so big and unhealthy, and I was extremely stressed because I was failing math and science, and I was having arguements with my friends because they were worried about me. I don't feel big or unhealthy anymore and I'm a lot less stressed because I took an exam before school started and got all my math & science credits. So yeah, things are better now. I'm ready for a good year.
 
Today I had about 1150 calories. It's a low number because I'm not feeling well and my meals were simple. See, I usually have 1500.
Tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to this fair thing. I'm not going to eat too much...maybe a hot dog for supper?? I'm not even sure what's available at a fair. I'll just have what my friends have. But not necessarily as much. At any rate, if tomorrow I feel like I did today, there won't be much of a problem.
 
I had quite a bit of food today. Here's everything:
- scrambled eggs
- one toast
- popcorn
- poutine
- 2 smallish pizza slices
- 4 jawbreakers
I'd estimate it to be around 2400-2500 calories. I usually allow myself a day like this every weekend, so I guess it's okay, but I never go that much over 2000 so it feels weird...
 
Today was okay...I mean, for a Monday. I had an extra-long gym class full of running and sit-ups, so that was my exercise. I'm going to try not to weigh myself until Friday. Just to see if I can make it for that long.
In other news - There's a girl at school that's worrying me a little. I'm pretty sure she's anorexic. She sits at my lunch table but I am yet to actually see her eat lunch. Or anything for that matter. My friends and I go to restaurants on Friday, so last Thursday we told her to come with us the next day, and she didn't end up going to school. She doesn't really have any friends in school, and I think it's because she's too self-conscious to try to make some. I feel bad.
Of course there are other anorexic girls in the school, but I don't waste any thought on them because they're sluts, really.
 
Coolness, I've lost 1.4 pounds since I started writing in here last week. I'm feeling more motivated now. It's strange that I get motivated AFTER seeing results. TGIF!
 
I've had 2090 calories, and that's it for my cheat day.
Today one friend asked me "Are you still on that diet?" and I said yep.. and the girl I've mentioned before, the one that never eats, overheard and wanted to know about it.. so I said that I've lost 20 pounds so far and she wanted to know how. So I explained to her about portion control and stuff.. and she ended up coming to lunch at a restaurant with me while I told her more. She had chicken, and a bit of fries. First time I saw her have anything but a juice box.
 
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