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wistfulwishes

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Im sorry if this 'introduction' goes into too much detail about myself. I may touch on a few subjects that men might not want to hear... so forgive me

Hi everyone, Im glad to have come across this site. Obviously I wouldnt be here unless I wanted to shed some pounds.. I have no idea what I weigh (I do not have access to a scale that can go that HIGH) but if I had to guess.. I weigh around 345lbs.. maybe even more than that. I wear size 4x tops and 3x-4x bottoms (or 28-30w size jeans)

I have been heavy my entire life, as well as ALL of my family members. I was never taught portion control, or anything about calories, or fats... and to this day I still do not concern myself about it. The most exercise I get in a day is walking to the bathroom or cooking myself more dinner.

I feel disgusting when I can sit here and eat 4 slices of pizza and still feel as if I could eat more. I'm nearly 28 years old and Ive been living like this my ENTIRE life, OBESE and unhappy about myself and my surroundings.
Im lucky enough to have found a great man who supports me.. but unfortunately he also supports my eating habits. He is also obese and was never taught any different.

The reason I want to lose weight is so that we can start a family. We have been trying to get pregnant for the last 6 years with NO luck at all.. my menstrual cycles are SO out of whack. I havent had a period in 93 days now..

I realize I shouldnt even be TRYING to get pregnant at the weight I am right now. My doctor diagnosed me with having PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) which is common in obese women and makes it VERY hard to get pregnant basically due to ovarian failure. I have an extreme case where I grow facial hair that I have to shave every single day (no kidding)
I know it sounds GROSS but I could probably grow a beard thicker than your husbands if I let it grow out ;*(
I am so ashamed of my weight, I never even told the doctor we have been trying 6 years to concieve.. Im afraid he will tell me Im too fat to get pregnant.

I want nothing more than to give my boyfriend of 8 years the family he deserves. This is my ULTIMATE goal is to lose some weight, so I may be able to get pregnant. And the ONLY way to do this is to lose the weight. BUT IM SCARED AS HELL!!! I have been working at home on the internet and babysitting on the side for money.. I think the last time I ever 'exercised' was in gym class back in high school 10 years ago

the other day I took a walk to the post office (which is 3 blocks away) and my back hurt SO badly I felt like I had to sit down and take a rest every block or so.
I just can't be at THIS weight any longer. I feel as if I'm dying. I shouldn't get winded just walking to the bathroom and my back shouldnt have so much pain while just standing for a few minutes

I need pointers in what I should do. I have NO clue where to start and I want this nightmare of fat to just go away!!

Thank you for listening.. I appreciate anything you have to say to me (good or bad!!)
 
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Welcome to the forum.

First, I'd suggest reading the various stickies on the threads. There is alot of great information there.

I'd suggest a food diary. For at least a week, write down everything you eat. We have a nice food diary section you can use. You need to be honest about it. If you have the calorie count or even the portion size, write that down. Since it seems emotional eating is a problem (it is for me too), write how you are feeling when you do eat. It can really help pinpoint the reason, which will help you fix it. For me it is boredom, so when I have the urge to munch, I go do something for 10 minutes. It usually works out.

Also, it will help you see what foods you can remove or replace to lower your calories.

If there is anything we can do to help, speak up!
 
Hello there how r u? :)


Beleave me when i say there is NOTHING impossible :)
And u have regognized the problem so you can start tackling it. I have a close relitive that also suffers in same way as u and has PCOS so i kind of know what u r talking about and how u feel.
I have lost over a 100lbs now the last 80 ive lost in the past 7 months only by doing low carb, it works and it works fast and i havent exersised all that much with it, only taking walks and swimming, but at the begining i did no exersise at all but was loosing 2-4lbs a week.
I think its true what so many ppl say, that when u start loosing u will start feeling the urge to move more.
And i think its rely important to not change to much at the same day, but take out this and that of the diet slowly, because doing a crash down diet never helps.
In time when u start changing ur menu u will feel how u rather want healthy foods then unhealthy, was like this for me, even i thougth i could NEVER in my life change myself.
For me the first few weeks were hardest but u can over come it, and thinking about ur dream and why u doing this will keep u to it :)
I know u can do this and im exited about seeing your progress. :)
 
Aww, don't be so hard on yourself and maybe pick a kinder 'handle' - 'abigloser' - given how you are feeling there is no need to call yourself names - there are enough idiots out there to do it for us!

Good luck with your hopes and dreams. Success never happens overnight and we all have to pick ourselves up time and time again. But if we keep aiming in the right direction we always get where we want to go.

Hang in there!
 
Spinner1964 said:
Aww, don't be so hard on yourself and maybe pick a kinder 'handle' - 'abigloser' - given how you are feeling there is no need to call yourself names - there are enough idiots out there to do it for us!
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Exuse me, what? Im not calling anyone names here, im here to get support and support others, and i picked my name because i have lost so much, not because i think im a loser or anyone else for that matter.
 
I am not qualified to help you, but I just want to tell you that I appreciated reading your story. I think being sick and tired of a current situation is what needs to happen. Please do not sit on this forum and only commiserate with people.

Please get help here and make changes. It can happen.
 
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