dutchess180
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I knew I was too heavy when I ripped the butt of a pair of jeans in THE MALL!
My name is Amber, im 23 years old and I just graduated college! YAY for me!!!
Im 5'5" and 170.2 pounds as of 30 minutes ago.
I can remember looking in the mirror i guess I was like 12 and looking at my flat stomach and saying i dont need to be skinny as long as I dont hit 150lbs ill be happy. I was about 115 then, a size 7 I think. I was also only 4'10 at the time so thinking about it now I probably was a bit of a chunker to most people.
Anyway the years passed and I got heavier, I had a pretty muscular body for being a teenager. I played softball and basketball and was a cheerleader in high school but I was still on the thick side...still thinking I was in the game because I wasnt 150 yet. I thought I was okay because I practiced 3-4 times a week so I was very active..so I thought....I was still in a size 9-10 and okay with it....I liked being "thick" I had a round bottom and thick legs that got me a lot of attention. But even though I told myself I was okay with it..I really wasnt. I really wanted to be a single digit size.
When I finally graduated high school and got into college I blew up so fast and before I knew it I was at 150. I was cheering in college and my coach was a state trooper and with camp and lifting girls, I stayed pretty tight. But I wanted to be smaller. The football players liked the 5 foot skinny 100 lb pretty girls with the long blonde hair, and here I am, 150something pounds and that bothered me at first. I was quickly in and out of the whole party frat thing. I eventually realized that I didnt give a shit if stupid football players didnt like me, besides they only wanted 1 thing anyway.
I cheered 4 years of college and stayed a solid 153 pounds, with a good body fat percent. I was very strong from lifting the flyers (who were once 100 now 120 from drinking beer every weekend) 4 times a week and hitting the gym a lot. ( I still ate crap all the time) I was easily benching over 125lbs! I knew when I was getting lazy because I wouldnt be able to see the stupid tattoo I had under my belly button.
My 5th year ( I took the 5 year plan) I couldnt deal with the commute back and forth to school. So I stopped cheering. And one day I looked on the scale and I was 165 pounds. I cried. I had never been this heavy. I looked a mess (so I thought) I wasnt happy. AT ALL. I couldnt look at myself in the mirror without crying. So I got pissed and joined a gym. And I went. 3-4 times a week and did well....that lasted about 2 months. I was paying for a gym membership and WAS NOT GOING TO THE GYM! how crazy is that. 30$ a month. down the drain. I got depressed and said screw it. Im fat, everyone in my family is fat, im destined to be fat. And the day that changed my life...
I was at the mall trying to find some strechy skinny leg jeans that would fit my growing behind. I grabbed an 11 and a 13. On the way to the dressing room I found another really cute pair, they looked small but the number was right so i grabbed them. went into the dressing room, managed to pull them up and did the jump and wiggle move to get them over my love handles, and when I bent my knees i heard the most horrible sound ever!
RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! OMG! I ripped a pair of jeans. I threw the jeans in between some stuff and ran out of the store. That was the last time I went in a mall to buy clothes. I refuse to buy anymore clothes until I lose some weight. okay so maybe ive bought 2 shirts....but no more jeans!
I NEED to lose atleast 30 lbs.
I dont have a set date, I wish I could wake up 30lbs lighter but hopefully before july 4th, maybe thats not realistic. but when I was super active I could drop weight so fast...5 lbs a week....So mabye If I had to really pick a date, by August...Im going on vacation in August and I would love to look great in a bikini...
Ive been working out 3-4 times a week for about a month now...some weeks are better than others..working out as much as 5 times a week sometimes. and I eat okay. at night is just what kills me.... my bf is so skinny he eats and eats all day long, and cant gain any weight...I on the other hand have no problem in doing that.
At the gym I do about 30-45 mins of cardio...I LOVE interval training...I do the eliptical machine and I start out at 1 then I do 100% strength as hard I can for 30 seconds, at 2 mins I increase the incline by 2 and do another 30 seconds as hard and as fast as I can. I do this until I get up to 13. Then I go back down. I burn about 350-400 calories doing it. Ive really noticed a change in my endurance...If only I could notice a difference in my butt! I also try to do a lot of weight training. I go to Lucille Roberts so my choice on machines is limited. Its really frustrating when a year ago I was bench pressing 120lbs. Im struggling with 50.
I TRY to go to the gym every other day but sometimes I only make myself go 3 times a week. I want to want to go (if that makes sense) every day. But the motivation is not all there. And thats probably why Im still 170lbs. And also the fact that I had a mint chocolate chip milkshake at 2 am last night. Oh and 1/2 a small bag (99cent ones) of doritoes and a few bites of mashed potatoes. This was my bfs fault for making me go to wawa at 2 am becuase he was hungry. like i said before he can eat at crazy hours of the night and not get fat. All my hard work in the gym (1 hr) was gone in 2 minutes. I can devour food in a nano second. I should just glue my teeth together.....
Tomorrow is another day....
Im going to the gym after class...
My name is Amber, im 23 years old and I just graduated college! YAY for me!!!
Im 5'5" and 170.2 pounds as of 30 minutes ago.
I can remember looking in the mirror i guess I was like 12 and looking at my flat stomach and saying i dont need to be skinny as long as I dont hit 150lbs ill be happy. I was about 115 then, a size 7 I think. I was also only 4'10 at the time so thinking about it now I probably was a bit of a chunker to most people.
Anyway the years passed and I got heavier, I had a pretty muscular body for being a teenager. I played softball and basketball and was a cheerleader in high school but I was still on the thick side...still thinking I was in the game because I wasnt 150 yet. I thought I was okay because I practiced 3-4 times a week so I was very active..so I thought....I was still in a size 9-10 and okay with it....I liked being "thick" I had a round bottom and thick legs that got me a lot of attention. But even though I told myself I was okay with it..I really wasnt. I really wanted to be a single digit size.
When I finally graduated high school and got into college I blew up so fast and before I knew it I was at 150. I was cheering in college and my coach was a state trooper and with camp and lifting girls, I stayed pretty tight. But I wanted to be smaller. The football players liked the 5 foot skinny 100 lb pretty girls with the long blonde hair, and here I am, 150something pounds and that bothered me at first. I was quickly in and out of the whole party frat thing. I eventually realized that I didnt give a shit if stupid football players didnt like me, besides they only wanted 1 thing anyway.
I cheered 4 years of college and stayed a solid 153 pounds, with a good body fat percent. I was very strong from lifting the flyers (who were once 100 now 120 from drinking beer every weekend) 4 times a week and hitting the gym a lot. ( I still ate crap all the time) I was easily benching over 125lbs! I knew when I was getting lazy because I wouldnt be able to see the stupid tattoo I had under my belly button.
My 5th year ( I took the 5 year plan) I couldnt deal with the commute back and forth to school. So I stopped cheering. And one day I looked on the scale and I was 165 pounds. I cried. I had never been this heavy. I looked a mess (so I thought) I wasnt happy. AT ALL. I couldnt look at myself in the mirror without crying. So I got pissed and joined a gym. And I went. 3-4 times a week and did well....that lasted about 2 months. I was paying for a gym membership and WAS NOT GOING TO THE GYM! how crazy is that. 30$ a month. down the drain. I got depressed and said screw it. Im fat, everyone in my family is fat, im destined to be fat. And the day that changed my life...
I was at the mall trying to find some strechy skinny leg jeans that would fit my growing behind. I grabbed an 11 and a 13. On the way to the dressing room I found another really cute pair, they looked small but the number was right so i grabbed them. went into the dressing room, managed to pull them up and did the jump and wiggle move to get them over my love handles, and when I bent my knees i heard the most horrible sound ever!
RIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! OMG! I ripped a pair of jeans. I threw the jeans in between some stuff and ran out of the store. That was the last time I went in a mall to buy clothes. I refuse to buy anymore clothes until I lose some weight. okay so maybe ive bought 2 shirts....but no more jeans!
I NEED to lose atleast 30 lbs.
I dont have a set date, I wish I could wake up 30lbs lighter but hopefully before july 4th, maybe thats not realistic. but when I was super active I could drop weight so fast...5 lbs a week....So mabye If I had to really pick a date, by August...Im going on vacation in August and I would love to look great in a bikini...
Ive been working out 3-4 times a week for about a month now...some weeks are better than others..working out as much as 5 times a week sometimes. and I eat okay. at night is just what kills me.... my bf is so skinny he eats and eats all day long, and cant gain any weight...I on the other hand have no problem in doing that.
At the gym I do about 30-45 mins of cardio...I LOVE interval training...I do the eliptical machine and I start out at 1 then I do 100% strength as hard I can for 30 seconds, at 2 mins I increase the incline by 2 and do another 30 seconds as hard and as fast as I can. I do this until I get up to 13. Then I go back down. I burn about 350-400 calories doing it. Ive really noticed a change in my endurance...If only I could notice a difference in my butt! I also try to do a lot of weight training. I go to Lucille Roberts so my choice on machines is limited. Its really frustrating when a year ago I was bench pressing 120lbs. Im struggling with 50.
I TRY to go to the gym every other day but sometimes I only make myself go 3 times a week. I want to want to go (if that makes sense) every day. But the motivation is not all there. And thats probably why Im still 170lbs. And also the fact that I had a mint chocolate chip milkshake at 2 am last night. Oh and 1/2 a small bag (99cent ones) of doritoes and a few bites of mashed potatoes. This was my bfs fault for making me go to wawa at 2 am becuase he was hungry. like i said before he can eat at crazy hours of the night and not get fat. All my hard work in the gym (1 hr) was gone in 2 minutes. I can devour food in a nano second. I should just glue my teeth together.....
Tomorrow is another day....
Im going to the gym after class...
