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I am now 22 years old and down to 193 from my largest weight yet 210.
That's to give an example of how weight has sat on me my whole life. Before puberty, I was an apple shape and I think a weight nearing 130-150 between 10 years old to 14 years old. I'm 5 feet tall and been so since I was 15. According to my BMI and every weight lost enthusiast, I am obese and SHOULD be between 100-135 Bls. This just does not make sense to me. Because to me I am being told I am a 22 year old woman that should have stayed at the weight I once was in 4th grade before puberty. At that age I was playing soccer and swam regularly, I wasn't a butter ball huffing along on stubby legs. I don't want to be looked at like a number, I want someone to tell me from looking at me where would be healthy FOR ME. These weights thrown around on tv, showing women who weigh less than me but look no different than me or bigger makes me feel totally conflicted. Grown men who weight lift weigh less than me. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.
Even though I'm not clear on my goals I've began regularly exercising again. I don't think I'm meant to be a petite Ellan Page or Hayden Panettiere, who look great just the way they are. I just would like to know what is reasonable for me to look great and be a small girl that can be scooped off my feet. My stomach and arms may be the parts I feel most self conscious about. I've had a prominent fat pouch under my belly button for as long as I can remember. It makes me self conscious sitting for pictures.
The questions I have are how many pounds will be enough? When will my body begin to show results? What plan would be best for me? How long will it take until it's done?
I am now 22 years old and down to 193 from my largest weight yet 210.
That's to give an example of how weight has sat on me my whole life. Before puberty, I was an apple shape and I think a weight nearing 130-150 between 10 years old to 14 years old. I'm 5 feet tall and been so since I was 15. According to my BMI and every weight lost enthusiast, I am obese and SHOULD be between 100-135 Bls. This just does not make sense to me. Because to me I am being told I am a 22 year old woman that should have stayed at the weight I once was in 4th grade before puberty. At that age I was playing soccer and swam regularly, I wasn't a butter ball huffing along on stubby legs. I don't want to be looked at like a number, I want someone to tell me from looking at me where would be healthy FOR ME. These weights thrown around on tv, showing women who weigh less than me but look no different than me or bigger makes me feel totally conflicted. Grown men who weight lift weigh less than me. I don't know why and I don't know how this happened to me.
Even though I'm not clear on my goals I've began regularly exercising again. I don't think I'm meant to be a petite Ellan Page or Hayden Panettiere, who look great just the way they are. I just would like to know what is reasonable for me to look great and be a small girl that can be scooped off my feet. My stomach and arms may be the parts I feel most self conscious about. I've had a prominent fat pouch under my belly button for as long as I can remember. It makes me self conscious sitting for pictures.
The questions I have are how many pounds will be enough? When will my body begin to show results? What plan would be best for me? How long will it take until it's done?